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Alex bolted up from the fevering nightmare that possessed her, making her awake soaking wet with nausea.

She glanced over at Piper's naked back highlighted only by moonlight – she hadn't awoken her and was relieved. She glanced up at the wall and closed her eyes biting her cheeks in an attempt not to scream.

'The Terrors' as Alex called them jokingly, drawing out a Kentucky accent made her shake to her bones. 'The Terrors' haunted both of them at times but mostly they haunted Alex more. When Piper was in SHU alone for months on end there was nothing to occupy Alex's mind which in turn could only think about what was going on with Piper.

Everything in her nearly six foot frame trembled like a an animal about to be put to sleep.

She flipped quietly on her back, her arms above her head attempting to control her breathing as she closed her eyes in an effort to ward off the insane images that flashed before her.

Suddenly two calm hands touched her gently while a weight landed on her body that she hadn't quite prepared for, and she fought her first instinct of tossing up a leg to the stomach before looking into the sultry blue eyes. She struggled with the instinct to cry as she looked into them and saw the concerned they showed for her. She should've known that Piper had a sixth sense about things.

Piper looked down and smiled lightly at her "Hey gorgeous," her hand went to her forehead while giving her an anxious look.

There is nothing she can do but wait and hold her close for awhile - waiting patiently for her heart rate to slow and the tremors to calm. They do this little dance in and out of dreams. This is what happens when you are so worn down to nothing and all you can think about is who, and why and the events that lead to finally being with each other.

They both had nightmares - some about people they knew, some about people they had met and some… some so god damn gut wrenching it wasn't even mentioned.

"Bad dreams?" Piper murmured attempting to prod the raven haired goddess into speaking.

She felt Piper settle closer against her "I know exactly what that doctor said to you – but if I can't feel you in a matter of seconds, I will self destruct," Alex whispered softly as if a ghost had gathered near.

Piper grinned at her and with Alex's urging moved at a cats crawl on top of her. Alex watched her eyes change from concern to instant encouragement in the dark. She could read her every wants and desires in seconds just from her touch, or how she spoke or how her body clutched up against hers.

"I have missed you," she leans down and whispers in her ear. "There is nothing more I want in this world than you."

Alex smiled shyly and closed the gap between them. Her kisses were hungry and full of passion.

Piper moaned with pleasure "Please Alex, now."

When it came to Piper, Alex needed no encouragement as they shifted positions gasping as her skin melted with Piper's, the feeling of new life in there put her throwing her into ecstasy.

Piper pleaded but she didn't have to because Alex was already there, easily doing what she knew best. She knew Piper's body – every inch and hollow, every scar and freckle and she kissed her like it was the first time all over again.

Each and every kiss made every terrifying memory fade away slowly.

Hot and fevered she moved down her body, her mouth covering every inch of radiant skin that she could reach. "God you're beautiful," she whispered sucking gently at Piper's collarbone intending to leave a light mark.

"Only yours," the blond groaned with pleasure as her body was tightening and her heart slammed in her chest. She could feel Alex's long fingers skillfully moving inside her, hitting the exact spot that in a few seconds would rock her world.

"Not yet," she let out a gluttonous growl that called Piper back to reality. "Alex…" she panted and looked desperately at her.

Alex smiled "I love you and you need to realize that," she moved down her stomach while her fingers and hips moved in a lazy dance putting Piper on edge.

"I know baby, trust me I know. I fucking love you so much," her eyes closed as another wave passed over her and Alex knew she couldn't last much long.

"I love you too, now, come for me," her deeper voice encouraged.

Alex held her close as she kissed her feeling Piper quiver with pleasure. "You're only mine baby, now…" she urged.

She felt Piper tighten her grip and obey as she pulled her firmly to her. Her whole body shook as she finished out of breath and Piper leaned her forehead against hers trembling, and quivering against her body nearly out of breathe.

"God I fucking love you," she gasped as Alex teased her with a delightfully wicked grin on her face.

Alex raised a perfectly arched eyebrow and places a hand over the blondes slamming heart, "I know, just relax now," she whispers as she leans her forehead against hers enjoying their closeness breath for breath.

Pipers blue eyes snap open intently and Alex doesn't recognize the look of alarm on her face.

"What?!"

"Do you feel that?" she exhales shockingly and places Alex's hands over her stomach.

Alex waits painstakingly for a moment before she smiles a perfect grin at Piper.

"It's kicking Alex."

She chuckles and pulls her tighter to her "Now THIS is what dreams are made of kid."

Piper chuckles and shifts to move on her back "Yes my little ex drug lord– this is what we were made for."

Alex lets her move off of her before turning on her own stomach and propping herself on her elbows to stare at Piper in the moonlight. She plays with the platinum wedding band on her left finger.

No, this wasn't what Alex wanted 7 years ago. This is something she couldn't even dream of doing.

But now as she watches Piper settle in the sheets, her blue eyes exhausted and her body stripped away of any working components; she couldn't imagine being anywhere else in the world.

Her mind drifted as Piper glanced down staring at everything that had become her.

"Hey now, come be my little spoon," she teased in the dark.

Alex felt exhaustion hit her.

She may be stubborn but even she couldn't fight this struggle.

Life is what you make of it and who you decide to surround yourself with it. Just because the worst decisions in the past doesn't mean it isn't the greatest for the future and Alex knows this firsthand.

"I'd love too," she drawls and cuddles up against the only woman who she every cared about.