April was in the attendings lounge with Meredith, Cristina and Alex. She had a terrible headache from the night before and was trying to take it easy. Also, she had to begin planning her wedding. The ceremony was only a month away and she had been too busy working to plan the wedding she'd always dreamed of. She was flipping through pages in a magazine looking for her wedding dress.
"No matter how nice you look, there's nothing you can do about your voice." Alex said mockingly. "Forget the wedding dress and get some tape. Believe me, you'll be doing him a favor." He said as he drank his coffee.
"When Jo breaks up with you, she'll be doing herself a favor." April shot back.
"Oh stop it Alex." Meredith said. "I've never been a huge fan of weddings, but this ones pretty - if you're into that sort of thing." Meredith said as she pointed at one of the dresses in the magazine.
"Yea for a sweet sixteen." Cristina let out as she looked down at the magazine. "Wear burgundy or something - you'd be lying to God and everybody if you wear white." Cristina laughed.
"Guys, I'm serious. What if I pick the wrong dress and then Matthew doesn't want to marry me?" April shouted freaking out. They all laughed.
"Then he's the wrong guy." Meredith said as she patted her on her back. "Gotta go - I have an appendectomy." Meredith shouted as she ran off. Both Cristina and Alex followed her out. April stood looking through magazines.
She always thought that wedding planning would be more fun. That she'd be so excited to plan her dream wedding that it would be all she could think about. She had taken care of a few things already. She had a caterer, she had ordered her custom "mint to be" mints and she had ordered roses to sort around the field. She couldn't believe that it had only been a year since she had planned this out with Jackson. At the time she was so happy and she had a set image of what their wedding would be like even though she didn't let herself get excited about it. Because of course, it was only because they thought she was pregnant. As if on cue, Jackson walked into the attendings lounge and sat next to her.
"Hey." He said as he began to eat his sandwich.
"Hey, about yesterday - how bad was I?" She laughed. "My hangover tells me pretty bad."
"You were.. You." Jackson replied as he gave her an annoyed look.
"Did I do something?" She asked surprised.
"No I'm just having an off day." He lied. He had been bothered with her. He had been bothered at the fact that she thought she could stay at his house while she was engaged - because they were friends now? Yes they were still friends, but friends that needed distance.
"I'm looking through these stupid magazines and can't decide on anything." She sighed.
"Well what are you trying to decide on?" He asked trying to be helpful.
"My wedding dress." She responded. He gulped his food down and suddenly he lost his appetite.
"You'll figure it out." He responded. "I have to go check on my patient." He lied as he got up.
"Hey Jackson -" April called.
"What?" He replied as he turned around annoyed.
"Matthew's letting me pick our honeymoon spot, but I'm not good at this. What's a good place?" She asked.
"Anywhere that he doesn't have to spend all his time with you. Small doses are enough." Jackson said angrily.
"Thanks friend." She said as she got up and walked past him.
"April wait." He called after her, but she didn't turn around.
Jackson spent the rest of his day burying himself in work. He felt bad about what he said to April, but where did she get off asking him for advice on her wedding plans. No he didn't give her a reason when she asked, but that didn't mean she had to throw the wedding in his face. But now he felt bad, terrible. April already got enough crap from all the other attendings, now she was going to get it from her best friend too? He walked off to look for her. He found her talking to a patient and pulled her aside.
"Tahiti." He said.
"Jackson -" She interrupted.
"Take him there and stay in a nice hotel. You guys can spend the night gazing at the stars, the mornings in paradise and the rest of the day telling each other how much you love one another. That's where I'd go." He said sincerely. "I'm sorry about what I said earlier, like I said I'm having an off day." He smiled.
"Given our history, I should've known better than to bring that up to you." April responded cautiously.
"Given our history, you should know that you're my best friend and I'll be here through anything." He smiled.
"Thank you." She said as she smiled back. Right then Matthew walked over to where they were standing.
"We got the Linens field!" He shouted at April. "We're getting married in Linens field." He said as he hugged her.
"Really? I can't believe it." She said as she laughed happily.
"Congratulations guys." Jackson smiled as he walked off. April felt torn. Here she was getting her wedding in the place of her dreams and all she could think about was Jackson. She couldn't help but think that maybe she was marrying the wrong guy. And you can't have your perfect wedding with the wrong guy. But yet here she was hugging Matthew.