I'm back baby! Did you miss me? If you didn't I don't care, I'm to happy

This is um the 4th chapter

To summarizes what happen last chapter…. Cry hurt his back, he went to sleep, Felix couldn't resist kissing him while he was asleep, he gave cry a quick peck and cry sister jasmine (not real name.) anyway jasmine witness Felix kiss cry so ya, that happen

PG-13, unless I change it, so keep a look out!

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SORRY FOR TYPOS!

ON WITH THE STORY

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Pewdie pov (Felix)

"JASMINE! UM UM UM I CAN EXPLAIN!" she just stood there with a blank expression, her face grew red and I see a bit of blood drip from her nose, she just turned around and walked away without saying anything, I followed her very slowly, I entered the living room

She was in the kitchen holding a paper napkin to her nose, she saw me, which only made the napkin drench in more blood, she grab more napkins, "jasmine! I-I-I— she hold up her hand to tell me to stop talking then she said. "Explain to me what happen"

I sighed and walked over to her, I sat down in a chair so did she so she could face me then I spoke. "Last September me and cry were drinking and we were playing with video games…."

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Jasmine pov

Omg… he does remember last September but he told my brother he didn't, *gasp* they both remember September and they both have feelings for each other!

I have to tell my brother but first I have to know what happen to my brother and why was Felix kissing him when he was knocked out

"Wait wait wait so you are friends, why were you kissing him (like I didn't know)" Felix let out a deep sigh and then said. "Let me finish, we were playing video games

(A/n you guys already know what happen I don't need to type it up again... later)

"whoa so like you pretended you didn't remember but you actually did, then your little crush you had on my brother grew, and well all that shit, but then he hurt his back you helped, he fell asleep, then you raised his mask so he can breathe, then your feeling kick in and you kissed him…. Wow, just wow"

"You can't tell no one, you have to promise!" I was surprised by that then I said "b-but". He grew angry then said "promise you'll never tell, NOW!" I never heard him so serious and I always keep my word.

But I already promise my brother I won't tell Felix that he remembered September.

But I can tell Felix was serious that I should make the promise so I gave in.

"I promise I won't tell no one, don't worry." He sighed in relief and slumped back in his chair, great now I can't tell my brother Felix remembers September and has the same feelings and I can't tell Felix that my brother is the exact thing!

Great just great, I may be an actor but I'm no miracle worker, it went silent, then spots came and scratch my leg, I pick him up and put him on my lap, it return to complete silent, then I broke it.

"Are you going to confess your feelings?" his eyebrows crunch together"*sigh* I don't know, I just don't know… what about marzia?"

My attitude completely changed, I hate marzia I know the real reason why she likes Felix, she told me, and again I promised not to tell, DAM ME AND MY NOBLE STATE! I feel bad for Felix, sometimes I want to fly over to Italy and go with marzia and bitch slap her

"Well you can't have 2 relationships, if you do I will hurt you, don't be a player to my brother, I won't allow it." He raised his hands then said "I will only have one relationship, but I'm not sure cry feels the same way."

I bit my knuckle dam it I wish I can tell him, it grew silent.

I was distracted by my own thoughts and so was Felix that we didn't hear moans then the bed creaking until, my brother came walking in with the frozen peas that weren't that frozen

"Brother?!" he was limping and Felix was watching him with extreme caution so he won't fall. " *groan* sis what are you doing here?" his voice sounded sleepy, he rub his eyes and his lower back then Felix practically screamed . "What are you doing up, your injured."

Cry turned to Felix with a weak smile. "Felix I know, it's just that the peas thawed and well wet my bed, shit!, but I need more ice, or something cold *yawn* I'm still tired… but wait sis why are you here?"

"Cuz brother, Felix called me so I can help him help you, you are a handful, nah I'm joking I came to surprise you but seeing your hurt I could stay and help for a while" cry smiled then said. "Nah just need rest, but you can keep Felix Company and keep an eye on him, who knows what he does when I'm knocked out."

I smirked. "Ya, who knows what he does when no one around?" I looked at Felix he gave me a death glare, my brother just shrug his shoulders and went to the freezer and got frozen carrots, and put the peas in the freezer "well as long as he doesn't masturbate in this house while I'm here I'll be perfectly fine, is that okay with you princess?"

Felix face grew red then he said. "The princess understands" I raised an eyebrow then said "what's up with the princess thing?" cry then said "Felix you explain, I'm going back to sleep"

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Cry pov (Ryan)

(Later)

I got out of bed and my back feels better, I hear laughter, I went to the kitchen, jasmine and Felix were laughing, they saw me, then they motion me to come and join, I did.

"So as I was saying my relationship with marzia is amazing." My heart started to hurt, I hate marzia so much and so did my sister, but she seems perfectly fine but she's an actor I know how she feels. "Really Felix? Well what do you have in plan for your future?" my sister said then Felix smiled

"I'm going to marry her one day, we live happily ever after, we'll have children and grow old and die… (sigh) she really does love me for who I am."

I grew angry, no Felix she only loves your money, she doesn't understand you as I do, why did you let me believe that I had a chance with you,

Marzia not right for you, I am, please why don't you see that, why are you so blind you don't see my emotions towards you, please Felix open your eyes

Oh who are you kidding cry, he's happy, and he already had his future plan, why? Why did you trick your self cry? Why can't you see you would never have Felix for yourself… why?

And why are you all of a sudden mad, you just want to tear Felix away from a happy relationship that only one sided, why are you mad, you knew deep down in your heart it was never going to happen, and here's your prove, Felix I talking about his future with marzia

And my sister is here listening? Why I thought she was in my side? But she's acting… right? She has to be….

"Hey cry if I ever do marry marzia which I'm sure I well, well you be my best man?" that did it, I burst into tears, my sister looked away and Felix gave me a confused look, why did you have to ask me that? Why? You just broke me *crying* why? Did you just break my heart, might as well get a knife and stab me right here,

I cried even more, why Felix why?

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(Reality)

I jolted awake in my bed it was all a dream, not the getting hurt from the back, but the whole marzia thing, it was all a dream, but that dream made me realize, I'm never going to get a chance with Felix, and I know that, he isn't gay or bi, he's just straight, which angers me, why Felix? Why!? ….. Why?

I'm still angry, my back pain is gone but my heart pain still here, the pain of realization, and I'm angry, angry at Felix

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I entered the kitchen angry as fuck, why? cuz stupid Felix has to make me fall in love with him, my sister wasn't there anymore, Felix was watching TV, oh yes you're playing with my heart and your just chillaxing by the TV, while I'm in pain, the pain you caused

Why am I angry? Felix hasn't done anything to deserve this anger of yours

But yet again, just him being himself makes you in pain cuz you can't have him, you're forbidden to

I went to the fridge and searched something to drink, spots sensed my anger and he knows what's bothering me, it's like a mental connection, spots understands me

"Um hey?" I slammed the fridge shut once I got and small Sunny D, then I answered in an angry/annoyed voice. "What?!" that surprised him he didn't know what to say, I turned around to face him, one hand in my hip,

he struggled to form words, my voice didn't change the entire time I spoke to him. "Come on spit it out, don't be a dumbass and stand like that dumbfounded"

His jaw drop, but then he manage to say. "What's wrong? I've never seen or heard you like this?" I looked at him, I'm angry as fuck cuz I can't have you, marzia doesn't deserve you "well I just woke up and got thirsty came in here to get a drink and now I'm just being annoyed by you, so ya, that's what's wrong. Happy now?"

he was taken back, he checked me from head to toe to make sure it was me then he spoke. "what did I do to make you angry at me?" I slightly snap "you didn't DO anything that's what, you been just you, you didn't do anything, NOTHING AT ALL! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE, GO AND SPEAK TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND, JUST DON'T ENVOLE ME, CUZ YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!"

I stormed off but I didn't went to my room I went to the bathroom and slammed the door and locked, it, I finally snap, I took off my mask and threw it to the wall, I screamed in frustration then I screamed in a secret language me and my sister made

(Secret language) "WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO PERFECT? YOU AND YOUR STUPID ATRACTIVE LAUGH, FACE…. EVERYTHING, IT ONLY HURTS ME TO KNOW I CAN NEVER HAVE YOU!

THAT IM JUST GOING TO BE A BEST FRIEND! AND NOTHING MORE! I looked in the mirror to see my face.

Then I spoke saying " you will never be truly happy, you will never be happy, you will never have pewdie, you'll always be ugly and you know it, not even your best friend like likes you, you are PATHETIC CRY, PATHETIC!

I punched the mirror with all my anger it broke into a bunch of pieces, my hand was bleeding, pieces of glass was in my knuckles, it was trembling, bleeding rapidly, my anger sized but my pain grew, and I feel to my knees and started to cry,

Not cuz of the bleeding but cuz of the pain in my heart, I curled up into the corner of the bathroom, I brought my knees to my chest and put my forehead on my knees,

The bleeding wouldn't stop, *sigh* I guess I have to stop it myself, good thing I have the medical supplies here, I went to the compartment under the sink, and took out the first aid kit

I took out the tweezers and pluck out the glass pieces in my fist, then I wipe it with an alcohol wipe then wrap my fist in bandages, and I went back to crying, I hear slight knocking on the door.

"C-cry? Are you okay? I'm sorry for whatever I did." Your so blind pewdie I didn't want to speak to him but something came over me and then I said"*sob* you didn't do anything, NOTHING! YOU DID NOTHING! *sob* sob* *whimper* p-please leave me alone… *whisper* Please." I hear a deep sigh and he left, some part of me was glad he left, the other part sad and wanted him back

I continued to cry (later) I was falling asleep when I hear faint scratching and whining at the door… spots?, I crawled over to the door and opened it a bit, spots squeezed threw and I closed and lock the door, spots lick my face to wipe the tears, I saw my mask way over there but I didn't care,

I laid down on the floor, I was getting extremely sleepy, spots went to snuggle close to me I petted him with my good hand, and with that I slept

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A/n sorry for the short chapter… I think.. I don't know… and also sorry for making cry well like that, I always loved his fun side but he has to be angry and sad at the same time right? Also he's mad at pewdie for well being pewdie and it makes him angry and sad that he can't have pewdie for himself… so ya review or PM, I need to know what people think, so I know that is hold continue, and for those people who read this and don't review….. I hate you, JK… or am I?