Arizona sat on the edge of the couch, her knee bouncing up and down, her hands shaking as she waited for Callie to come home. She was worried about what was going to come through that door. Teddy had just called her to let her know what had just happened with Callie at the hospital, and Arizona was heartbroken that Callie thought she was cheating on her. But mostly she was worried about what Callie was thinking, how she was feeling about the fact that Arizona didn't tell her anything sooner. She should have, she knew that, but everything was moving so fast and for the first time in a long time Arizona forgot about everything else and was happy.

Callie made Arizona feel safe and she hadn't felt that way in a very long time.

-.-.-.-.-

Callie felt her heart explode as she heard those words slip out of Teddy's mouth. She has cancer, Arizona was sick, really sick and she never told Callie. She felt angry, not at Arizona but at herself. She could see the signs now, those moments she didn't understand and the seconds she felt something shift in Arizona but didn't know what.

Moments that didn't feel right at the time now replayed in her mind like a broken movie. Her head raced as Arizona's past words replayed in her head.

"Sometimes you can't fix things Callie, sometimes rainbows and fairy dust doesn't fix anything..."

Callie paused for a moment outside her apartment door. She could hear Arizona moving on the other side and when she opened that door she wanted to be brave and strong. But instead, tears ran down her cheek as she saw Arizona stand up and take a few steps towards her.

"Callie..." Arizona forced a crooked smile.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Callie gently closed the door behind her.

"I-I wanted to, I did. But I couldn't find the words," Arizona took a few steps forward, "I couldn't bear the thought of telling you that I'm going to-"

"Going to what?"

"I'm terminal,"

"No, no." Callie shook her head as she walked over to the couch.

"Calliope,"

"No! Don't 'Calliope' me, you aren't terminal. Whatever treatment you're getting it will work. We will figure this out and-"

"No, we won't. I'm not getting any treatment." Arizona went to place her hand on Callie's leg but the brunette pulled away.

"You're a doctor Arizona! How could you opt out of getting medical attention!"

"My survival rate was...is low and I-"

"How low?" Callie's voice began to shake.

"Less than five percent..." Arizona kneeled in front of Callie, taking her hand, "I didn't want to spend the rest of my life getting treatment that wasn't going to work. I wanted to help, do some good and I couldn't operate if I was getting sick from the treatment all the time."

Callie felt sick to her stomach, she couldn't look Arizona in the eyes because she knew if she did, she would cry. It was taking everything to hold herself together because after all, this wasn't about her, it was about Arizona. Arizona was the one who was dying, not Callie and she knew that. But she also couldn't help but feel selfish. She wanted Arizona for as long as she could have her, but knew it wasn't going to happen and this made her angry at the world.

"But I love you..." Callie's voice trembled as she worked up the courage to look into Arizona's eyes.

"I love you too, so much. And you've made me so happy. Happier than I've been for a long time. I never expected to meet someone like you but here you are," Arizona brushed a tear from Callie's cheek with her thumb, "You've given me so much and I will never stop loving you."

"Stop that. It sounds like you're saying goodbye,"

"No, just letting you know how amazing you are," Arizona smiled and kissed Callie's cheek.

They pulled each other into a hug, Callie squeezed Arizona tight and buried her face in the blonde's neck. Arizona closed her eyes and tried to listen to Callie's heartbeat it was always a comforting sound for her. A few minutes passed and Callie couldn't help but start to cry again.

"Please don't cry," Arizona whispered in the brunette's ear.

"How are you okay with this?" Callie pulled Arizona closer to her body and tightened her arms.

"I've had some time to deal with it, and I'm seeing a counsellor. Although lately we've been talking a lot about you."

"Me?"

"I'm not scared of dying Calliope, I'm scared of leaving you alone." Arizona placed a kiss on Callie's shoulder.

They pulled away from each other and Callie tried to wipe away the tears from her cheeks before Arizona could see them.

"Move in with me,"

"Callie..."

"Please, I don't want you to do this on your own. I want to be there for you, help you. Please?"

"Okay," Arizona kissed Callie's forehead and pulled her close again.