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The days don't get better.
She feels like there is no reason to enjoy the days anymore if castle isn't by her side. She wants to hug him and tell him that she is sorry and that she loves him. She wants to tell him that she won't survive without him, that he is her one and done. It took her long to realize that, she knows it. But they've been through a lot together and they're partners, they know each other, He is her best friend. She didn't want to lose their friendship. And now she is losing the love of her life.
It's her fault. It's not like she had doubts about her love to castle. She never doubted that and she never will. She had doubts about where they were headed, what the future might bring them.
How could she ever doubt that? He was the one that stayed there next to her even on the worst days. He was the one that didn't care about all her baggage, he didn't care about all her mess, and he didn't care about all her bad things and bad moments. He only cared about her. He never gave up on her. He pushed and pushed till the walls where down. He was her one and done.
She loved him then, she loves him now and she will love him always.
Always.
She needs him. She spends the days at her room crying. Lanie tried to tell her to go out with her, to tell her that she needed to eat and take care of her but she just said:
"Not until I have him back "
Also Jim had tried to go there and make her eat but she just refused. They were worried about her. They all knew that she had acted wrong doing that to castle but everybody has bad days and she is not perfect. She acted wrong but she is sorry and she loves him. She would not came out of this if something went wrong and they didn't get together again.
They needed them back together.
Castle was a mess. He didn't wanted to talk about Kate. He was reading all the letters that Kate was leaving at his door. This morning he had picked another but he hadn't read it yet.
He opened the letter and started reading.
Letter number 5
Dear Castle:
Almost 2 weeks. 2 Weeks and I can't even get out of my room. I miss you, I need you, and I love you. I know this is only the 5th time I tell you this and I can't even tell you why I haven't told you that I love you every single day since we got together. Only thing I can tell you is that when my mother died I just closed to the world, to the love, to the happiness.
I told myself that I was never going to let someone in just to break again if something happened. You know, my mum and dad had this kind of love that just watching them you could tell they were really in love and that nobody or nothing could get them apart. Not even the big fights.
When I was little I always thought I was going to have this love. And I've found it. You. I always asked my mum : " mum, I'm I going to have a love story with someone like you and dad have ? " she used to always smile and tell me: " Be patient, be you honey and someone will love you just for who you are. Even with your worsts sides. "
You did castle. You loved me for who I am. I know this is going to sound silly but I didn't want to tell you I loved you because in my mind I had this situation that if I told you I loved you something would happen to you eventually and I would lose you. What we have castle, is love. With our bad and good moments. With our smiles and our tears. It's like we are writing our stories in one of your books. We are writing our old memories while we live the new ones. And I hope with all my soul that we can put this memory in that book and keep working on new ones. I loved you then, I love you now.
I miss you castle. I still hold on that hopefully I'll see you soon.
PD: you will be my one and done.
No words. He had no words. Kate was opening more to him thought all that letters. He missed her too and he needed her. But he needed something. He didn't know what but he needed something to make him trust her again. She just needed to find what this something is and make it work.
*There's a knock at the door.*
- Lanie? - He asked surprise. He didn't expect her.
- Hey castle. Can I talk to you? - She saw castle like she had never seen him before. He had lost weight too and he was like he didn't sleep well on nights.
- What? - He asked. Knowing what she will say
- She's a mess. - Lanie said, hoping that castle would know what to do. But she was wrong.
- What do you want me to do? It's like everybody is waiting for me to do the step when she is the one that has to do that because she is the one that screwed this up.
- I know castle. I'm not saying she was right. I'm just saying that she is trying so hard to get you back and she doesn't even get a sign or something that you are reading her letters or that you are on the way of forgetting her. Because I know you are castle. You two are meant for each other and you can't let this end what you have. I understand you and I'm with you castle but could you just tell her that you are reading her letters or tell her that she has to take care of herself? - Lanie said. She understands castle's situation but she also knows that Kate is really sorry. She is not even Kate anymore.
- Okay. I'll talk to her. But don't expect too much.
- It's all I could've asked from you.
- Thanks Lanie.
- Thanks to you castle and we miss you guys. Look castle she has been through a lot since her mother died and she sometimes doubts. You have been with her every single day since you met. She went from saying: "He's a jackass. I don't want him next to me" to "I need him. He is my partner. My friend. My lover. My life. "So please think castle and don't let this ruin everything you've built. - And with that she was gone.
He knew she was right but he needed something. He didn't know what.
Kate heard a knock on her front door. She really didn't want to get out of bed. She was crying and she wanted to be alone. There's only one person that she wants to be with right now but she knows that that will not happen. At least not now. Finally she opened the door and she was shock because of the person next to the door.
- Castle... - she says and she breaks down crying. She feels his arms around her hugging her, holding her.
- Shh Kate, relax. - It breaks his heart to see her this way.
- I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. Please I miss you, I need you castle. Please. - She says crying.
- I know Kate I miss you too but I need a little bit of time.
- You are giving up on us don't you? - She says sobbing.
- I'm not Kate. But I just need something from you, something that shows me that you are in this. I know you are, but I need something. But Kate I just came here to tell you that you have to take care of you. You need to be yourself again.
- Not until I have you back.
- And you will. But when the time comes, I want the Kate I fell in love with and by the way I've read your letters and the Kate that writes those letters is the Kate that I love.
- I miss you.
- I know, I do too. But take care of yourself okay?
- Just for you.
- For me. See you soon Beckett!
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