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~Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush :( ~

Kendall's P.O.V.

I ran back into my hotel room and slammed the door. I was panting for air and slowly walked over to my bed and collapsed. I had ran all the way from the Cocoa Bean back to the Royal Blue within three minutes. The two places were 10 minutes away from each other; yea I was that fast. Mainly, I had ran because of what happened with Violet. I was too freaked out to see her reaction. The moment she found out I was Kendall Knight and the moment I saw her gasp I ran away. No need to see an angry New York girl rip me to pieces. Honestly though, I wish I had told her the truth in the first place. Lying never gets you anywhere.

"Hey Kendall whatcha- whoa man are you okay?" Logan asked. I calmed down and took a deep breath.

"Yea..I just came back from a, uh run..." I said hesitantly. There I was lying again, but it wasn't a complete lie right?

"Well don't run too fast next time buddy. I don't wanna see you dead the next time I visit. So where's James?" Logan asked.

I shrugged. "So what do you wanna do today? We have the day off and all of us haven't spent some quality time in forever," I said flatly.

"Kendall, I know something's wrong. Did anything happen while you were running?" Logan asked as he sat down on the side of my bed.

"Sort of. I kinda met this girl a couple days ago. She likes Big Time Rush and all, but she didn't know I was Kendall Knight the entire time we hung out. She finally found out today but I kinda feel bad about not telling her in the first place you know? After she found out I left without saying anything and well, I came here." I replied glumly.

"And you just left her sitting there all surprised and alone?" Logan asked with a horrified expression. "Kendall Knight, you go back and apologize right now. Poor girl..." Logan sighed.

"Yea but who knows if she's still there or not?" I asked.

"Who cares? Just go check and apologize. Take your time; I'll let the guys know something came up."

I sighed. I knew I had to go apologize but I didn't want to. Not that I was lazy, but I was scared of what this girl would do to me. Finally, I got out of bed, slipped on my shoes, and walked right out the door and back to the Cocoa Bean.

To my surprise she was sitting right where I had left her. She didn't look sad or anything, just a little bored. She was texting someone on her phone. I didn't want to bother her, but I had to do this right?

"Hey..Violet.." I said.

"You...? I mean, Kendall? What are you doing back here?" she asked with a friendly smile. She wasn't mad?

"Well, I sorta left you here without any explanation or anything so I came back to apologize. So I'm sorry. Can I leave now?" I asked anxiously.

"Hmm, no. You're not getting off the hook so easily mister," she smirked. She patted the seat next to her, motioning for me to sit. I sat down with a sigh. "You really don't like me do you?"

"No, I'm sorry if I'm being rude. I do like you, you're great! But uh, I don't know this is pretty awkward..." I said.

"Not for me. I know it was a little weird at first when I found out you were Kendall Knight, but it's cool now. Do you mind if I ask you a couple questions though? You probably don't have drinks and muffins with fans, but-"

"You know Violet, you're different. For some reason, I don't consider you as a fan. Yeah, I know you like Big Time Rush, but you're not really of one those fan girls who go crazy over us. You're more like an actual friend you know?"

"Hmm, I'm glad you think of me in that way Kendall. I was hoping you wouldn't freak out about me, but I guess you already did because your face is still pretty red," she giggled.

"But yeah, seriously, sorry for not telling you who I was in the first place. I guess it would have made things easier, but you know what? I think it's good that you didn't recognize me either, because then you probably would be just a fan girl to me and not a friend you know?"

"Definitely. So it's cool between us right? Everything's all good?" she asked. I nodded my head. "Hey, so they have this carnival in town. I was wondering if you wanted to go hang out there friend?" Violet said with emphasis on the word friend.

I chuckled. "Actually, I'd love to, but the guys and I were supposed to have a hang-out day together. You mind if they come along or something?"

"Oh yeah sure. I haven't met James, Logan and Carlos yet," she smiled.

"Well then let's go! Oh wait, what were you saying a while ago...something about asking me some questions?" I asked.

"Oh never mind those. I'll ask you when we get to the carnival. It's nothing important, just some basic questions to get to know you better."

"Alright then, follow me," I said. I grabbed Violet's hand and we both walked out of the café and back to the Royal Blue.

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"Ohmygosh that was soo fun!" Violet exclaimed. The two of us had just gotten off a mini roller coaster that went pretty high up; high as the Ferris Wheel. I had pretty much screamed the entire time while Violet was laughing.

"Dude, how was that fun? That was scarier than the rides at the amusement parks!" I denied. Secretly I had fun too, but it was fun messing with Violet.

"Oh Kendall, your such a sissy!" she giggled. I put my arm around her and we both walked to the food booth.

"Hello there. What would you like to order?" the lady in the booth asked us.

"Uh, five large cotton candy's, five cokes, and anything else Violet?" I asked.

"Well I'm sure Carlos wants a corndog, so one corn dog please," Violet said.

The lady gave us order as I paid and we went to find the guys.

"Yo Violet! Over here!" James waved. They were all sitting next to a large water fountain. I gave them each a stick of cotton candy, coke, and Carlos his corndog.

"Violet remembered your corndog," I said to Carlos.

"Thanks Violet! I knew you were the best the moment I met you!" Carlos exclaimed.

"Aww your welcome Carlitos," Violet responded. The guys and I had only hung out with Violet for seven hours and we were already good friends. I'm glad the guys viewed her as a friend too, rather than a fan. Don't get me wrong, we love our fans; they're the best. But it was different hanging out with Violet. We all ate our cotton candy and sipped our cokes. It was 9:00 p.m. and we were about to leave, but the guys wanted to go on one last ride. It was a really fast ride too, but Violet and I decided to skip out. Instead we went on the Ferris Wheel.

As the Ferris Wheel went up, Violet and I sat there silently. She leaned her head on my shoulder and I put my arm around her. Any one who didn't know us would have thought we were a couple, but we both knew it was just a friendly gesture.

"Thanks for today. It was amazing," Violet whispered.

"Hey, no need to thank me. You're the one who brought up the idea of hanging out here," I said.

She shrugged. "So, for the questions-"

"Oh no! Not the questions! You mean the questions that you've been waiting to ask me all day long? The questions that have kept me anxious?" I teased dramatically. Violet stuck her tongue out at me.

"Sorry!" she said, putting her hands up in defense. "Fine, let's make it a game. Twenty-Questions?" she asked. I raised my eyebrows, then agreed. She went first. "What's your favorite color?"

"Green. What's your favorite color?"

She giggled. "Really? You still haven't found out? Kendall, you're unbelievable. Violet. My favorite color is violet," she said.

"Ohhh. Psh, I knew that!" I exclaimed back. She rolled her eyes and continued with the questions. "Favorite movie?"

"Hmm. Definitely Spiderman!" I cheered. "Did you know I'm secretly Spiderman? Shhhh!" I said. She laughed that great laugh of hers.

"No, actually I didn't. Nice to know though' I can call you anytime I'm in trouble," she said sarcastically. "You turn."

"What's your favorite movie?"

"I like 17 Again...you know, with Zac Efron?" she winked.

I scoffed. "I'm hotter than he is you know," I defended. She slapped her forehead and laughed.

"Alright then, I'll keep that in mind. So do you have any brothers or sisters? If I'm correct you have a biological little sister right? I know you consider the guys as your brothers..."

"Yupp. Katie-Kat. Well her name's Katie. She's twelve, gonna be thirteen," I answered. "How 'bout you?"

"Actually yeah. I also have a younger sister that's eleven or twelve, can't remember. And I have an older brother that's a year older than me, I think."

I laughed. "You don't know your own siblings ages?" I saw her face fall into a frown. Then her eyes looked worried. Did I say something wrong? "Uh, so what are their names?"

She took a breath. "Kendall, I have to tell you something. Please don't tell the other guys even though it's nothing too personal. Well, maybe it kid of is, I don't know. My parents are divorced. I live here in New York with my dad and step mother. My real mom lives in California with my older brother and younger sister. My parents got divorced when I was only three. My older brother was four and of course my little sister wasn't even born yet. Makes sense since I'm sixteen and she's like twelve. Anyway when my parents got divorced I obviously couldn't understand anything since I was so small. I don't know if my brother understood anything either. But when they did get divorced, my dad wanted full custody of me. I was always a daddy's girl, and even my mother knew that if she took me away from my dad, I would suffer. So she let me stay with my dad and she moved to California with my brother. I don't know if they still live there, but a little after they moved my younger sister was born. Ever since they've moved I haven't seen them even once."

I gasped. My parents were divorced too, but her situation was definitely worse than mine. I hadn't seen my dad ever since the divorce either, but Violet had siblings that she never got to see. "So have you heard from them lately? And how did you find out all this information?"

Violet had tears strolling down her cheeks now as she spoke. "Kendall, I just found out last week. It was horrible. You see as I told you before, I was too little to understand the divorce. The next day when my brother and mom were gone, I asked my dad where they were. He said that they were gone, and they were never coming back. I asked him if it was because I didn't something wrong, but he said no. He said it had nothing to do with me, but that I had to learn to forget them. I was so confused and scared, but I continued to live on. My dad said I cried every day for almost a month, and that it tool me some time to forget about them. Obviously I don't remember any of this, but I'm telling you exactly what my dad told me a week ago. So eventually I did forget about them. We never kept in touch with them and I'm not even sure if my mom called my dad or not to check on me. I'm sixteen now, so this was thirteen years ago. I forgot I even had a mother or a brother. I don't remember their names or anything. I just moved on with my life. And then there were times when I went to school and all the kids' mothers picked them up. People asked me where my mom was but I told them I didn't have a mom. That's what my dad told me to tell anyone who asked. And eventually I bought the lie after living with it the past couple years. As I grew older I learned much more about life. I learned that only women give birth to children, so of course I had to have a mother. I learned that at one point in every person's life, they die. I figured my mother died when I was little, but I never bothered asking my dad about it. All I knew was that I didn't not have a mother or any siblings."

"How could you not remember having a mom? I mean she was your mother. How do you forget something like that even if you were just three?" I asked. "Sorry, don't mean to be rude or anything..."

"No Kendall, it's fine. I ask myself the same thing sometimes. How did I forget such an important thing? But I tell myself the same thing every time. You know how little kids believe everything they hear? Well I was only three and after living with the lie for so long, I had to believe it. There was no evidence of her in my past. No phone calls, no pictures. I couldn't remember anything of her, so of course I never had the idea that I could possible have a brother. You know, sometimes I wonder if there was an accident that caused me to lose all of my memory. But my dad says no. He says the exact thing too, that I was too little to understand anything and I eventually forgot about it. I mean it didn't bother me anymore. Until last week. As I told you before, I have a step mom. She's really nice, but she hasn't been here for all my life. I knew she wasn't my real mother because when my dad and her got married, I was old enough to understand the term step mother. So last week, I heard my dad and step mother arguing. And they were arguing for a long time until my dad finally came up to me. You know what he told me? He told me everything I just told you right now. That I have a mother who lives in California. That I have a brother who I'd always play with when I was little. That I now have a little sister too who's twelve, but didn't exist when my mom and brother lived with us. I know she's my biological sister too because my dad said that my mom was pregnant while she lived with us. You don't know how hard it was for me to take in all of this. To know that I have a mother who's still alive while all along I thought she was dead. To know I have an older brother who's only a year older than me. To know that I even have a little sister that's Katie's age! How could he keep all of this from me for thirteen years?!" Violet cried. She was crying now and I felt so bad for her. I wiped away her tears and calmed her down.

I didn't know what to say. I mean my mother told my that she and my dad were divorced as soon as I was old enough to understand what it meant. I was eight years old then. Yes it was definitely surprised then and I was mad for a little while too, but I got over it after while. Anyways, we never talk about my dad. But poor Violet...it was different for her now.

"That's what they were arguing about," Violet continued. "My step mother and dad. She found a picture of of my dad, me, my mom, and my brother from thirteen years ago. She showed it to my dad, then she was going to come show it to me. But my dad stopped her and ripped the picture in half. My step mother was surprised and she asked him why he was so angry. He told her that I didn't know that I ever had a mother and brother and he didn't plan on letting me know. My step mom was furious when she heard this. She thought that I had the right to know that I had and still have a mom. So they were arguing about that for a while, and I guess my step mom won the fight because that's when my dad came and told me everything. It was horrible Kendall..." Violet's voice cracked.

"Violet...I'm so sorry. I can't believe he'd do that to you. That's terrible! Wow, umm is there's anything I can do..."

"Thanks Kendall. Thanks for listening. I wish you could do something, but sadly there's nothing to do. All my dad told me was that I have a mother and brother and sister. He doesn't know where they live currently. He didn't even tell me their names! I calculated their ages from the information that he told me. But other than that I don't know anything about them. And the more I think about it the more I want to meet them. I wish I could find them and at least speak a word with them. I want a real mom who's there to love me in every situation. A real brother who's there to protect me from all the dangers out there. And a younger sister to talk to about girl stuff. I just want a real family you know?" Violet sniffled.

"Yeah, my parents are divorced too. Except your situation is completely different than mine. My mom told me I had a dad when I was about eight. You're probably thinking why I don't remember my parents divorce too. My parents divorced when I was about four. I asked for my dad everyday. After a while of not seeing him, I became quiet. A year later, I was in a car accident. It caused me to forget some little things like who my teacher was or my address, but I still remembered all the main things that mattered in life. However, I did forget that I had a dad. When I came home from the hospital, all I remembered was that it was only me, my mom, and little sister that lived in the house. By the way, I'm not sure where I used to live before my parents divorced, but when I was younger I lived in Minnesota. Now, I live in Cali with the other guys. Anyways, I'm so so sorry. So are you still mad at your dad?"

"Oh h*ll yes! I'm not even living with him. I spend the entire day out sometimes and then I go to my best friend Hazel's house. Some days we hang out together since she's my best friend, but she's always working at the Cocoa Bean, so we can never spend too much time together. I do appreciate though that she's letting me live with her as my anger fades away," Violet responded.

"But do you dad and step mom know you're living with Hazel?" I asked.

"Yeah, they know. They called the police when I ran away but they found me within seconds since I'm always at Hazel's. They don't bother me and I don't bother them so it's all good. One of these days I'm gonna run away for good and never come back," Violet said stubbornly.

"Well I'm always here if you need someone," I smiled. The whole time Violet spoke it was as if we were in another world. I could imagine everything she was telling me. Both of us forgot we were still on the Ferris Wheel, until the man had to tell us to step out because they were closing.

"Kendall please don't tell anyone about tonight. It would mean the world to me," Violet pleaded.

"As long as you don't want me to Violet," I said. I gave her a big hug and she buried her head in my arms.

"Hey... you guys ready to go home?" Logan yawned.

"Yeah it's getting pretty late. We need some shut eye since we have early rehearsal for the show tomorrow," James said.

"Ughh. Nooo. Man I hate rehearsal. Alright then, let's head on home. I grabbed Violet's hand and we all walked to the car.

"Violet, you need a ride to Hazel's house?" I asked. I would have asked her to stay with us for the night but that would have been too awkward.

"Sure, if it's no trouble for you guys," she murmured. I glanced at her and she gave me a small but sad smile.

"Who's Hazel?" James asked.

"Violet's friend," I answered.

"Is she hot?" James asked.

"Does it matter?" I smirked.

We all laughed and continued to converse with each other. Violet was sitting next to me in the passengers seat. I grabbed her hand and whispered,

"It'll be okay Violet. Trust me." She nodded and looked out the car window. I could see her wipe away a small tear. Thankfully the guys didn't notice.

I had only known Violet for two days. This wasn't long enough to be best friends with someone, but I already knew for sure that I had a job amongst myself to complete:

I was going to help her find her real family.

Aww, how sweet is Kendall. He barely knows this chik and he already wants to help. Man, I am so lucky to have a guy like him all to myself. (For those of you who don't know Kendall is mine and we are currently together :) Anyways, so this chapter was pretty long; I made up for the last short chapter. I really hope you guys enjoyed this chapter and I'm really sorry for the late update. To make sure that you guys still love me and enjoyed this chapter, PLZ PLZ PLZ REVIEW! Let me know what you thought about this chapter. It would seriously mean a lot to me! Well, ta taa for now! :)

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