"Are you going to be able to make it to my Sectional competition?" I ask Sara over the phone one evening. I was told my school is hosting this year's competition which also happens to fall during the Thanksgiving break.

"Yes babe I wouldn't miss it for the world" I grin like an idiot. Sara's the best. "But you know I'll have to go home the next day right? I promised my mom I would stay home this break"

"I know" I say a little disappointed.

"Why don't you come back with me? We all miss you over here"

"I miss everyone too but I promised my dads I'd stay home"

"That's okay. Maybe next break you could spend it with me" I feel bad. I want to spend this break with her but I really can't. "So..." Sara says changing the subject. "Do you think your little club is going to win this competition?"

"I don't know, maybe. I'm really nervous about it though. I've never sang in front of a bunch of people. I've never sang in front of anyone before. What if I panic and nothing comes out or worse what if I forget the words"

"I'm sure you'll do just fine. Think positive babe"

"But they gave me a solo to do. A SOLO" I shout in the phone. "Meaning I'll be standing there singing all by myself"

"Well if you get scared and feel like you can't do it look for me in the audience. Focus on me and pretend it's only me and you in the room" I hear my phone beep so I pull it away from my ear and look at it. I have a message from Santana.

Santana- "Are you ready? I'm here"

Rachel- "Yes. Be right down" I text back.

"Is that clicking? Are you texting?" I hear Sara ask.

"Sorry love it's Santana. I'm going to the movies with her and some friends right now" I quickly say before looking at my phone again.

Santana- "I don't have all night Berry. Get your ass outside"

Rachel- "LANGUAGE!"

"RACHEL STOP TEXTING" Sara yells in the phone.

"Sorry, sorry. I have to go. She's here"

"Are you really ditching me for Santana?"

"I'm not ditching you for Santana. I'm going to the movies with some friends"

"Uh huh"

"Would you like me to cancel? I can stay home and talk to you all night if you want" Sara doesn't say anything and it's annoying me just a bit. "Sara? Do you want me to cancel?"

"No" She finally says in a grumble. I grab my jacket and start making my way downstairs.

"I'll call you when I get home if it's not too late" I yell a quick bye to my dads and walk out the door. As I approach the car I see Santana pointing to her watch. "I have to go now" I tell Sara as I open the car door and get in. "I love you"

"Aww I love you too baby" Santana teases with a grin and I smack her arm.

"Oww"

"What did she just say?" I hear Sara say but I don't have time to answer her because Santana grabs the phone out of my hands. I try getting the phone back but she keeps hitting my hands away.

"Can you hurry and say goodbye we have a hot date to get to" My eyes go wide. I can't believe she would say that. Why would she say that? Santana hands me the phone and I get an ear full from Sara.

"No. No. It was just a joke. I don't know why. She's just being a brat right now" I look over and glare at Santana. She starts to laugh. "Yes I promise I will. I have to go now. I promise. Yes. What? Okay I will. Okay. I love you, bye" I end the call and put my phone away. "Thanks for that"

"You're welcome" I roll my eyes and put my seat belt on.

"That wasn't even funny. She was ready to come down here" Santana laughs and shrugs her shoulders.

"Well I think it was hilarious" She smiles as she takes the car out of park and drives away.

WELCOME TO SECTIONAL

I look up at the banner and my heart begins to race. I don't think I can do this. I don't' think I can do this. I repeat over and over in my head. I open the auditorium doors and see that it's starting to fill with tons of people. Is it too late to back out of this? I don't even know why I signed up for this stupid club anyways.

"You're going to be just fine" I close the door and see Santana standing next to me. "Just remember to breathe"

"I can't do this"

"Yes you can. We've been practicing this forever. You know the words left to right"

"What if nothing comes out? Like the first day I sang in glee. I don't even think I'm that good. You should take the solo"

"You're amazing and going to be amazing out there" I give Santana a small smile. "Just remember I'm only a few feet to the right of you and after you finish your mind blowing solo I'll be standing next to you the rest of the way. Now come on Schue wants to give us a pep talk" We both make our way to the choir room and see everyone huddled by the piano.

"Rachel, Santana good you're here" Mr. Schue says. "I'll make this short. I know it sounds like I'm repeating myself but I am proud of all of you. I want you to go out there and give your all and Rachel" I look at him and then everyone's eyes go on me. I swallow a lump the size of a golf ball and smile. "I know this is your first competition. I'm sure you're feeling all kinds of emotions but I just want you to relax, breathe and have fun. I'll see you guys out there" Mr. Schue leaves and we all stand around talking while we wait for our cue.

"Are you nervous?" I just look at Kurt.

"What kind of stupid question is that Lady Hummel?"

"Santana be nice" I tell her and she just rolls her eyes. "Yes Kurt I'm a little nervous"

"Girl don't worry you're an awesome singer you're going to do just fine" Mercedes tells me and I give her a smile.

"Hello?" Everyone turns their attention to the door and I see Sara.

"Sara!" I quickly walk over to her and give her a big hug. "Come on" I drag her outside the room and then hug her again.

"You actually came"

"Of course, I told you I would" Sara smiles before giving me a quick peck on the lips. "How are you feeling?"

"Nervous, scared"

McKinley High you're on in 10. McKinley High you're on in 10.

"I can't do this"

"Sure you can babe" Sara kisses me again and that's when I hear an "OH" I break away from Sara and see Kurt smiling at me.

"I just came out here to tell you we need to go but umm…Hi I'm Kurt" Kurt says as he extends his hand to Sara. Sara shakes it and smiles.

"I'm Sara"

"And you're Rachel's…" Kurt starts to say.

"She's my girlfriend" I finish and he just gives me a big smile.

"I knew it"

"What do you mean you knew it?" I ask a little confused.

"You're not fooling anyone Rachel. I knew you were gay the minute I met you I just didn't know you were hiding away a girlfriend and a pretty one I might add"

"You really knew?"

"Yes and I also caught you staring at some Cheerios during Glee" Kurt says with a wink and I blush a bit.

"I wasn't staring at them" I tell Sara and she just smiles at me.

"It's okay babe. Were they at least hot?"

"Quinn, Brittany and Santana? I give them all 10s but if I'm scoring them on personality it would be completely different story" Kurt says and then I see Sara's eyebrows narrow in.

"Hey Lady Hummel, Berry let's get going" We all turn and see Santana by the door.

"Well it was really nice to meet you. Hopefully Rachel doesn't hide you anymore and we all can hang out soon. Enjoy the show" Kurt leaves and Santana comes over.

"Hey Sara ball" Santana says in a teasing tone which I know is making Sara mad. She pulls me away from Santana and starts kissing me. I can tell she's mad and trying to prove a point because her kiss is a little rougher than usual.

"I'll see you after the show. Good luck" Sara walks away and when I see that she's completely gone I turn to Santana and smack her across the arm.

"Oww. You need to stop doing that"

"You need to stop making her mad"

"When she stops being an ass I'll stop. Promise" Santana smirks and I have no choice but to smile and shake my head. "Come on let's go before everyone kills us for being late and losing the competition" We quickly walk to the backstage area where the rest of the gang is at. We all do a quick performance prayer before we hear "And next up McKinley High School"

"You got this Rachel" I nod my head but still feel scared out of my mind. I walk out to the stage and the lights shine straight into my eyes. I squint as I try adjusting to the light. My heart is pounding and I try looking for Sara but I can't find her in the crowd. The lights are too bright so I do the only think I can think of. I look over to my right. I see Santana and she mouths you can do it and suddenly when the music starts all my worries and fear go away and I start to sing.

"Rach you totally kicked ass today" After our win at Sectionals Noah decided to throw a party to celebrate. I really didn't feel like coming but Noah threatened everyone that didn't come with slushie facials so here I am. It didn't take long to convince Sara to come she was more than willing.

"Language Noah" I tell him as he puts his arm around my neck and walks me to the table where Sara, Sam, Mike and Finn are all playing quarters.

"Your girlfriend is killing it" Noah tells me and I just laugh. Apparently Kurt took it upon himself to tell everyone about Sara and me. I was kind of annoyed that he just went ahead and told everyone. It's like he outted me in a way but I guess it's a relief. Everyone knows now.

"Babe, watch this" Sara hits the table and makes the quarter into the shot glass. "Drink up Puckerman" Noah frowns but takes his shot.

"You're going to regret that later. Right princess" Noah gives me a nudge and I just shake my head. I look over to my left and see Brittany talking to a swaying Santana. I let out a small laugh.

"I'll be right back" I tell Sara but she's too into the game to notice that I'm leaving. "Hey" Both Brittany and Santana smile at me.

"Hi Rachie. Good now you can watch Sanny while I go get more drinks. You want anything?"

"No thank you" Brittany smiles and dances away.

"Not drinking tonight?" Santana asks me.

"No. I'm driving"

"Sucks for you because this stuff is really good" Santana gives me a goofy smile before taking a drink and I can't help but laugh.

"You're so drunk" Santana shrugs her shoulders and takes another drink out of her cup. "I have to pee come with me" Before I can protest Santana is pulling me inside with her. She starts to make whining noises when she sees Quinn and Tina waiting in the bathroom line. "Oh Puck has a bathroom in his room let's go" I follow Santana and laugh when she stumbles to the bathroom door. I take a seat on Noah's bed while I wait. When she finally comes out she collapses face first next to me on the bed.

"If you fall asleep I'm leaving you here"

"No you won't" Santana lifts her head and gives me a big smile. "Wanna cuddle?" I roll my eyes.

"I never got to say thank you for today" I start to tell her. "You're the reason I got through the completion"

"Really?" I nod my head yes. "Well since I helped you maybe you should help me by cuddling with me. Just for a little bit"

"I'm not cuddling with you" I say with a laugh which makes her pout and I can't help but find it really adorable.

"Come on let's get back to the party" I get up to leave but Santana quickly grabs my arm and pulls me back down.

"I wanna tell you something"

"Okay"

"But I...I don't want to ruin our friendship" I give her a confused look. I have no idea what she's talking about. "Promise you won't freak or stop talking to me if I tell you"

"That depends on what you're going to tell me" I look at Santana and she looks really scared. I'm not sure what's going on. "What's going on? Just tell me" I watch her take a deep breath and she finally sits up all the way and faces me.

"Rachel I...I like you. Like as more than a friend"

"Ha ha very funny Santana" I tell her as I roll my eyes. She's always joking around.

"I'm not joking" Santana says seriously.

"You don't know what you're saying right now. You're drunk" I see a mixed flash of anger and hurt sweep across her face.

"I maybe drunk but that doesn't change the way I feel"

"I think we should talk about this later. When you're sober"

"I've liked you since we were kids Rachel" Santana continues to tell me. "That's why Sara doesn't like me. She knows and deep down you had to have known too" My heart starts to pick up speed when I see Santana inch her face closer to mine. I try swallowing but find it extremely hard to do.

"Santana I can't. I'm with Sara" She gives me a sad smile.

"I know" She reaches out and lightly drags her pointer finger down from the bottom of my ear, across my jaw line, across my bottom lip and then lightly pulls down at it. "I wish you weren't" She says softly and suck in a breath of air and lick my lips before exhaling.

"Santana I can't" I say again. At this point I don't know if I'm saying it to convince her or me.

"I know" She tells me again and this time when I look into her eyes I see something I've never seen there before. Want, desire but above all that love. She gives me another smile and that's when I press my lips against hers. I feel her immediately respond as she brings her hand to cup my cheek and that's when we both start to deepen the kiss. I wasn't expecting to feel the way I was feeling. I could literally feel my heart expanding and a rush of warmth washed over my body. In that moment I forgot where I was. It's like the world stopped and it was only Santana and I. It wasn't till we both heard a loud bang outside that we split apart. My eyes widen when I realize what I had just done. What I was just doing.

"I...I have to…go" I get up from the bed and race out the room. I go back outside and frantically look around for Sara. When I see her with Noah and Sam I race over to her. "I want to go" I tell her in her ear.

"But babe I'm on a roll"

"Please" I beg her with tightness in my voice. She must have picked up on the urgency because she gives me a questioning look but nods her head.

"Alright guys I think it's time for us to go" The boys boo at her. "I'll come back and play another time" We quickly say our goodbyes and drive home in silence. The minute we get inside my room I push Sara against the wall and start kissing her. I unbuckle her belt and then start pulling her shirt up and over her head.

"What happened to not having sex while your dads are here?" Sara tells me.

"I don't care" I continue to kiss her as I start to back up pulling her with me until I feel the back of my knees reach my bed. I stop for a brief moment just so I can lay back on the bed. Sara follows hovering over me helping me out of my shirt."I'm yours" I tell her and Sara just smiles at me.

"I know babe and I'm yours" Sara begins to kiss me up and down my neck and I'm trying to choke back the sobs and wipe my tears away to hide the fact that I'm starting to cry but I don't do a very good job because Sara stops her actions and looks at me with concerned eyes.

"Are you okay?" I nod my head yes and try to kiss her but she backs away. She rolls over so she's on her side and starts wiping away my tears with her thumb. "What's wrong babe?" She asks but I just shake my head.

"Just hold me. Please" I tell her trying not to cry. Sara nods and pulls me close to her, kissing my shoulder before saying "I love you" in my ear.

"I love you too" I say back. I lay there for a bit replaying what happened and I start to softly cry. I cheated. I'm a cheater. I know Sara's still awake because she tightens her grip on me. I'm trying to stop crying I don't want to worry her more than she probably is but I just feel like utter crap. I'm the worst girlfriend in the world.