"Shiki!"

The voice shook me.

"Shiki!" It grew louder and I tried to speed up. I heard the falls of his feet behind me and I ran. But it was no use, I felt a hand grab my shoulder..

A clatter of metal rang out as I was shoved sideways into the small alleyway behind a row of stores, my head hit the side of a metal trash can and my vision blurred.

"Where do you think you're going?"
"K-Kise.."
"That's right… you remember me? You remember how good… I made you feel?" I felt his breath against me.
"You know… Daiki broke up with me.. because of you… all because of you…" His voice grew angrier and I trembled as my body refused to move and my head ached.
"The least you could do… is give yourself to me… to pass the time… don't you want me again Shiki? Don't you want to feel that good again? Your face always said what you were feeling… don't you want it now?" His fury and his rage culminated together brought him up to me on the ground.

"Don't you remember this?" He asked as he shoved me against the corner, banging my head against the metal again. I could barely make out with my blurred eyes, the small movements he made against his crotch and I could see him, moving forward, his own punishment waiting for me.

"Don't you remember how good this made you feel?" He said as he kicked me and I gasped in pain. I felt his member forcefully entering my mouth and I gagged. Kise pulled my hair forward, impaling me onto him, and I cried out as he roughly tore off the shirt I had on. I begged him with my eyes and he merely laughed at me, before he pulled me up and shoved me down onto the top of the metal can that had hit me so many times.

"P-Please… N-"
"I know you want it… you've always wanted it… Shiki…" He said as he pushed me down still and my head spun. I felt my pants leave my waist as they slipped off my body and onto the ground below. I felt his hands running over me, roughly grabbing me, his nails scratching and cutting me as they went.

I screamed in pain as I felt him thrust viciously into me, while his fists beat down on my back, and soon I couldn't feel him any more, just the impacts of his hands against my body. This time was different, he was so angry… his fists rained down upon me with a fury, and could only I sob to myself and beg for him to stop. I could taste hints of iron as blood leaked from the corner of my mouth, more of it being beaten out of me.. and I could do nothing about it… And so it went… until my body gave out, and I was left alone in the alleyway. My last memory of him, was the cut his nails gave me as they dug in and he cried my name, his vile seed spilling within me. He tossed money at me and left, his rage satisfied, for that moment. The world turned black for me, as my eyes refused to stay open any longer… and my body gave up trying.

"Shintaro?"
"Shintaro!?"
"Shintaro! Wake up! Please!"

I felt myself be shaken and my eyes cleared as I saw the familiar black hair, and Takao's face came into view.

"Shintaro!? Can you hear me?! Who did this to you!?" He asked urgently as he tried to wake me up.

"Ta-kao…" My voice slurred as my tired body refused to focus.
"H-Here.." I felt a hand touch my cheek and I hissed as the water he had poured into his hand felt cold against me, he gently rubbed the water on my face, and I felt it cool and bring me back to reality.

"Drink more… it'll help.." He said, pouring some of the water from his bottle onto my lips and I drank, feeling the cool revitalizing liquid course through me. I looked around to see the alley that had now been etched into my memory, and I looked at the boy who gave me that look… the concerned one. My eyes couldn't bear to look at him and I stared down at the ground. Around his feet were bags of groceries, and I began to tear up as I realized the contents. He had gone out on his errands, to buy me the foods that I had told him were my favourite in the tub. He had gone to get the Melon pan from the small bakery that I had told him about, I could see the small bits of orange that signified carrots, the big bulbous ones for my favourite curry…

"Shintaro? Are you okay?" He asked again.

"I'm sorry… Takao…" I said

"S-Silly… what are you sorry for?" He asked, taking off his coat and throwing it over my body. Though it was a little small, it felt warm... Takao's warmth...

"I shouldn't do this to you… bringing you into this… unwanted existence of mine."

"If you knew… what I did, who I am… you wouldn't love me… and I know that."
"Shin…"
"If you knew what I am, what kind of dirty… terrible person I am… you wouldn't want to be with me…"
"Shintaro"
"I was so happy with you Takao, those moments where everything was quiet, and I felt loved. Just having experienced it once… was enough…and the best thing I could do for you… was to get out of your life… I want you to be happy too… I just… I want you…. To be happ-"
"Shintaro!" Takao shouted at me and I fell silent.

His hands wrapped around me again and he pulled me into him.
"Shintaro… why are you saying such stupid things… these stupid… stupid things"
"Takao.."
"I want to know everything about you, the good and the bad, I want to know all about you, who you are, what you do. It doesn't matter to me what you are or aren't. Just that you're by my side now. All I care about is that… you're the one who I… fell in love with…. And I'll take you just the way you are."
"Takao… you don't know what I've done, you don't kno-"

The younger boy's lips pressed against mine, shutting me up and in that brief moment, my body relaxed into the sweetest kiss I had ever experienced.

"I know all that I need to know… and now… I have all that I'll ever need…" He said smiling as his hand squeezed mine.

"Arigatou… Takao…." I smiled and I knew I had lost this one.
"You're beautiful Shintaro… when you smile… wont you share that with me? That lovely smile?"
"Ta-takao.." my body was on its last legs as the refreshing effects of the water began to vanish. The bright auburn sky began to darken again, and I fell back to sleep..

"Let's go home Shintaro, all you have to do is smile to make me happy. All you have to do is smile… and I'll know all I need to know about you. Just smile."

And so… I smiled…