I have returned from my multiple month hiatus from the FanFic universe. Personal stuff just cluttered up my life for a while, but do not fear, it's all sorted out now, and I have made time in my schedule to update all of my stories regularly. Expect another chapter for this later this week.

I'm back again, for good this time.

Enjoy!

Caution: Contains internal conflict.

Booth's Hotel Room, Indianapolis

Booth's hand fumbled with his poker chip while he laid on the hotel bed, a hockey game he wasn't paying attention to blaring on the television screen. He was anxious. Anxious about starting a new life, seeing his son, and maybe even his daughter. But he was most anxious about the conversation he was going to have with his old partner.

He didn't completely trust what Angela had told him about Brennan wanting him to be a part of Amelia's life. Brennan hated him, or so he thought.

'She has every right to hate me, I've been such a dick to her.'

In the past year, his life had slowly became a train wreck, and he hated it. Without his kids present in his life, his life didn't seem worthy of living. Sweets may deem him as suicidal, but he thought of himself as lonely. Though a large part of that was his own fault. It had been his decision to move on after Brennan. He could have waited for her, but he didn't, and wound up hurting himself again in the long run.

He should have seen it sooner, Hannah doesn't love him. Well, at least not the way she seemed to express while they were over in Afghanistan. As soon as something that wasn't planned popped into their lives, she was gone, leaving him fazed in her tracks.

He was lonely.

There was Parker being in England due to Rebecca's job, and then there was Amelia. The tiny human who permanently tied him to the woman that he still loved. He never should have married Hannah, she was a rebound, a mistake. He sees that now, and he doesn't realize how he could be so blind. He should have taken Brennan getting pregnant as the sign that they were meant to be together, but he continued to blind himself from the truth, and was so dead set on proving her wrong, that he could, indeed, move on. But in reality, he hadn't. He still loved that beautiful scientist who loved the dead, and he'd blinded himself for so long over the past year that he couldn't see how bad he was hurting her.

Now he's lost her, and their daughter, because of his actions.

'You're such an idiot.' he thought.

Brennan's Apartment, Chicago

Brennan's hands were fumbling with the sheets of her bed, her mind currently deep in thought.

She still didn't know what she was going to do. Booth was going to be in Chicago within the next twenty four hours, and she knew what came next.

She wasn't ready to face him, she needed more time to prepare, more time to rationalize the situation.

'You've had a year to rationalize this situation,' her mind screamed, 'it shouldn't be this difficult. It's just Booth, you've had thousands of conversations with Booth.'

'But he has Hannah now.'

'Did you not hear what Angela said earlier? He's realizing that Hannah was a mistake.'

'If anything he probably thinks Amelia is a mistake.'

'He came to the hospital to see her, wanted to hold her. He's willing to leave Hannah for her, he's a good father, you know that. He loves her. He may have moved on from you, but he'll never be able to forget his feelings for his child.'

Brennan rolled over with a sigh, tired of fighting her own mind. She heard her daughter shifting around in her crib over the baby monitor, hearing the infants deep baby breaths.

Brennan waited, knowing what normally came next.

Only a few seconds later, her daughter's lonely whimpers filled the air. Brennan swung her legs over the side of her bed, the clock's neon lights blaring two thirty five at her face.

Brennan sighed, running a hand through her hair. She hadn't slept well in a while, long before her daughter was born, and insomnia was slowly taking it's toll on her. The thoughts of him always kept her up at night.

'You would think talking to him rather than avoiding him would help your conscience.' her mind hinted.

Her inner struggle was interrupted by her daughter's whimpers turning into wails. She stood, walking into the infant's room.

"Amelia..." Brennan said, somewhat sing-song like, causing the infant to look through the crib bars.

"Shh...you're okay." she whispered, picking up the infant.

The child calmed once in her mother's arms, her big green eyes staring into the blue ones above her. Brennan kissed the child's forehead, smiling when the child brought a chubby hand up to rest on her cheek.

Brennan's mind interrupted the moment.

'She deserves her father.'

'But does he deserve to be in her life?'

'You know he does, he's a good father, you've witnessed that firsthand.'

"I'm sorry you have to be in the middle of this," Brennan whispered to Amelia as she sat down in the rocking chair, "you don't deserve to be, I just want what's best for you."

The infant simply stared up at her mother, her chubby hand grasping a lock of Brennan's hair. Brennan stroked the child's cheek, seeing so much of Booth's features in Amelia's face. While admiring her child, her best friend's voice tore through her mind.

'Did you ever think that maybe Booth is the perfect father for your child? Not just his stuff, but, him. What if you're throwing away the chance to have a family, a real one, because you're...scared.'

Those words hadn't been about Amelia, but the child Brennan had planned on having before Booth was diagnosed with his brain tumor. Brennan still wondered about where they would be if she had gone through with it. Would she and Booth be together? Would they be married? Who would the baby have looked like? Would it have been a boy or a girl? Would they have had more kids?

But she threw away her chance of a family with Booth by rejecting him that night so long ago. He had moved on, just as he said he would. She had tried to as well, but a small human was currently halting her progress.

'But Hannah is a mistake, he realizes that now,' her mind reminded her.

'But he realized that too late, they're married now.'

'Divorce is always an option.'

'Booth's religion views divorce as a sin.'

'His religion also views having a child out of wedlock as a sin, which he has done twice.'

'Booth is a good man, his so called sins don't define him,' Brennan argued back.

'See? You just admitted he's a good man. So why not let him see his child?'

'He left me. He betrayed me. He said he'd never do those things and he did.'

'You did the same to him by taking his child away,' her mind screamed.

'Letting him see her won't make it better,' she argued back.

'That's your hypothesis, why don't you experiment and find out the conclusion?'

Her inner struggle is real...

Up Next: Booth finally arrives in Chicago.

Do he and Brennan finally talk? You'll have to stay tuned for that.

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