Thank you guys for the reviews. I'm sorry for taking so long to post, I kind of started losing hope with Jackson and April after these last few episodes so it was hard to write. I'm not giving up on Japril just yet though, they're 'mint' to be! I'm not too happy with this chapter, but I hope you guys enjoy it!
It had been a month since April's almost wedding. Everyone at the hospital had been very cautious around her and she had noticed. Her and Jackson had been avoiding each other since the day of her wedding. She had seen him many times and they had exchanged greetings, but every time the conversation went anywhere past that, one of them would find an excuse to walk away. She was avoiding a certain question that came with a certain answer - and she didn't want to lie. She didn't want Jackson to know that Matthew left her because she still had feelings for him. April had been drowning herself in work since then. Just because her love life was a mess it didn't mean her professional life had to be too. April was sitting in the attendings lounge when Meredith walked in and sat next to her.
"How are you?" Meredith asked her.
"I'm okay. I'm just tired of everyone bubble wrapping me." April responded.
"Ah, it's only because we care." Meredith replied.
"I'm trying to get past this and if I'm going to get past this I'm going to need you guys to be normal around me again." April let out.
"Okay." Meredith responded. "So have you told him?" She asked.
"What?" April asked confused.
"Have you told Jackson?" Meredith paused. "Matthew doesn't look like the type to just walk out because the roses were out of place." She laughed.
"No, I.. I don't have the right to ruin his relationship just because mine didn't work out." April responded.
"Tell him how you feel. Not because he almost died, not because Matthew left you, but because you still feel this way regardless of those things." Meredith smiled as she got up and walked off.
April stood quiet. There was no way she could tell Jackson because he didn't give her a reason. He didn't want her and he was going to let her get married. April's pager went off and she got up and headed off to the recovery room when she saw Owen taking care of one of the patients.
"I want you to monitor her Dr. Kepner." He said.
"Dr. Hunt!" She complained. "Can't you get one of the interns to do it?" She asked.
"This patient is very special to me. I don't trust any of the interns so you will give me hourly updates on this patient." Owen replied.
"Yes sir." April responded as she took the womans stats and headed off to attend other patients. A few hours later, she went to go check on the woman and she had finally woken up.
"Where am I?" She asked.
"Marcy, you are in Seattle Grace Hospital. You got hit by a car, but don't worry. We are taking very good care of you." April responded.
"What's today?" Marcy asked her.
"November 2nd, 2013.. Do you remember your birthday?" April asked concerned that the woman had lost her memory.
"My ex-husband.. Is getting remarried today." She said faintly as a tear came down her eye.
"Do you want me to call him?" April asked her.
"No." She responded. "I love him and I want him to be happy." She said and she gave April a sad smile.
"With all due respect, once he's married you're not going to get a second chance to tell him how you feel." April said.
"Honey love is all about sacrifices. He chose her and that's okay. I'll be happy for him because that's what he needs me to be." Marcy smiled . April felt her eyes starting to get watery as she couldn't help but think of Jackson.
"I'll go tell Dr. Hunt that you're awake." April smiled.
"He.. Saved my life." Marcy said as she smiled back at April. April walked out and gave Owen the news. She then went to the locker room and changed out of her scrubs. She needed a drink. It had been a long day much like every other day since her wedding. She walked over to Joe's bar and took a seat.
"I'll have a vodka cranberry." She smiled weakly. Joe gave her the drink and she chugged it down and got another one.
"April." She heard Jackson call out from behind her as he sat next to her. "How are you?" He asked her.
"I'm tired of people asking me that." She responded.
"I miss you.. I know you're still healing and I know that you need space. But I miss my best friend." He said as he looked at her.
"No you're assuming that I'm still healing. You call yourself my best friend, but you never called Jackson. Everyone called, but you." She said as she walked out of the bar. She was already pretty drunk. Jackson followed her out.
"So what, now I'm the bad guy?" He yelled at her.
"Well you haven't been much of a best friend." She said as she turned to look at him.
"You know what April, you've been avoiding me too! I'm tired of being the bad guy. With you, I will always be the bad guy!" He shouted as he grabbed her arm.
"I just thought you'd care enough to stick around when I needed you." She said as she softened up and looked at him. Her eyes got watery. Before she knew it, her face had gotten closer to his. She softly pressed her lips onto his and put her tongue into his mouth. She couldn't believe she had kissed him. Jackson pulled away.
"You don't want me to do that?" She asked him as she breathed heavy.
"You said "I do" April." He said. She could see the hurt in his eyes. "You only want me now because Matthew doesn't want you." He said as he walked off.