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"I just need him." Kate said to Martha. She came to visit her, to make sure she was taking care of herself. Martha was like her mother. She expected her to be mad with her after what she did to castle.
"He needs you too Kate but you just have to find the perfect way to show him that you are finally in this and make him understand that you want forever with him"
"Martha why aren't you mad at me? Everyone should be mad at me. Even I'm mad at myself"
"Kate darling, we are human. We make mistakes. We are bound by our choices but we are more than our mistakes Kate and I know that you love him. That you've loved him since you first met him. And after everything you've been through, the failed relationships with men that you don't love, the shooting… it's normal to get nervous, to get scared because of everything you've built."
"I never told anybody, how do you know?" Kate asked. She never told that she was scared because of this relationship that she and castle have, that she was waiting for something bad. Life is not a walk of roses. And after what happened to her mum and how her dad went from the happiest man alive to be alone and miserable she couldn't even think in the possibility that everything with castle was going to be perfect.
"Because I know you Kate, you've been family since we met and I know I can't read you like castle does but I know your looks, how you mind works. Like that time that castle held your hand for the first time. Do you remember? He had that smile on his face but you seemed like you wanted that so bad but couldn't find the way to show it. That's who you are Kate, you suffered the hardest pain a human being can suffer, losing a loved one. And that somehow changed you and you think that you'll suffer that pain again if you care about someone again. And believe it or not I understand your doubts Kate, you only wanted to know where were you headed so you could make peace with your mum's murder and start a new life. That's why you doubted Kate, because you needed to know if that was the right time to leave all behind and start a new life with him."
"I actually gave up my mum's case because of him" she said.
"I know you did. And that's a great step darling" She said opening Kate's hand and putting a ring on her palm.
"What's this Martha?" Kate said scared.
"That's Rick's ring. Well actually your ring"
"He was going to propose?"
"Yes, he was. But he was just waiting."
"What do you want me to do with this?"
"I'm sure you'll figure it out. Just listen to your heart Kate and leave your head out of this. Don't make him wait more." Martha said hoping Kate understood what she was saying.
He had another letter on his hand. He was almost ready but he needed something. Something to show him that she was in this. That she was never going to doubt again. He loves her. And that hasn't changed yet. So he just opened the letter.
Letter number 10.
Dear castle:
Almost a month. I miss you, I love you, I need you. The other day I talked with someone really clever that told me that I needed to make this right and to show you that I was in this. That I wanted forever with you. And that's what I'm going to do but first I have to explain to you why I did what I did, I have to explain to you why I doubted. It's not going to be eas, but it's going to make you understand and maybe you can forgive me, maybe you can believe in us again.
Because it took me long castle but I believe in us, I believe in our love story, I believe in you. I made to the biggest mistake I've made in my life, I doubted because I'm not used to have someone that I really care about next to me for so long. Sure I have my dad, but I lost him long time ago when my mum died. I still have him next to me but he's not the same.
I'm not used to have a relationship with someone I really love and have it last. To make it easier for you to understand, I'm not use to have someone that cares about me. I used to take care of myself when my mum left me. I had to close to the world and at the same time take care of my dad, so I grew up faster than I should have, I grew up and I had to learn the meaning of responsibility for my own.
You know my mum wasn't there to tell me: "you are going to suffer because of love, they are going to break your heart, they are going to make you cry, they are going to bring you down but you have to learn to get past that and to stand tall. LIFE NEVER DELIVERS ANYTHING THAT WE CAN'T HANDLE" she wasn't there to tell me how to love someone and how the relationships work. That's why my relationships never last. Because I was just hiding in them, like you told me. That's why I don't know how to do this, because you are the first person I loved since my mum died. You are the first real love of my life and I want you to be my last.
I doubted because everything was going perfect between us and I was just waiting for something bad to happen so I could run like I always do and hide and so I didn't have to suffer again.
I guess the bad thing that happened is this one, but it didn't made me run or hide. Thanks to this situation I'm not afraid anymore, I'm not hiding anymore. I'm not saying that this had to happen so I could realize what I want but sometimes bad things happen and they lead us to the great ones.
You are my great one. You are my world. And I want to show you that every day of the rest of my life.
Can you do one thing for me? Open the door.
PS: you are going to be my one and done.
He didn't know what was waiting for him at the other side of the door. But he just got up and went to the door. Maybe a present? He was expecting an object and he found a person.
He found her.
"Kate?" he asked surprised.
"Hey love. Ready to go?"
"Ready to go where?! Where are we going?" he asked. She was calling him love, she was making the step, she was making this right. And he was ready.
"We are going to start from zero" she said holding his hand and leading him to the elevator.
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