School. Oh fucking dear. That was all Dean could think about. School. What is gonna happen now? Everyone's going to find out about him and Cas and yeh, he didn't particularly care about that, it was the thought of Cas being bullied... or worse.
That wasn't going to happen.
No way was he going to let it happen.
No way most of the people there would dare to bat an eyelid at them if they came out.
He was still scared of the minority though. It was going to be tough, and the thought of telling everyone petrified him, but he knew he had to say something people. And those who were going to be dicks about it, might not live long enough to tell. He loved Cas. And NOTHING was going to change that.
Castiel looked to his brother, shaking. He was freaked. Balthazar knew that if the poor sod could last the day, he might just melt away at the end of it. They both remembered the past all to well. They both knew what this next week could mean if it went well or if it went bad.
If it went well: Castiel could live happily, he could be free to be himself, feel more comfortable around others (which he hadn't since). More importantly there'd be nothing inbetween him and Dean,
If it went bad...
So yes, violently shaking, feeling like he was about to be sick. He didn't want to. He didn't want to go. He didn't want to say anything. But he also didn't want to hide anymore.
"You know Cassy, you can always ask your boyfriend to hold back on confessions until you feel ready." Balthazar said, looking his little brother up and down, worried about the state he was in.
"I'm never going to be ready."
"Well then." Balthazar said, pulling Castiel in for a hug, "If there's any dicks, just say Lucifer's on your side."
Castiel laughed. Nick had woke him up that morning, saying if anyone dares to take the piss out of his little brother he'd give 'em hell. Everyone could say how bad he was, but deep down... Nick really did love his family. Even Michael, as much as they both hated to admit it.
"That'll make 'em back off."
Benny and Lisa drove up to the Novak household, Anna, Balthazar and Castiel waiting. They all climbed into the campervan. Lisa and Anna glared. And they glared. And they glared. While the boys sat in awkward silence, they kept their eyes firmly on each other.
"So... How was everyone's weekend?" Benny asked.
"I gained a boyfriend." Castiel said.
"I helped him gain that boyfriend. He was mine first afterall." Lisa added.
"Oh like you ever cared about him the way Cas does." Anna scoffed, rolling her eyes at miss perky's sudden bitterness.
"Cared damn more about him than you think, and more about your best friend than you do."
"Please, what'd you do? give up your tiara so Cas could wear it for five seconds."
"More than you ever do, dumping all your problems on him."
"Like what bitch?"
"Like every single little petty thing you talk about. What is it? What is nutritious?"
"Oh please, like you don't about what you eat. Infact never mind, you don't eat. Let me guess, little popular cheerleader loses weight by chucking her guts up into the bathroom stalls."
"Well at least I'm not a stuck up nerd who thinks she's so much better than everyone else just because she's so clever. You're not even that clever. I beat you on every bloody test we had in middle school."
"Yes. But you gave it up for getting drunk every night and fucking the first guy you see."
"So I like to fuck? What do you care? Just because your vagina's got cobwebs on it don't mean everyone elses has to. And you know what?"
"No both of you SHUT UP!" Samandriel screamed. "I'M SICK OF THIS. I'M SICK OF THIS FIGHTING, I'M SICK OF HAVING ANNA MOAN, I'M SICK OF HAVING LISA GIVE ME THE STINK EYE WHENEVER I WALK PAST, I'M SICK OF NOT BEING ABLE TO TALK TO BENNY EVEN THOUGH HE'S THE ONLY FUCKING PERSON FROM MY CHILDHOOD STILL ALIVE. GET YOUR ACT STRAIGHT. THIS IS DEAN AND CASTIEL'S DAY. IF YOU FUCKING MESS THIS UP FOR THEM, I SWEAR I WILL LOCK YOU TWO UP AND NEVER LET YOU OUT INTO DAYLIGHT AGAIN. FUCKING SORT IT OUT. NOW."
He finally took a breath. Everyone was stunned. Stunned that he could shout. Stunned he could actually talk, considering he hardley ever did. But mostly stunned that he was going to be the one to finally say anything about his past.
"Your brother?" Benny asked.
"After mum and dad and the car crash, he didn't want to anymore. It was a year after we stopped talking. They made me live with my godparents, I hadn't ever met before. They were looking to adopt so they saw fit to move over here, buy a house close to the schools, and took me in."
"I'm sorry." Benny said, pulling the van over.
"Now as Sam was saying, you two sort your shit out now or we aren't going. Now usually, that'd be okay, but I got art with Zeddmore and Spangler teaching. Man those two are schmucks, but funny schmucks. If I'm late I'll murder someone."
"Okay." Everyone murmered.
Sam and Dean climbed into the impala. And they sat. Dean stared out the window, holding the steering wheel, gazing out at the town.
"Dean." Sam said. "Dean. DEAN!"
"Yes."
"START THE CAR."
"Oh."
Dean turned the keys, and backed off the driveway.
"What's with you?"
"I, umm... nothing."
"Yes. That's why you didn't eat anything and you didn't start the car and you haven't said anything."
"Okay look. Some things you don't need to know Sammy."
"You're telling everyone about you and Castiel aren't you?"
"Am I really that fucking transparent?" He said, smacking the wheel, followed by shaking his hand off until the redness went down.
"You alright?" Sam asked, grinning.
"Just fine and dandy."
"It'll be okay you know. No one insults my big brother, no one's got the guts."
"I love you little man."
"AND YOUR THE ONE WHO STARTED THE PAINT WAR, YOU GOT MY FAVOURITE BLOUSE ALL MESSED UP."
"BUT YOUR THE ONE WHO RIPPED MY TEXTBOOKS IN HALF."
"BUT YOU STARTED IT BY PULLING MY BRAID OUT."
"ACTUALLY YOU STARTED IT BY THWACKING MY SCHOOL STUFF TO THE GROUND."
Samandriel, Castiel and Benny sat. Very bored. Very tired. Listening to the two ladies arguing it out.
"ALRIGHT ENOUGH!" Castiel yelled. "The very reason this started was with a juice box. You, Lisa, you think she stole it. Well she didn't SHE MISTOOK IT. You, Anna, I expect better from you than to retaliate to others. Aren't you the one always saying leave it be? You're BOTH acting like children."
"I want to be there in art." Benny said.
"I want the petty arguing to stop." Samandriel said.
"I want to be able to be there with MY boyfriend today, while he not only announces to everyone that he's bisexual, but that we are together. If he's on his own everyone in this car knows he won't be able to do it, he needs your support today, we BOTH do. And if you guys are going to argue instead, then I'm getting out of this van and walking. Make up."
"He's right." Anna sighed, groaning at her best friend for being right. Again. "Look I'm sorry for what I've done to you in the past, we took it too far and now it's got us here."
"Yeh... I'm sorry too. All this over a juice box? It's madness. I'm respected by people, I don't need a petty argument from kindergaten to hold me back. You're right, I take things badly."
"Are we done?" Benny gasped. "Are we ACTUALLY done?"
"Yes." They both said in unison.
"Lets go then." Benny said, putting his foot down and driving to get there before homeroom.
The bell went. Not one of Dean's friends was there. No Benny, No Lisa. No Cas. He knew they were all riding together, and he just hoped it wasn't anything too serious. Miss. Harvelle watched the empty seats as the rest of the class filed in. (From the start to the end of this, I don't think I ever mentioned Dean knew two Ellen Harvelle's. His dad's friend Bobby had a crush on the one from the diner, and his formtutor sucked.) She too could see Lisa, Benny, Cas, Anna and Samdriel were missing.
"Dean." She asked. "Were are your friends."
"Hiding behind the sun."
"I'm serious Mr. Winchester."
"They all took a lift together today, I don't know anything else."
"Well if they don't turn up soon I'm going to have to record them with a late mar..."
"Sorry we're late Miss. Harvelle." Anna said, promptly followed by the rest.
"And why would that be?"
"Because these two had childhood issues to resolve." Benny smirked, pointing at a rather red Anna and Lisa.
"And that made you late because?"
"A lot of yelling and having to pull the car over." Samandriel answered, taking up his seat at the back.
"Anything you two want to add?"
"Nope." Lisa said.
"Nothing at all." Castiel added. They both took up their seats.
Dean smiled, good to see everyone was here.
After an agonising first two classes, they finally got out for recess. Dean and Castiel giving each other weary looks as they shuffled out of the classroom.
They had all plotted it, but the best way, the only way to do this really was to...
Well I'm not going to say yet.
They chose a spot were most of the school could see them.
Saw Missouri close by and waved to her as they stood from the rest of the pack.
Anna and Lisa arm in arm, stood beside Benny and Samandriel, giving the two a heads up.
Dean and Cas faced each other.
"You ready?" Castiel asked.
"I'm never going to be ready. But you know, lets do this."
As I said, they faced each other.
They took deep breaths.
They saw others beginning to wonder what was going on.
Better to get it over and done with.
Was it?
Yes.
Should they?
Yes.
Could they?
Yes.
Should I just get on with it?
Probably
Will I?
Lets drag the tension out a little more.
They gasped for air.
Hearts racing.
Arms shaking.
Blood pumping.
Tension rising.
They stared each other in the eye.
Minute.
"Oh Fuck it." Dean said as he smiled, grabbing Cas by the shirt and pulling him in. Cas, a little startled again but happy, took his chance to smile right before Dean placed his lips against his.
Little whispers in the crowd forming were surronding Benny and Lisa, all they could hear was stuff about their best friend.
'Winchester's a fag? that's news.'
'That's actually kind of adorable.'
'Eh. He's the best sports captain we got,who cares if he's gay?'
'I think he's bi. I mean he did just break up with Lisa.'
Same for Anna and Samandriel.
'I knew there had to be something else to the quiet nerdy kid.'
'The dude in the trenchcoat is gorgeous though. Good on Dean.'
'Isn't that the fag our old buddy got?'
'It is as well. He's gonna pay...'
Anna's ears suddenly perked up she turned around looking for the voices, eventually spotting two boys walking towards Cas. She let go of Lisa's arm and whispered into Benny's ear: "I think I heard someone talk about the thing with Cas."
"You serious?" He asked.
Pointing to the boys, she began to shake.
"Let me deal with this." Benny said.
Walking towards them, he saw it was Raphael Christai and Richard Roman. He guessed it'd be them, they were the two biggest douchebags in school.
Raphael went to pull Castiel away, but Benny got there first.
"Don't you ever. EVER. Touch my friend again. Is that clear?" He growled, holding the two boys on the ground. Missouri didn't even stop them, she just smirked and walked towards Dean and Castiel.
"It's clear." Raphael said.
"please let us go, we swear we won't do anything ever again." Dick squirmed underneath Benny's grasp.
He let the two go, begrudgingly when Cas gave him the nod. "And that goes to all of you douchewagons out there. If anyone dares fucking make fun of someone for who they are, who they want to be, or who they love again, there is going to be a storm coming at you, one you might not survive."
Dean and Castiel smiled at each other, the secret was out. And it was pretty clear everyone was going to get the message Benny had sent out, no matter how long and how hard it would take.
"That was a big move you two boys made today." Missouri said, beaming at Cas and Dean. "And to think, you two were the one's in my first detention. Look at you now."
"That was only a couple of weeks ago miss." Castiel said, confused.
"You're not the same person you were a second ago Castiel. For instance, I no longer hear Mr. Winchester calling you James Bond anymore."
"I suppose your right."
And she walked off, content with the two.
"What now?" Dean asked Cas.
"I guess, we carry on."
"No one could be happier than I am today."
"I am."
"Oh god," Dean laughed, "I love you."
"Ditto."
"Please don't do that. Lisa made me watch Ghost around a thousand times."
"Okay, okay, I love you too."