I know now. I won't make it through; we will make it through.

Chapter XIX: Sadness equals darkness

I wake up, lying on the floor above tons of pillows and blankets. I see the girls lying around me and I smile. Then I remember why they all came and my smile fades as fast as it came. Hey that's right, we're leaving today; we're going to encamp in the woods! I'm glad actually; because skiing was fun, really but I want to get out of this place, bad memories, you know. I wake the girls because I notice it's already 10 am and we all need to pack. And with 'we all' I mean, Stella! I hope she brought enough spare suitcases! I wake Flora first because she's always so cheery in the morning and today she is too. Thank God! Waking Tecna isn't very hard; I just let the alarm of her watch go of and she's wide awake immediately. Layla is sleeping like a log with Piff on her head off course. She always has pretty dreams; not like me. Lately, mine are getting darker and shady. It reminds me of my short period of being Dark Bloom. Maybe I should ask Avalon if he knows something about that. I'll do that when I go back to Alfea. Anyhow; waking Stella. Huh. I'll try Layla first.

"Layla." I say "Layla!!" I say louder, hoping Stella will wake too and she does. Maybe she shouldn't have.

"God Bloom! What's wrong with you! This is a beauty sleep and you just…"

"Stella shut up!" Layla shouts. "We're all still tired but Bloom had to wake us; we're leaving in like an hour and we" she looks at Stella "still have to pack."

"Oh damned!" she says and runs off to her own room. I wake Musa last, because she has a hell of a morning mood!

"Musa" I whisper and then a little louder "Musa!"

"Grrr" she groans and turns around. Okay then; her mistake. I look at the girls and they nod; so I go to the bathroom and fill a mug with cold water. It's not ice cold, but it'll wake her up and they are four of us right. I quickly throw the water on her face and for a millisecond; it looks like she didn't even feel it! But then I see she did feel it. She jumps up, soaking wet while we're all laughing at her. She looks really mad and then looks at me and asks angry

"Why'd you that?"

"We have to pack" I say simply and stare at her.

"Oh" she only says as if she's intimidated by my glare. So we all pack and we arrive at our plane at 11 sharp. Well, sharp… more or less.

"Whaaaw" Flora says, amazed "It's beautiful here! Look at all the trees and the flowers and…" she sighs. When we land Stella looks around and she doesn't look very happy. I understand why because I don't think Stella ever camped. She probably has an outfit to encamp, but I doubt she ever did it; I mean she's a princess! 'You're a princess too' a little voice whispers in my head. Yeah right. What a great princess am I?! I need a metamorphosis like Anne Hathaway in 'The Princess Diaries'. I have to admit, it's very pretty here. I mean, at home in Gardenia (is it really my home?) there is a forest; but there are only trees in it and maybe a few other plants; but here! By former biology teacher would come and live here! It's amazing really! The plants and then the water; it makes me sigh, but a happy sigh then. We start to set up the tent. I wonder how that'll work. After 20 seconds, I know how; Layla sets it up; she's very good at that. Whaaaw, another capability. Is there something she can't do? Well yeah, she can't pick any decent clothes. I have a mini-Stella in my head! Look at that!

After Layla has set up, we make a fire. I am not kidding, a real fire and without magic. Then we put like corn in the fire; isn't this cosy. All the cosiness is great but booooooring. I know I sound like Layla but God! I mean, doesn't anyone have an idea to do something? Flora always knows something; or Musa or God even Tecna!

"Okay I am bored!" Stella suddenly exclaims. Yeah duh! Aren't we all?

"Let's play a game!" she says. She has an idea? This is weird.

"Truth or dare!" Musa says. I knew Musa would have a good idea!

"Hmm" Stella thinks; I mean she's really thinking! "Okay then, but I'll change it a little. We ask the person always a question; and when he doesn't want to answer, he has to take a sip of beer" she says and pulls out a few cans.

"Beer?" Flora worriedly asks.

"Well, if you have nothing to hide, you don't have to drink anything!"

"Okay then!" Layla says "I make a bet that I won't drink one drop of alcohol."

"So you tell us everything?!" Stella shouts and I see Musa's eyes sparkle.

"That's totally irrational" Tecna says.

"Got nothing to hide" Layla replies. I don't want to make that bet, I want to get drunk and forget everything.

"Does anyone else want to make such a wager?" Stella asks. They boys all quickly say: "No, no we're fine" They will sweat; I am sure of that.

So we have been playing this game for about one hour and the boys, except Timmy are all a little tipsy. Just a little… Lot! Tecna has had a few drinks and you notice that but Flora, she had one drink and… let's say she's very cheery, even for her. Stella had like 5 drinks but she still looks very good and Musa… she's actually wasted; but in a weird way still lucid. And me… I am practically sober because I had the most boring questions ever! That's probably because Stella and Musa haven't asked me a single question. They ask the most (brilliant but) annoying questions. They even made Tecna sweat. I'd say that's a quite an achievement! Oh, it's Stella's turn, that's always interesting.

"Musa" She says. Oh ow. Musa doesn't really react. She's an ice queen!

"Who is you most passionate love?" she phrased that nicely

"Music" Musa replies

"Oh come on Musa! I asked who! I want a person!" Stell protests

"That can be your next question" Musa smiles satisfied

"Layla." Musa says and Layla looks very surprised because although she made that bet, only a few have asked her questions.

"Who was your first time with? And when?" Musa asks. Layla looks extremely uncomfortable.

"I haven't yet." She says

"Yes you have!" I blab "I mean, when I found you with Sky…" I stop speaking and cover my mouth with my hands

"Oh God. He was your first." I shake my head, crawling backwards, still facing the group. I look at Sky.

"What about you?"

"Can I take a drink?" he asks, trying to joke.

"I don't think this question is part of the game" Stella helps him. Flora prods Stella "What?!" she says indignant. I look at him; I stare at him but he looks away.

"I can't believe this… I… I…" I keep shaking my head in disbelief.

"Bloom" he tries

"No, no it doesn't matter anymore." I shake my head, talking to myself. "It doesn't matter" I look at everyone. They can't see me cry. I stand up and run, just run. I squash bugs, I almost trip over branches, nearly hit my head, leaves and branches lash my face and animals run away but I keep racing. Suddenly I stop. I don't know why, I just do. I sit on a fallen tree and cry. I let everything out; the sadness with the tears. Then I hear a noise behind me and I abruptly turn around. Someone in heaven is trying to piss me off. And God it works! I become angry again.

"You!"

A/N: Cliffy :D I bet you think you know who it is; but I wouldn't be so sure :D

Sorry for lack of updates but I am full of inspiration again and I will plan a little more with school work and stuff; sometimes I think my teacher are trying to kill me. Huh!

Thanx for the reviews on the last chapter - - A lot :) It made me REAAAALLY happy!!

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