Light glared at the video camera. Was L ignoring him? He grit his teeth, two can play it that way. He growled and walked to the bathroom to have a quick shower.
He paused wondering if the detective had put a bug in the bathroom, he hoped not because that was his private time.
Light stepped into the bathroom and undressed himself, he stared at the mirror, at himself. He threw up into the sink, he wished L could help him. He wanted to come clean and ask for help to save those children but L was not to be trusted.
He rinsed his mouth, he wrapped his arms around himself. Father would kill the children, he'd rape them. The same way he had used Light, his legs gave out for a while and he was on the floor knees to his chest.
He wasn't clean. Nothing would make him clean, a sad smile on his lips, he stood on shaky legs and walked to the shower. He sat under the spray.
His lips moved on their own.
Waking up, I see that everything is okay
The first time in my life, and now it's so great
Slowing down, I look around, and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
Light ran his hands through his hair, he wanted it to be okay. His destiny was to succeed father, there was no shortcut. He just prayed that father would touch the children in his absence.
He could remember the first time he was called to father's room to keep him 'company'. It was unpleasant and forced, he had no enjoyment and he bled out so much, he thought he'd die.
He was far from innocent. There were times father told him to 'entertain' his friends. It was 'fun'. Father's law and words were supreme.
He continued to sing.
[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
Cos I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by
Tears dripped down Light's check, it was hidden by the rush of the shower. He was damned, if anyone was as filthy as him.
This was why he showered alone, it was now that the gullt, pain, hurt and betrayal hit him and made him week. It was now that he could let himself be himself.
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life, and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong; I'm so happy here
It's so strong, and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
[Chorus]
It's a state of bliss; you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss; you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
Light knew no one would understand his pain, the only one he had was Misa and now she was just a fading footprint of the beach. She was gone and he was alone, his fingers went below to clean himself out. Just before the mission father had made him ride.
He had emptied it all into Light, even as he washed it out, he would never be clean. He would NEVER be pure, he was a sin. He wished he was never born. He cursed his mother for ever having him, he picked up the soap.
His voice was cracking.
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
It makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by
It had passed him by already, he was in hell already. He finished his shower and he was sane again, his inner insecurities pushed back into the back of his mind.
His blank face in place ready to flash any emotion necessary. He wrapped a towel around his waist and stepped out of the bathroom.
L usually hated music but he could hear Light's angelic voice. It was loud, sometimes it would stop a while before he'd continue.
He wondered why Light didn't sing, he was talented in everything. The door opened to reveal Light in a small towel, L immediately tilted his head back and pinched his nose.
Helping Light out would kill him, Light really was perfect. L sighed trying to take control, perhaps he should have given Watari surveillance.
Either way Light would be his. He looked down, Light was underneath the covers of his bed.
"Do I get any clothes?" Light asked.
"If Light-chan insists" L grumbled. He beeped for Watari, the man under the sheets rose a brow at the camera.
"So you would prefer me in a scandalous towel through my stay?" Light smirked. L's cheeks filled with colour, he wanted to say yes. Light was truly beautiful, his mouth slacked open as Light took off the small towel underneath the sheets.
He dangled it in his fingers, other hand held the comforter to his chest. He let the towel slip to the floor, L was sure his brain had just short circuit.
"Pervert" Light said.
"I have no interest in you-" L was cut off by Watari.
"Master L" Watari stepped into respond to L's call only to see his young master with yet another nosebleed "your nose is bleeding again sir. For heaven's sake you are acting like a common pervert"
L shut off the mic but not quick enough, he could see Light's wide smirk on screen. He pinched his nose knowing he would once again get a scolding from Watari.
"It is Light-kun's fault" L defended, mind working a mile a minute for any possible way to shift the blame to the model of screen.
"I am sure the poor man did nothing to aggravate this attitude I have half a mind to put Near and Matt on this case" Watari glared at L. He crossed his hand over his chest before shaking his head. "So why did you call me here?"
"Light-kun needs clothes" L said.
"Just don't turn into a stalker" Watari sighed then rolled his eyes. L had never been attracted or 'liked' anyone so he guessed maybe L was a late bloomer in that aspect.
He turned on the mic "Light-kun sorry for the rude intrusion" L began.
Light smirked, the great L was attracted to him. Assuming it was a girl it would be easier because girls were naturally pushed by emotions. Guys on the other hand were more difficult and were moved by basic instinct, food, shelter, sex and such.
"L" Light said, he let out a sigh. "L!" He yelled this time.
"What is it Light-kun?" L's voice replied.
"I think I'll get some rest" Light shut his eyes, he needed time to think over the situation. He expected L would get some sleep around this time and get someone else to cover his shift.
"Okay, good night Light-kun" L said.
Morning came around too quickly for Light, he woke up to see a change of clothes beside him on the large bed.
He blinked a few minutes before a shiver ran down his spine, he was a deep sleeper but the thought of anyone being in his room when he was vulnerable scared him.
"Light-kun is finally awake" L's voice sounded happy. It almost reminded him of Misa's annoyingly happy attitude in the morning. Unlike her he hated mornings.
"I guess" he grumbled back before seating up, the sheets pooled at his torso giving L a lovely view of Light's tan perfect skin. " My shoulder, I need a massage with scented oils"
"Moving on Light-chan" L said which made Light flinch. He hated being called that, he covered it up with a yawn. "We start today with a test on your IQ, if it is not in a range of 10 points around mine I cannot let you work the case."
L did his research on Light. It was glaring obvious and Light expected no less. However based on his previous academic success he could purposely fail and getting too high would ask questions like why modelling? What was the degree for?
"I suppose I could try it out. Don't expect too much though" Light smiled, his hand clenched on the covers. He wouldn't be able to act the ignorant part.
"As a top degree holder from To-oh university, I am certain you will surpass my expectations." The voice said, it made Light uneasy. He hoped L wouldn't investigate too deeply into the deaths that railed his many attempted adoption.
Light took his clothes with him into the bathroom. He had no idea what his next plan was but whatever he did now would determine if L would trust him or not.
Light quickly dressed up and soon enough L's partner came to lead him out of the room. He passed the kitchen and living room into a library.
The old man handed Light a paper with with binary code on it. "Eh..."
"That is the exam. A single item find it" the older man left the library locking the door behind him. Light looked around the library and sighed.
Light tried to recalled the programming books he had read and link it to his knowledge of Mathematics.
"I need a pen" Light snapped.
"There is one Light-chan's pocket" L's voice.
An hour had passed and he had solved half the work. He was frustrated and sick of it already, yet he didn't want to give up.
"The other half the answer you get, go a single letter back" L hinted.
"You are not allowed to do that" Light glared at the camera. "Without the hint I would-"
"Yes well it was interesting watching you look frustrated and cute." L sounded amused. Light quickly solved the other half. It read Warray ni. Light looked up at the camera.
"How do I find this?" Light looked about ready to commit murder.
"Its not english or Japanese" L replied
"No kidding" Light sighed.
"Its up to you" L sounded amused.