To Guest again: Yes, I am writing a RobStar story, I felt like I needed a change! Do not worry, I will update Unraveled by Indignities soon enough, I'm trying to add a little more action into the next chapter. When I start a story I always finish it! That's a promise! I'm a diehard BBrae fan BUT I felt like I wasn't being fair to RobStar so I concocted this beauty. I will continue to update my other stories along with this one. Thanks for reviewing! XOXO
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A/N: I loved the reviews guys! Thank you so much, and please keep reviewing! Since I received good reception from the first chapter I'll definitely move on with the story. You bring smiles to my face and really make me feel good about my writing endeavors. Just to let you know this chapter contains multiple POV's I hope it doesn't confuse anyone. Enjoy…
"All Changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another." Anatole France
January 2
Morning
Starfire POV
I believe now is the time as any to tell my friends that I am quitting the Titans. I do not wish for my absence to be taken harshly, but I do not want my presence to be forgotten. Right now everyone is sitting down at the table eating the breaking of fast. They look so harmonious I feel as if I should not do the dropping of bombs on them, but this must be done. I cannot continue to live in agony.
I clear my throat and look at them. "Friends I have something I would like to discuss."
Their heads snap up and they look at me expectantly. I feel the butterflies of nervousness in my belly.
"Yeah, what's up little lady?" Cyborg asks sweetly.
I take a deep breath and avoid Robin's gaze. "As you know I have left Tamaran in my K'norfka Galfore's hands since my absence. He has been leading the planet and taken the royal substitution position until my return. I believe it is safe for me to return to my home, I want to take my leadership position back."
They stopped moving and just stared at me. Raven dropped her hood and looked at me sincerely. "Are you sure you want to move back?" Her gravely monotone voice holds the slightest pinch of compassion.
I nod. "I am 21 years old, not a child anymore. I can understand the leadership role now more than ever." I twist my hands in nervousness and still trying to avoid Robin's gaze.
Beast Boy chuckles. "Then it's settled, you're going back to Tamaran." He smiles at me and it gives me reassurance, he has always been good with making me feel better in the worst of situations.
Robin slams his fist down on the table and I jump slightly. I turn to look at him and he glares at me, enraged by my decision. "What about the Team?" He asks. "What about the City?"
I am surprised by his outburst so I rebuttal quickly. "I believe the Team shall do fine with my absence, we are all the grown up so I do not see any problem with them taking up my position." I say with slight attitude in my voice. I do not know why I regard Robin the way I do now, it is almost an instinct to want to hurt him using my tone of voice and words. It leaves me feeling guilty and even more heartbroken.
"That's very selfish of you, after everything we built and you're going to run off pretending as if nothing happened!" He huffed and stood up from the table.
I felt my blood boil and my energy explode. How dare he twist my words out of proportion? "I never said that, and I am not running off!" I said angrily back at him.
He looked at me and his mask tightened. "You're weak and a coward for running away from your team!"
Everyone's mouths dropped and I looked at him with an equal amount of rage in my eyes. I never thought in a trillion years he would ever call me weak. I sucked in my hurt feelings and replaced them with rage, and anger. "How dare you call me weak, I am stronger than this team combined!" I roar and light up my eyes, my hands begin to glow and I aim a Star bolt at him. "You are the reason for my anger, sadness, and disposition! You did this, and I will not stay on Earth to bear it any longer!" Accidental tears roll down my face and sting my cheeks. Since my eyes are lit up the tears are acidic and leave long trails. The anger I feel inside of me slowly dissipates into anguish, and I fear that Raven is reading my emotions.
Robin took a step back as Raven and Cyborg stood between us. Raven looked at me and read my emotions. An understanding look lit up her face and she lowered my arm. "Cyborg, Beast Boy take Robin out of here." She said harshly.
They nodded and followed Robin out of the Common Room. He looked back at me and his eyes read, regret, guilt, and sadness. I quickly looked away feeling ashamed for misunderstanding his actions. I look up at Raven and she slowly shakes her head at me.
"Are you sure you want to do this? There are other ways to forget about him." Raven says carefully.
I nod appreciatively. "There is no other way, and it is impossible to forget him. I will have to move to another planet to gain a small amount of normalcy back into my life." A tear runs down my cheek and I feel weaker than I ever have especially with Raven reading every emotion seeping out of me. "It pains me to know that Robin will never love me again. This is the only way to feel slightly better."
Raven sighs and pulls up her hood. "Let's figure out a way to get you to Tamaran, shall we?"
I smile at her. "I tried to contact Galfore but my message never made it through. I was thinking I could take a Titan Pod there and ship it back on manual."
Raven nodded. "I guess you really thought this through." She sighs and I suddenly feel guilty for leaving Raven, she was everything I could have asked for in a friend and I am just leaving her on the whim. "When are you planning on leaving?"
"Tomorrow morning, I do not wish to dwell upon my decision or I might change my mind." I smiled meekly at her and she sighed once again.
Before she could say anything Beast Boy and Cyborg walked through the doors. Cyborg smiled at me and I returned his happiness. "We left Robin in his room, he feels awful for what he said. It's sad to see you go little lady, you have to make sure to visit often."
"I will." I say and give him a brief hug.
Beast Boy looks at me. "I guess we all knew this day would happen soon, it just crept up so unexpectedly though." His face looks sad and I wish I could console him, out of everyone on the team he's matured the most.
Instead I look at Cyborg. "I need the assistance with fixing the Titan Pod; I know it is damaged from our last intergalactic battle."
Cyborg smiles at me. "To the garage!" He shouts and I follow him. I look back and Beast Boy is approaching Raven.
Raven POV
I watch Starfire disappear with Cyborg and something in me twists, I feel sad. I feel slightly abandoned, why? Something taps my shoulder and I look to see what it is, I lower my hood and to my dismay Beast Boy is smiling cheekily at me. He grins and his one fang ticks out.
"So?" His smile widens.
I feel my eye twitch in annoyance. "What?" I ask vaguely.
"The party last night?" He drags on the words 'last night', insinuating an oncoming conversation.
I sigh and pinch the bridge of my nose. "I danced with you, not a big deal." I respond, hoping he doesn't see the pink in my cheeks. I opened myself up to him last night, I wish I could blame it on the Champaign but I barely had a sip.
His mouth opens and he quickly shuts it. He looks at me with a sparkle in his eye and I roll my eyes at him, slightly annoyed that he's looking at me at all.
Beast Boy and I have a peculiar relationship, some days I hate him and other days I feel like I could hug him; which is a huge stretch for me. I hate times like this through when he pushes me to explain myself and admit something that I'm not ready to admit. We both know there's a special bond we both share with each other but neither of us will admit it. Something about the way that he pushes me outside of my boundaries entices me to a point where even I can't sort my own emotions out. I quickly shake my head, unable to think about this any longer. "I'm going to my room." I say quietly to him.
He looks at me before his face turns serious. "I need to talk to you about something." He says it rather quickly and I sense nervousness seeping out of him.
I raise my eyebrows. "I hope this isn't one of your tricks, if it is I'm going to kill you."
He shakes his head and his eyes bleed seriousness. "It's important, follow me." He looks indecisive for a moment and I follow him out of the common room and down the hallway. Something in my gut tells me that this is the start of something serious but I ignore it. Usually when Beast Boy became serious it was only for a prank he was about to pull or a secret he needed to tell me. I look around and realize that he's taking me to his room, which is odd considering that he never takes me to his room.
I tap him on the shoulder. "Why are you taking me to your room?" I try to keep my voice monotone but my nervousness gives me away.
He doesn't answer me and I begin to worry that this may be more than just a little prank. I try to calm my emotions, he's blindly putting himself at risk for an accidental dose of my power. He opens his door and disappears inside and I follow, not realizing what I'm about to get myself into. I take a deep breath and look at him expectantly. "What's wrong? Your nerves are really getting to me."
He looks at me like he's afraid for a moment and his emotions read fear. "I need your help, but please whatever you think, don't judge me, please."
I become slightly worried. "Beast Boy what's going on?"
He sighs and walks over to his computer desk. He fingers a folder slightly and shuffles his feet. "I couldn't go to Cyborg with this because he wouldn't take it serious. Robin doesn't like getting involved with plans like mine so he's also out of question. Starfire has been distant for a while now so that left only one person; you."
"Okay, so what is it?" I eyed the folder curiously, hoping that everything was okay. His demeanor and emotions told differently which caught me off guard. He was usually so childish and flippant.
He inhaled deeply a moment before shoving the folder at me. I looked at him perplexingly before opening it. Inside there were three papers, they were formatted like passports with a picture of a person on the top and a bunch of writing below it. The pictures looked extremely familiar to her, the way the jaw line curved on the man's mouth and the green eyes of his spouse. I looked at the names and exhaled sharply. Marie Logan and Mark Logan. The third picture was of a man in his late 30's of the named Boris Tesla. He had somewhat grey hair and a slight aftershave. He had bright blue eyes the color of icecaps in the artic and a tiresome smile.
I looked up at Beast Boy and he regarded me carefully. "I need your help finding Tesla." He said huskily.
Robin POV
I feel stupid, and dull, and everything in between. I shouldn't have exploded at her the way I did. What the hell was I thinking? Was I even thinking? I stop pacing around my room and sit on my bed, I place my head in my hands and exhale deeply. It felt like yesterday that we were sitting on top of the Farris wheel watching fireworks explode and cascade down in spirals above us. She was so beautiful, and full of vibrancy. If I could go back to any time it would be that one, before I was forced to break up with her, before she decided to leave the Titans, and definitely before today.
I've been sitting in this room for hours, my mind racing with ideas on how to apologize but none come to me. She hasn't had a conversation with me since the break up and every time I try to talk to her she pushes me away like I'm some type of lab rat. We're 21 now, our past relationship shouldn't be the thing holding us back from being friends, and I just don't understand it. Before I can ponder it any longer my computer screen beeps loudly. I walk over to the desk and notice I have an incoming call from Gotham City. I gulp, hoping nothing bad has happened. I answer the message and an old familiar face stars back at me with a frown. I swallow hard. "Hey Bruce."
He nods at me. "You haven't been answering my calls in a while and you look terrible, what happened?" He asks with no sympathy in his voice.
I sigh and sit down in front of him. It's never been easy talking to Bruce about anything except crime and missions. Now that I'm 21 I try to solve most of my problems on my own, but this is different, this is about Starfire. "Nothing happened, I just found out that Starfire is leaving the team and heading back to Tamaran. I honestly don't know how to change her mind." I try not to sound whiny and pitiful but it's not working.
Bruce frowns. "Why would you try to change her mind? She's obviously set on leaving Earth, allow her to do so."
I knew talking to him wouldn't be easy. "I can't let her go."
"Why? I can send you a replacement for the team." He says sternly.
"It's personal; I just don't want her to go." I say cautiously, hoping that Bruce doesn't sense the weakness in my voice.
Bruce pinches the bridge of his nose, now I know that means he's upset with me. "We've talked about this before Dick. Place your personal life behind you and focus on being a hero. If the alien girl wants to run off to her own home let her, I believe it's time for everyone in that Tower to move on anyway."
I bit down on the inside of my cheek, holding in the words I wanted to say. "What do you mean, move on?" I question him.
He sighs. "None of you are 'Teen' Titans anymore; I think it's time to leave. You should think about what you want to do with your hero career, and as my Ward."
"I can't just move on! What about the Team? What about Jump City?" I ask with a hint of apprehension in my voice.
"Jump City will be fine; Cyborg can handle training new recruits. I think you should move back to Gotham, it's the only way to get away from the personal life dragging you down."
I stare at him before slowly nodding my head. I'm not entirely sure if I should listen to him, but I don't want to feel like this anymore. I don't want to feel guilty for breaking Starfire's heart, it's too much. I'm a hero, not a Hollywood celebrity with love problems. Maybe this is the right choice; this could be a new beginning for me. "Fine, I'll see you in a couple days." I say quietly and log off immediately. I cradle my head in my hands and think about my future without Starfire; it's nearly impossible.
Raven POV
"Who's Tesla and why do we need to find him?" I ask cautiously. Beast Boy stares at me and looks like he's pondering something. I sense his emotions and realize that he's nervous, afraid, and untrusting. I don' understand why. "Beast Boy, what's wrong?"
"You can't tell anyone this, not even the other Titans. Promise me." He looks heartbreakingly serious and I nod my head. He continues. "Boris Tesla created the mutated green monkey gene in Africa. He created the animal that bit me and turned me into who I am today. I've been tracking him for years with no luck until now. One of my resources in Argentina said they found one of his labs, I need to break into it and find him."
I blinked my eyes rapidly trying to push down my emotions that were bubbling up. "Let me get this straight, you found the guy who created the green animal and you want to find him? AND you have resources? How long have you been tracking this guy?" I ask trying to keep the trepidation out of my voice.
"My whole life." He shrugs and I can see relief in his eyes, I'm still confused though.
"Why do you need me?" I ask.
"I can't do this mission alone, it's dangerous and risky. Tesla is a criminal now; he's mutated many humans and animals. He has the capacity to kill anyone who gets in his way." Beast Boy takes the folder from me and closes it.
I watch as his shoulders slump slightly. "Why exactly do you want to find him?"
Beast Boy begins to look nervous and runs a hand through his hair. "Never ask questions you don't want to know the answer to." He says deeply.
This whole day has been confusing enough for me so out of frustration his lamp shade snaps in half. I need to meditate or he's going to feel my wrath. Too much is happening for me to comprehend. "I'm going to ask you one last time. Why exactly do you want to find Tesla?"
He approaches me and his face is 4 inches away from mine. I can smell his musky scent and read every line in his matured face. "He has the cure that will turn me human again."
A/N: Duh Duh DUH! Crazy ridiculous right? Beast Boy wants a cure? WHAT? Hahaha. Anyways, not much happened in this chapter but the next one will be full of adventure and romance-ish stuff. PROMISE! Thank you for reading this, I love you all! Yes even you.
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Next Chapter: Starfire says goodbye in a teary way and her arrival on Tamaran is not what she expected. Robin makes plans on leaving the Tower. AND Raven criticizes Beast Boy in the worst way that leaves him emotionally unstable. Stay with me to find out!
