AN: So you guys didn't seem happy with the last chapter. I was offended by a guest reviewers comment ud0ntkn0wme. But honestly, I've had enough flame reviewers, I mean you guest reviewers have never written, well so I'm guessing, and don't exactly know what you're talking about. I'd also like to say that the first chapter I was rather happy with, and I know, I made it look like Cammie was all confused and stuff, but honestly. Ben was suicidal! I think being suicidal is more important than your boyfriend, and maybe I didn't show that in the story, and yeah I rushed it.! But just know that if you're going to write a review to use CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISMS and not just full on saying this is a horrible story. Because I know some writers, like myself when they get these harsh reviews they just want to quit. So I'd like to say I felt like giving up on this story, on writing all together, because you're telling us that our stories are crap, you're destroying our dream in a poof, and sometimes people do quit their dream because of people with harsh and rude comments which are not needed. Okay that's enough of my rant! Please tell me if you actually read all this AN. Thanks my loyal readers.
Chapter 1
Cammie looked down at Ben for a second and smiled. "I'm going to tell your mum where we're going okay? I'll be right back" Cammie says as she rushes off to the dining room to find Ben's mum sitting down having a glass of red wine. "Um, I'm going to take Ben out, is that okay? We'll be home by a reasonable hour I promise" Cammie says giving her a small smile. She smiles sweetly.
"Yes of course Cammie, just please help him Cammie" Ben's mum says as Cammie nods rushing back to Ben's room.
"Come on Ben we're going" Cammie says as Cammie grabs her phone out or her pocket seeing five missed calls from Zach. She calls him waiting for a reply as Ben stands there awkwardly. "Cammie? Where the hell are you?" Zach says as Cammie lets out a small laugh at his paranoia.
"Something came up, I'll be there tomorrow I promise" Cammie says as she hears a sigh over the phone.
"Yeah okay sure" Zach says disappointment in his voice.
"Zach, I want you to know this is actually really important, and I wouldn't just ditch if it wasn't I swear. Bye Zach" Cammie says ending the call as Ben looks at her.
"So lets go" Cammie says as the pair start walking.
"What would Josh do without his best friend Ben?" Cammie asks not wanting to sound too harsh. Ben sighs heavily
"He'd find a new best friend eventually, he'd get over me" Ben says casually as Cammie sighs.
"Maybe that's true, but imagine the pain you'd have put him through, losing his best friend, he'd feel guilty for not being able to stop you, he'd feel like there was something he could of done, and he'd blame himself, as if it was all his fault, and maybe that will lead to him killing himself too" Cammie says sharing a quick glance at Ben as she leads him to the Westerville school Gym.
The door was unlocked, so students could come practice sport or do whatever they wanted. Cammie pulled Ben along to one of the ends of the gym.
"You see around here? This is where a guy came up to me and said to me that I got in Josh's pants, this is where my whole life changed, this moment changed the rest of my days here" Cammie says as she looks around the Gym, a sad smile filled her face.
Cammie looks at Ben who's expression was blank as she pulls him to the girls toilets, where she shows him the remains of the graffiti left on the wall.
"Right here, is where it said Cameron Morgan is a slut, this was one of those crucial moments that I just wanted to die. But I kept going, I didn't stop, because I had things to live for, and so do you' Cammie says giving him a small smile.
"And things improved for me didn't they?" Cammie asks as Ben nods casually. Cammie smiles sadly as she walks out of the gym.
"Now one of the most important things, if you had indeed killed yourself, how was I meant to feel? It would have been all my fault, I would have been the one to blame, I would of felt horrible, I'd feel like I was nothing, and eventually, I'd end up killing myself too, because I couldn't deal with the pain, because it was all too hard. If you really loved me, you'd never want to see me in pain, much less kill myself" Cammie says tilting her head as Ben sighs.
"Your right, your completely and utterly right" Ben says giving her a small smile.
"Morgan's are always right, but its not going to be easy from now on, but I promise it will be worth it okay?" Cammie says as Ben smiles and so does Cammie pulling him in for an embrace.
"We'll get through this, I promise" Cammie says firmly.
So what did you think? Sorry for the late update, I had all these tests and I didn't know how to continue with the bad reviews I got last chapter, I'm sorry.