Remember that this fanfic does not follow the real time as the show.

Alison's POV

Day 1
My world is upside down. "A" tried to kill me. My own mother buried me alive. I'm running away from everything I know.

Day 2
Why me? I'm so gonna find out who that bitch is.

Day 3
Surving alone isn't as easy as it seems. They're all going to miss me.

Day 4
I think about Emily and how devastated she will be without me. There's something about her. Maybe it will make her strong, that's what she needs.

Day 7
The comfort of my old home starts to gain weight on me, I wish everything was back to normal.

Day 9
I start to value having someone who I can trust, I can't do this alone.

Day 13
Never thought not seeing the girls for almost two weeks could get to me so quickly. I wonder if they hate me, I hope not. But they could never understand what i'm going through.

Day 16
I miss the good in my life. When I think about good I see Emily... Sweet Emily.

Day 18
I think about Emily more than I think about Aria, Spencer and Hanna. She didn't deserve losing me.

Day 23
Everything is getting harder to deal with. I don't feel like myself lately.

Day 28
If only regret could save me from this mess. I can't figure out who "A" is, I thought I knew, but I was wrong.

Day 29
I wanna come home. I want to make things okay again. I need to see her, I need to see the only person that can bring the good in me. That's why I need her, she always saw the best version of me.

Day 33
I know how I treated people, but I deserve a second chance.

Day 40
I hope she's not crying over me. Things would be so simple if I could just tell her the truth.

Day 50
I'm feeling numb, staying gone as become more easier now. But if Emily was with me, I would probably never think about coming back. She's in my mind all day, I let her kissed me once and I thought it was just practice for the real thing, but I realize now what it meant. Or maybe i'm confusing things. "Don't let it get to you, Alison"

Day 61
I have to see her. Even if it means risking everything for her.

Day 57
I saw her from a distance and I could not believe how beautiful she was. I miss her so much. And Aria, Hanna, and Spencer... I was so stupid to hurt them.

Day 66
All I want is to tell Emily how much I regret hurting her. But "A" is always one step ahead of me. It's not save to come home yet.

Day 70
"A" destroyed my life, took everything I love from me. Nothing hurts more. I guess I deserved it...

Day 75
I wouldn't know what to tell Emily and the girls if I saw them right now. Too many things have happened, they would never trust me again.

Day 79
"Be smart Alison, you always find a way"

Day 87
I'm finally starting to trick "A"

Day 90
I realize i'm not the same person I was, and that's okay. Emily would agree with me, words cannot tell how much I need and miss her.

Day 94
I put on my red coat today and I saw Emily smiling again outside school. If only she was smiling to me. For a second, I was jealous of Paige. And in that moment, all forces of the universe were pushing me to go there and talk to Em. But "A" stopped me right there with a text: "She found another friend to kiss, let it go bitch - A"