Another heartbreaking, curse filled chapter from your resident fan girl who has no social life what so ever.

Disclaimer: I still don't own teen titans kayy? *Gets up and finds Larry*

Another exhausting day of paper work and catching criminals has ended. Robin pulled up the drive way and let the engine died. He got out of his car and trudged towards the front door of their… his villa. He let out a sigh and opened the door. "I'm home!" He called out but only the eerie feeling of silence greeted him.

"Welcome home Robin!" a familiar voice cheered out.

Startled, he turned around but no one was there. His mind was getting the best of him, playing tricks, making him see and hear things. There are time when you get to the point of desperation and you start to see and hear the things you want but there's a sad reality that everything is just a trick the mind is playing on you. Robin reached that point. "Face it Robin, she isn't coming back." He told himself as he went up stairs, every step his body seemed to get heavier.

Entering what used to be their room, he sat on the king sized bed and he grabbed the broken frame that limply stood on the nightstand. Robin stared at the frame he had shamelessly thrown at Starfire, missing her by a few inches, and gone crashing into their bedroom wall. It was their wedding photo, just after they had exited the church. They both looked so happy in the crumpled picture, incased in the still broken frame. His grip grew tighter and the broken pieces drew blood out of his hand but he didn't care. He wanted her back so much but he didn't know where to find her. None of their friends wanted to help him after the incident.

Flashback

It had been a month since Starfire left, no calls; no messages, not even an e-mail to let him know she was doing okay. It's as if she completely erased herself from his life. Robin desperately tried to contact her but all efforts were useless. Raven wouldn't confess where Starfire had gone and Victor and Garfield just shrugged him off saying they had no idea where the red headed girl was. His thoughts were interrupted by a familiar beeping on his phone.

"Hello?"

"Robin, we need back up! Bring Kelly along with you. I'll send the coordinates of our location." Steve told him, hearing gunshots from the background.

Robin and Kelly rushed to the scene, being informed that they finally cornered the leader of the drug syndicate. They chased the man down an alley, avoiding getting shot in the process. With adrenaline rushing through him, Robin sped down the alley nearly catching the criminal. They were almost at the end of the alley and if the man enters the busy streets there might by casualties, something they needed to avoid. Robin ran faster, gaining a clear shot at the criminal but something catches his eye on the sidewalk just ahead, red head woman in her later 20s, walking down the street. All the memories rushed in his mind. What is she doing here? She needs to get out of here. She might get caught again and I can't stand to see her suffer because of my irresponsibility. "Starfire!" He shouted, taking two steps forward.

2 gunshots were heard as the people in the streets panicked.

The last thing Robin remembered was him lying of the cold floor, Steve telling him it was going to be okay then nothing, total darkness and cold. He woke up to the pain in his left shoulder, the sickening smell of bleach and the unusually bright light above him which tells him that he was in the hospital. Raven, Victor and Garfield were in the hospital room waiting for him to wake up. The boys greeted him and asked if he was okay. He simply nodded and looked at Raven who was sitting down in the corner, her arms were crossed and her face was not amused at all.

"Guys, can you give us privacy please?" Raven asked. The boys nodded and left the room.

"Steve told me you shouted her name before you got shot." She told him. Robin desperately tried to remember. Yes he did see her, across the street and he shouted her name so she wouldn't get caught up in the situation. "Let me tell you now that she isn't planning on coming back. She's not even on the island anymore." Raven said, standing up.

"Can you at least tell me where she-"

"No!" Raven cut him off. "She's happy Robin! She's living out her dreams that got held back because of you. Leave her alone." She added. "I just wanted to… apologize… for everything." He whispered but it was loud enough for Raven to hear. "It's too late for apologies Robin." She answered sternly. "Can you at least give me her contact number? I want to know if she's fine, what if she's dating a guy who harasses her or her boss isn't treating her right." Robin said with concern in his voice. "You don't have a right to worry about those things. You don't have a right to care if she's dating someone or not last time I checked you told her that it was a mistake for you two to be together. This is what you wanted." Raven said, approaching the door.

"Do yourself a favor and just leave her be. Go out and find someone, if Starfire isn't the missing piece of your life surely you'd find another girl." Raven said before leaving the room.

Robin laid there with a pain on his shoulder but surely the pain in his heart hurt more.

End of flashback…

Robin eventually found out about Starfire, where she was, what she did and who she's with but taking Raven's advice, he didn't contacted her. He found out that she was having the time of her life, scoring a job as a travel host on some show in New York. Starfire stayed in a fancy condominium and fortunately for Robin, she wasn't seeing anyone not yet at least but he was so sure that she must've got half of the men in New York falling for her. It seemed that there was no room for him anymore in her life and even if they were separated, they never got divorced. No one bothered to get the papers, or get a lawyer them simply just split.

Starfire opened the door to her unit and stepped in. It had been a stressful day at work, arguments going on for her next segment. As she walked down the hall of her unit, foot steps echoed through out, she couldn't help but feel lonely. She brought out a drink from the fridge and was listening to some voice mails about work and what not but one voice mail caught her attention. It was from Raven. "Hey Star, I know I haven't been calling for a while now. Things are busy over here since… well I'll have to tell you that personally. Are you available tomorrow? I'm in New York by the way so call me when you get this." And it was followed by a beep signaling the end of the message.

Starfire immediately picked up the phone and went to the balcony over looking the rest of Manhattan. She dialed Raven's number and waited for her to pick up. "Hello?" The voice said over the phone. "Why didn't you tell me you're in New York? What are you doing here anyways?" She asked. "Whoa Star nice to finally talk to you too. I can't explain over the phone, can we meet tomorrow? It's a surprise and I wanted to tell you personally." Raven explained to her over acting friend. "Oh sure, how does lunch sound? Tony's di Napoli?" Starfire suggested. "Sure thing Star, so see you tomorrow?" Raven said. "Yeah, see you tomorrow." Starfire said and the conversation ended.

Deciding that she didn't have an appetite to eat even a snack for dinner, she stepped into the shower and let the warm water rinse her sweaty skin. When she stepped out, a familiar silence greeted her. It was a cold night and she was yet again alone. The quietness and solitude made her skin crawl as she moved to her room and got dressed for the night. Starfire sighed as she sat on the edge of her good-for-two bed.

"I seriously need to get out and date." She told herself but she couldn't bring herself to do that. Every time she met a guy he doesn't have black hair, or blue eyes, or a member of a task force or simply put that he just wasn't Robin. The problem with her was that she was comparing every man she meets with Robin. Taking sleeping pills, she lay down and wished that the pills would stay effective for the night. During the past years she was diagnosed with insomnia and was prescribed sleeping pills to help her sleep, some nights they worked but most of the nights she'd wake up having nightmares and can't sleep after that. Opportunely, that night the pills worked and soon she found herself sound a sleep.

Her once in a blue moon sleep was interrupted by the constant beeping her alarm clock gave. It was an everyday wake up call from reality. She groggily sat and hit the damn clock. After combing her hair and gargling with mouthwash, Starfire headed for the kitchen. Cereal and low-fat milk was her usual breakfast, if she had time she'd cook pancakes but she didn't have time.

The clock struck 8 am as she was ready to leave her condominium unit, not going back until who knows what time in the night.

Work was usually stressful. The board was deciding whether to send her to Alaska, the adventurer's travel destination or Hawaii the tropical paradise. In her opinion, she'd rather be freezing in Alaska than go back to Hawaii. "I really think she should do a segment in Alaska, the glaciers and hot springs up there phenomenal." One of the board members said. "But I believe she must make a segment in Hawaii, the Merrie Monarch Festival is coming up and I believe a few people in the main land know about that." Another said.

After discussions, agreements and disagreements they have reached a decision to where she shall make her latest segment. "That's it; we've decided that Starfire will go to Hawaii. Besides according to you resume you've partially worked there so it won't be hard for you." The head board member announced. Starfire let out a string of mental curses. There was nothing she could do now, like it or not she was going back to Hawaii.

She stormed out of the office and made her way to the Tony's di Napoli restaurant where she immediately found her friend. After sitting down Starfire immediately asked questions. "Can we wait until we order something? Geez you're still the anxious one." Raven told her. The waiter approached them "May I take your order?" He asked in a smooth silky voice. "Well I…" Starfire looked up at him and stared wide eyed. The waiter had jet black hair and was obviously coated with a decent amount of hair gel and his eyes were deep sapphire blue. 'Richard' was written on his name tag. "Yes ma'am?" He asked with a cocky smile. "I… uhm…" Starfire said looking at the menu, forgetting what she wanted. "I'll have spaghetti Bolognese." Raven said, hitting Starfire's leg in the process. "Uh yeah I'll have Fettuccini Carbonara." Starfire managed to say. The waiter made his way back to the kitchen as Starfire stared off at him.

"Distracted are we?" Raven asked, snapping Starfire out of her daze. "Striking resemblance of Robin don't you think?" Raven teased.

"Stop it Raven." Starfire said clearly not amused. "What're you going to tell me anyways?" She asked.

"I was kind of hoping that you'd go back to Hawaii." Raven said. "I thought we had this talk before… I'm not going back and nothing you can say or do can make me come back." Starfire said bitterly. "Not even your best friend's wedding?" She asked. Starfire faced her with a surprised expression. "What!? With who?" Starfire asked. "Garfield…" Raven answered showing her engagement ring.

Of course they had a thing for each other even from before but Starfire didn't know about them dating much less the engagement. After a slight argument on why Raven did not tell her about it, Starfire hugged her and congratulated her. "So you're coming for my wedding?" Raven asked her, taking a fork full of pasta. "He's coming too, isn't he?" Starfire asked, staring at the Italian dish in front of her. "Well of course he is the best man after all." Raven answered. Starfire sighed.

"First my boss wants me to do a show in Hawaii, next is your wedding. It's as if the world is screaming that I should go back but I can't. Not permanently anyways." Starfire said. Raven handed her the purple invitation and stared at her name. Maid of honor: Starfire Grayson and the name across hers best Man: Robin Grayson. "Why the hell am I a Grayson here?" Starfire asked, pissed off. "Let me point out to you that you two never got divorced. No papers, no lawyers, no hearings, you just left." Raven told her. "I think its common sense!" Starfire said in defense. "It's the law Star… you're still a Grayson according to that marriage certificate and it's not void either." Raven pointed out.

"Note to self: find a lawyer and get divorced." She muttered, finally deciding to eat.

"I don't think you want to get divorced." Raven said. "What makes you say that? Of course I do!" Starfire said in her defense. "Besides the fact that you're still affected when you see someone who looks like him like our waiter and the other fact that it's been 5 years and you still haven't pluck up the courage to get divorce. If you really did plan to, either of you would've gotten the papers 4 years ago." Raven was right, she hated to admit it but Starfire was still hoping that this could be fixed. Why was she realizing this now?

"You still love him." Raven said with a straight face.

"No I don't." she answered.

"Yes you do. I can sense it."

"I'm not having this conversation Raven." Starfire said, avoiding the topic.

"Fine… he hasn't dated anyone after you by the way." Raven teased.

"Enough Raven, it's not funny."

Raven just chuckled and they continued eating. After paying the bill which Raven generously volunteered to do, they head out. Raven warned her that if Starfire doesn't attend the wedding then Raven will curse her for life. They hugged good bye and went their separate ways.

That night, everything Raven said kept Starfire up. Why didn't they bother to get the divorce papers? 5 years had passed and they still weren't divorced, or even separated. She was still Starfire Grayson, his wife and maybe Raven was right she might still love him and he might still love her back. None of them dated after that incident anyways.

There was one thing she was sure of. Just like before, destiny was playing their lives. No matter what she did to avoid it, she was destined to go back to Hawaii.

I'm finally done with this chapter because I might not update for a while… stupid reasons though :/

Review guys please, it would make me want to update this sooner :D