AN: I'm really sorry about the cliffhanger. I know most of you didn't like that I left it there but it felt like a good place to stop or else the chapter would have gone on forever. Hopefully this chapter makes up for it and I didn't screw it up to much. Again thanks for the reviews and follows. This story is pretty much written and done with but with every review I get I tend to change it around when it comes to editing time. So if there is something that you want to know or see happen please let me know and I'll try and fit it in. Your thoughts do matter to me. Okay now on with the story :)

"FINALLY" Sara shouts in the phone. "I've been calling and texting you"

"I know I just…" I stop and sigh.

"I can't believe Kristi told you what she did" Sara starts to tell me ignoring that fact that I never finished my sentence. "I was so mad at her. I really wished you would have answered your phone. I wanted you to come back. I wanted to explain that it wasn't what you think. I was…" Sara continues to ramble on but I stop listening and just let her go on and on until finally I can't take it anymore.

"SARA" I shout and she goes quiet. "We need to talk"

"Why" I can tell she's not happy because her voice is a little strained.

"Because we do"

"Is this about Kristi because I can tell you right now nothing happened, I made her leave I was so mad at her"

"It has to do with a lot of things" The line goes silent. "Can you come over so we can talk or would you like me to come to you?"

"If you're going to break up with me just do it now?" She says with such sadness that my heart breaks a little bit.

"Can we please talk?"

"We are talking and if the conversation is going where I think it is I rather you just do it now" The sadness in her voice is really hurting and making me not want to have this talk but I know it has to be done.

"I want to talk face to face, you and me without the phone between us" The line goes silent again.

"Fine" She finally says. "I'll come to you though. It will give you time to come up with the perfect break up speech"

"Sara…" I begin to say but she cuts me off.

"Don't. Don't say anything else. I'll be there in a while and you can give me your speech and break my heart then" The phone clicks and I start to cry all over again.

When my crying subsided I decided to clean my room hoping it would distract me and keep my mind off of things until Sara gets here. No such luck because everything I touch, everything I see brings back memories of her and now my head is in a million places. Is this really the right thing to do? Is she really cheating? Should I give this one last shot? Can I fall back in love with her and make this work? In the mist of my confusion I hear my phone go off and I know it can't be Sara. It's too soon for her to be here and she knows I don't like when she texts and drives. I go over and pick up the phone and see that it's Santana.

Santana- "What the hell Berry? You could have at least told me you were leaving" I wince a little knowing I should have said something to her. I mean I was going to but I needed to get out of there and getting out of there fast so I didn't say anything at all. I type a response but then delete it. I do this a few more times before I just give up and don't respond at all. I'm not really sure what to tell Santana right now. I put the phone back down and go back to cleaning and eventually I lay down for a bit.

"Rach?" I slowly blink my eyes open when I hear my name and soft knocking at my door. I'm a little confused. I don't remember closing my eyes or falling asleep for that matter. I rub my face and yawn as I look over at the clock. I've been asleep for a few hours now. I get out of bed and make my way to the door and open it. I frown when I see Sara standing there with her hands in her pockets staring down at the ground.

"You could have just came in you know" I tell her and she looks up at me. Her eyes are puffy and red and my heart breaks. She's been crying and I feel horrible for being the reason why.

"Yeah well…I didn't know if I was allowed to come in or not" Her words sound so broken.

"You came into the house but you weren't sure if you could come into my room?" I say with a small smile hoping to break the awkwardness that's forming between us.

"Your dads were on their way out and made me come in" I frown again when she doesn't smile back. "So…can I come in or are we doing this somewhere else?" I step aside and gesture for her to come in. I close the door and we both kind of stand there not knowing what to do. "Hi by the way. I would kiss you like I normally do but I'm sure that's what you want any more so can I at least give you a hug?" I reach for her arm and pull her into a hug. My arms go around her waist and her arms are around my neck. I feel her grip tighten around me. "Please don't leave me" She whispers in my ear as she starts to cry which only makes me start to tear up. I pull away and wipe the tears that are falling from her eyes.

"We need to talk Sara" She frowns at me and I take her by the hand and lead her to the bed where we both take a seat next to each other.

"Do you love her" Sara asks me and I just look at her with a confused expression.

"Love who?"

"Santana, do you love her?"

"What?" I'm beyond confused right now.

"You said you wanted to talk"

"I wanted to talk about us not Santana"

"But she's the reason for this talk right? You're going to dump me for her" I continue to look at Sara with confusion clearly written across my face. "So go ahead break up with me but just know she won't give you everything I gave you. She can't love you like I can" And that's when my confusion turned into anger.

"Do you love Kristi?" I snap at Sara.

"What?

"I said Do. You. Love. Kristi?" I say emphasizing each word.

"What does she have to do with this?"

"Everything" I tell Sara straight into her eyes. Are eyes stay locked for a few more seconds before Sara finally looks down in defeat. "I want to know everything Sara. I deserve to know everything" She nods her head and sighs.

"Okay but I want to know everything too"

"When" Is all I say and Sara frowns because she knows exactly what I'm asking.

"Since the party I ditched you to go to" I bite my bottom lip as I feel the tears start to pool around my eyes. Thinking she was cheating compared to her actually confirming she is, is a completely different feeling, it hurts way more.

"Have you…" I trail off not wanting to finish the sentence.

"Once" She tells me and I close my eyes as my heart shatters in a million pieces. "I don't even remember it I was drunk" I open my eyes just to roll them at her "Remember when I came over and apologized?" I nod my head yes. "And Kristi called?" I nod my head yes again. "She wanted me to tell you about it. She didn't want to keep it from you"

"How sweet of her" I say dryly.

"I'm so sorry" Sara grabs my hands into hers. "It was such a stupid mistake and I've regretted it ever since"

"Why didn't you just tell me?"

"I didn't want to hurt you" I pull my hands away.

"And keeping it from me this whole time was better?" Sara looks down again. "So is Kristi the reason you missed my competition yesterday?" Sara looks back up at me and shakes her head no.

"No. You know I would never intentionally miss it. Even if she asked me too"

"Then why didn't you come? What was so important?"

"Jason" I give Sara a confused look. What does her baby cousin have to do with this? "My uncle went crazy and dropped him off at my house and since my parents weren't home I had to watch him. I would have taken him to the competition with me but I didn't have a car seat and you know how that monster can be sometimes"

"Why didn't you just tell me?"

"I didn't want to worry you with my problems"

"But I'm supposed to be your girlfriend Sara, your best friend. You should know you can tell me anything"

"I know. I wanted to come down after my parents got home but I was forced to watch the little brat while my they went looking for my uncle."

"Why didn't you just tell me this when I texted you? I would have come over and helped" I tell extremely frustrated.

"I know but I knew Puck would throw a celebration party after you guys won and I didn't want you to miss it" She says with a small smile. The first smile I've seen her give since she walked in my room but I don't smile back.

"I don't care about parties and you know it"

"Yeah I know" She says sadly.

"You wanted Kristi there to help you instead of me? That's why you never told me huh?" I frown and so does she. "You love her don't you?" I ask Sara as a shooting pain hits my heart. She looks at me with tears in her eyes and just shrugs. "I need words Sara"

"I don't know"

"Lying to me again?"

"What about you? I know you haven't been an angel either" She tells me avoiding the question. "I'm sure you and Santana have been having a blast behind my back"

"You really don't know me at all do you?" I say so disappointed in her.

"So you haven't done anything?"

"I have" I tell her honestly and Sara's face turns a little angrier. "I've kissed her once"

"I knew she would try something on you. I just knew it. That's why I didn't want you around her"

"I" I correct her. "I kissed Santana. Not the other way around. It was me"

"Doesn't matter she still went with it and the next time I see her I'm kicking her ass. I told her to stay away from you" I shake my head.

"Did you really?"

"Did I really what?"

"Did you tell her to stay away from me?"

"I…well…not exactly but I've been trying my best to keep you from her"

"So everything Santana told me was the truth? You've been keeping me away from her since we were kids?" Sara slowly nods her head yes and I lose it. "Do you know how stupid you've been making me look? You've been cheating and lying and I believed everything you were saying because I trusted you. I'm so stupid I defended you and for what?"

"I'm sorry"

"Sorry isn't going to work Sara"

"I know but please don't break up with me. I love you and I can change. I'll never cheat or lie to you again"

"You don't love me" The tears are falling from my eyes but I have no interest in wiping them away. "If you loved me you wouldn't have lied to me for so many months"

"Please don't break up with me" Sara begs this time with tears in her eyes.

"Why? Give me one good reason why I should stay with you?" She doesn't say anything. "Sara!"

"Because I don't know how to live without you okay" She shouts at me and I just sigh. "I know that's a stupid thing to say but I just…I feel that if we break up that's it, it's over. I lose you forever and I don't know how to live without you in my life"

"So you rather us stay together so you can continue to cheat on me?"

"No, never. I told you I'll never cheat on you again"

"That's not good enough Sara"

"I didn't plan for any of this to happen, Rach. I wanted us to be together forever"

"I know but it is happening"

"I don't want it too. Just don't break up with me. Give me, give us another chance. Please" Sara grabs my hand into hers and just gives me the saddest eyes in the world. "Please Rachel" I just look at Sara and I want to just say okay. I want to tell her we can try again but deep in my heart I know that's not the right thing to do. It's obvious that she doesn't love me the way she used to and I don't love her the way I used to either. We are two different people.

"I can't"

"Why? Don't you love me?"

"I do"

"Then? Why can't we start over? Clean slate"

"Because I'm not in love with you anymore" I say sadly and Sara let's go of my hands and gets up off the bed and turns away from me. "You're not in love with me either Sara" She turns around and her face is full of tears.

"I don't want to lose you"

"And you won't" I tell her as I get up and wipe away her tears. "But we both deserve to be happy and right now we're not making each other happy the way we used too"

"You do make me happy"

"But you're in love with Kristi" Sara looks down to the ground. "You know this is the right thing to do for the both of us" Sara nods in agreement and then I pull her into a hug. We hug each other until we both realize it's really over.

"Promise me you won't disappear from my life" Sara tells me as we break apart.

"I promise. You're still my best" She gives me a small smile and I smile back.

"So… do I have to leave now or can we hang out for a bit?"

"We can hang out. Movie?" Sara nods her head yes and goes back to sit on the bed and I make my way to my movie pile I have on the floor. "What do you want to watch?"

"A horror movie. I don't think I can handle any romance and I'm not in the mood to laugh" As I continue to look through my movies Sara says "You know I'm never going to be okay with you dating Santana" I look over at her and sigh. "I'm just being honest"

"And if I dated someone that wasn't Santana?"

"I still wouldn't be okay with it" I roll my eyes and continue to look through the movies. "You never answered me though"

"About?"

"Do you love Santana?" I stop and look over at Sara.

"I care about her but I don't love her"

"At least not yet right?" I frown at Sara and ignore what she just said. I don't want to talk about Santana with her right now. When I finally come across a movie that has to be Sara's because there is no way I would ever buy this. I get it and put it behind my back. "I think this movie is yours" I say with a big smile as I come closer to the bed. "It's one of the scariest movies you probably own"

"What is it?" Sara has this really cute confused look on her face. I continue to walk over to her side of the bed and then bring the movie forward to show her.

"Justin Bieber Never Say Never. I mean really who owns this?" I watch as a big smile spreads across her face and before I even have time to think Sara lunges forward and grabs not only the movie but me and I fall on the bed. Sara pins me down and is now straddling me and waving the movie in my face.

"Say you love Justin and I'll get off of you"

"Never"

"Never say never"

"That was so lame. Now get off" Sara smiles and rolls off of me. I go and put the movie in and come back to lay on my bed.

"Sara"

"Yeah"

"Just for the record, I'll never be okay with you dating Kristi or any other girl either" She rolls her eyes and smiles at me and I can't help but to smile back.