And here it goes finally! April visits home and when she comes back she confronts Jackson. I hope you guys enjoy it. Please review so I know what you guys are thinking. Thank you all for reading!
After her confrontation with Jackson, April had decided she needed some time alone. She had taken the day off to go to Moline and visit her family. After what felt like the longest flight and cab ride ever - she had finally arrived at her parents house. She knocked on the door and her mother opened.
"April honey, what a surprise! You should've told us you were coming out here." Karen said as she hugged her daughter. April walked into the house and she looked around to admire all the changes they made since she had last been there.
"Where's dad?" April asked her.
"He's on the farm. You know how that goes, we could never keep him out of it for long." Karen laughed. Right then a little voice called out to April.
"April! I missed you." It was her sister Alice. She ran to April and April picked her up and spun her.
"Not more than I missed you." April smiled as she put her down and bent down to be face to face with her.
"Mommy didn't let me go to your wedding because I had a fever." Alice pouted.
"I know, that just means we have a lot of catching up to do!" April said as she got up. Right then Libby and Kimmy walked in.
"Hey April." Libby hugged her and Kimmy did the same. "Let's go to my room!" She shouted as she grabbed April's hand and led her there.
"So why didn't you marry Matthew?" Kimmy asked her.
"He left me." April simply responded.
"It's because of that guy right - the one that you lost your virginity to?" Libby asked.
"No." April paused. "Yes." She changed her answer.
"Good, we didn't like Matthew anyway. I mean he's a good guy for like.. Someone boring. We just didn't want you with him." Kimmy confessed.
"He's a great guy, just not my guy." April smiled sadly.
"So when are you going to make a move on Dr. Hottie?" Kimmy asked. April heard her mom calling her name, she had never been so relieved. April walked downstairs to her mom. Her mom was sitting on the couch and April sat with her.
"So tell me the real reason why you're here, are you okay?" Karen asked her.
"Of course, I just wanted to see you guys." April responded.
"Honey, I know you love us, but I also know you wouldn't travel all the way out here for a day just to see us. So I'm going to ask you again and I want you to be honest with me, are you okay?" Karen repeated. April stood in silence for a second.
"No, everything's a mess mom. I just needed to be away from the hospital, away from him." April said as she burst into tears.
"Matthew?" Karen asked confused.
"Jackson mom, I still love him." April confessed.
"Did you tell him that?" Karen asked concerned.
"No, it's too late. I messed up." April said as she laid her head on her moms chest.
"Oh baby, it's never too late. You go and you tell that boy how you feel. The possibility of the reward that might come from it should outweigh the fear of rejection. Love is always worth the fight." Karen said as she hugged her daughter.
"What if he doesn't want me?" April asked.
"Then you cut your losses and move on knowing you did everything you could and it just didn't work out." Karen said.
"I love you mom." April hugged her.
"I love you too sweetie." Her mom responded. April spent the rest of the day enjoying the company of her parents and her sisters. She missed this. It wasn't very often that she got to spend time with them. Before she knew it, the day was gone and she had to get ready to go back to Seattle.
Once April arrived back in Seattle, she had to go directly to work from the airport. Even though her day away from the hospital had been great, she was happy to be at the hospital where she belonged. Jackson was doing research in one of the labs as April walked by and spotted him. She walked into the room and Jackson's facial expression changed from calm to agitated.
"What do you want April? I'm busy." He said as he looked through files.
"What you said the other day wasn't true. I don't want you because Matthew left me." April said.
"Not this again. Just leave me alone." Jackson said as he continued to look through the files. April walked over to him, took the files from him and put them on the table beside him.
"Can you just listen for a second?" April shouted. "I love you. I have for a long time, but it took me a long time to realize it because before you, I never knew what love was. And then when I finally learned with you, it took me a long time to admit it to myself. And then when I finally started to let myself go there, there was Stephanie and I was hurt. Then there was Matthew, and he helped ease the pain for a little while. But the pain never went away Jackson because it's always been you. I love you. Not because you almost died saving a kid on a bus, not because Matthew left me, but because you are who you are. I don't know who I am without you and I'm tired of trying to find out." She sighed. "I.. I can't breathe without you and I wouldn't want it any other way. There's not a day that has gone by since we became best friends that I wasn't in love with you. You're my person, Jackson." April smiled weakly. "I did say 'I do.' I said it because you didn't want me and, after being with you - I knew that no matter who I decided to spend my life with I would be settling, because it will always be you Jackson." She added on. She stopped and tried to read Jackson's expression as he stared at her at a loss for words.
"April I- I" He began right as Stephanie walked in.
"I have Ms. Lorraine's chart." Stephanie said oblivious to what was going on as she walked in and smiled at her boyfriend. Jackson couldn't pull his eyes away from April. April looked at Jackson one more time and walked out of the room. The second she walked out, tears started pouring down her eyes. What had she just done?