Chapter 11- Decisions

Author's Note-

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On another note, what do you think Peeta is going to do? Only time will tell…

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They walk away without another word with pleased smirks spread across their faces, I glare after them, not wanting to back down and admit defeat. I look over to Peeta, he still looks completely shocked. I can practically see the wheels turning in his head as their words sink in. I take his hand in mine and give it a reassuring squeeze. He gives me a half hearted smile before pulling away from me.

Did he just pull away from me? He's never done that before. What is up with him, he won't even look at me and he has that look of guilt spread across those perfect blue eyes of his. He can't honestly be considering their offer? Or could he? Surely not. He wouldn't do that to me, he couldn't not after everything. He promised!

My mind is going a thousand miles and minutes as thought after thought is pushed into my head then followed by a worst one, I feel myself crumbling at the seams and I know if he does leave me I will never make it through the first day. I want to ask him what he is thinking, to ask him his decision but words have failed me. I open my mouth to speak but nothing comes out and my mind goes blank, I close the gaping hole accepting it's no use.

"P..Peeta…" I finally manage to find the words but he cuts me off before I can continue.

"Please Katniss, I need time to think, forgive me" with that he gets up and leaves. I feel cold, like he was a radiator I was sitting next to that just turned off. I'm baffled, did that really just happen? No I must be daydreaming or something, it's the only explanation. I close my eyes and pinch myself, then open them again but I am still sitting alone, everyone has gone back into the training hall, I get up and walk towards the door. Emotion trying to over take me, my heart feels like it's in my throat, tears sting my eyes and threaten to make an unexpected appearance.

Peeta is over by the camouflage, our eyes meet from across the room but it isn't the usual loving eyes staring back at me, these are glazed over with guilt and pity, he instantly drops his gaze and looks uncomfortable under my own. Find then. I'm going to go try out the archery station. Screw what Haymitch says it's not like I'm going to show off my true talent for the subject, especially with the careers eyeing me. I walk in the opposite direction from Peeta; this earns a couple of awkward stares. I reach the archery station and pick up a steel bow from the rack. It is heavier and strung tighter then my one back home, but it feels comfortable. I pick up an arrow and set it all up before taking aim slightly off the bull's eye so I don't look as good and fire. It flies wide by at least a 2 feet, which is to be expected considering it's new to me, but even knowing this I stare in disbelief.

I shoot the next arrow again aiming slightly off and this time is hit exactly where I wanted. I shoot a couple more just enjoying the feeling, but I make sure only maybe 3 hit the target. I pick up the last arrow and take aim once more before I tense at his touch.

He covers his hands with mine and I can feel the instinct to fight boil up inside me. "You want to aim like this" he purrs. He lets the arrow fly and it hits the bull's eye. "See, so why aren't you with lover boy?" He realises his grip on my hands and I turn to face him, glaring as I see it's the boy from 1. "Did you two have a fight?" he mocks, I just glare at him not trying to give him any satisfaction in my reaction. "You're cute, when you're angry "he laughs, pulling me close to him trying to force his lips upon mine, I wiggle and squirm out of his grip before he can process what is going on, I kick him hard in the balls. He bends over in pain as he lets out a strangled gasp of air. "Bitch!" he accuses, I bend down close to his face "try that again and you'll lose them" I grin and let my shin connect with his shine. I tap his cheek mockingly before realising the stares and Peeta standing before me. He looks pissed as well as shocked, but rather then picking a fight he just asks me "are you okay?" he struggles to not let anger take over. "Yeah, I'm fine" I add smiling. He just nods before turning to walk away.

"Peeta…" I grasp his arm forcing him to turn and face me. "Don't Katniss..." he mumbles. "Why won't you talk to me?" I raise my voice unintentionally. People start to star. "I can't do this, not here" he removes my deathly grip from his arm and walks away leaving me feeling empty and unwanted. I can feel the tears welling up and my vision goes blurry. I bolt for the door, my feet taking me but my mind not knowing, I don't stop for fear of them seeing me cry. I find myself in the Girls bathrooms, in a cubical and I finally let the tears flow, not being able to hold it in anymore.

Peeta's POV-

"I can't do this, not here" I can feel the guilt and sadness welling up inside, my eyes sting as I hold back the tears. She looks crushed. I remove her grip from my arm and walk away not able to look into her eyes anymore as all I see is despair and it pains me to know it's there because of me. I love her so much, it hurts. I can only hope that she understands. This is for her own good, why can't she see that? I need to let her let go of me and the careers have given me that chance. Plus I can lead the careers away from her and try and keep her safe. I don't want to hurt her but I made a promise to bring her home and that is exactly what I'm going to do. I promise you, Katniss, you will see you family and friends again, even if though it'll cost me my life. But I'll gladly give it for yours. I love you dearly, even if you can't see or understand it. I think to myself and hope she can forgive me.

Aw poor katniss L I hope you guys liked and enjoyed this chapter. What will happen next? Ideas please?

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When you walk away, I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now?- when your gone by Avril Lavigne (sorry thought it suited this chapter)