CHAPTER THREE: YOU

JACOB`S POV

Crying. Soft crying.

But it was interrupted by the annoying machine that had woke me up. Beep…. Beep….Beep- every goddamned second.

Without open my eyes, instinctively, I reached over on my side and swatted at it. there was a movement and I felt cool hands on my hands.

"Don't, Jacob." Edward.

"Edward." I sighed, not ready to open my eyes yet. But what was he doing here?

"What do you mean?" Edward asked.

"Aren`t I dead? Why are you in my afterlife?" Had I not suffered enough with him while I was alive? Did he have to be here with me, too?

Edward laughed, "You`re not dead, dog."

It took a while for this to process. "I`m. Not. Dead?"

"No- We-"

"Is he awake!?" Bella shrieked as she entered the bedroom. I opened my eyes then.

"Bella, dear-"

"Don't!" Bella shouted, "Jacob Black! Why in God`s name would you try to kill yourself!"

I was a little taken aback by her shouting at me, she looked very, very angry.

"Do you have any idea-!"

"Sweetheart- why don't you go outside with…" Edward broke off for some reason, then he whispered something to Bella that I had no intention to hear.

Bella growled again, turning to look at me, but ghosted out of the room.

"Where am I, then, if I`m not dead." I asked after a while.

"Your in Carlisle`s office, Jacob." Edward told me.

"Oh- why?"

"Well, would you have rathered I take you to the hospital?" Edward asked, slight sarcasm playing in his voice.

"The hospital? What happened?" I asked, suddenly panicking.

"Well, after you sorry attempt to kill yourself, Renesmee managed to pull you out of the water, you jumped just as she found you, and-" Edward broke off, "Damn it." He muttered, under his breath.

But it was to late, "Renesmee?" I whispered, "Renesmee- pulled me out of the water? I- she`s here!?" I shouted.

"Jacob, I really think you should-"
"Don't! don't fucking tell me what to do! Renesmee`s here and you didn't tell me!" I shouted, suddenly angry at him, I flew up from the bed, realizing I was wearing cut-offs.

"Jacob-"

"No!" Came the little voice from outside, "No! let me inside! Let me go!"

My ears perked up.

Edwards crouched down and prepared to hold me back if I bolted out the door.

"Emmet! I could use a little help!" Edward called. Emmett came running into the room, and he crouched down too. I realized I was shaking now.

"Let. Me. Out." I growled.

"Jacob, theres a few things we have to tell you first-"
"Please! Please let me go! I have to see him!" Renesmee`s voice from outside begged. I could hear Bella and Carlisle talking to her, but I couldn't understand what they were saying.

"You can tell me after." I hissed, "I need to see her. Now."

"Jacob-"

The door flung open, interrupting him.

And there she was.

She was wearing jeans and a pale yellow T-shirt with a fading stain on it, her beautiful bronze hair was in a mess, and there was a faint scratch mark across her left cheek- but she looked like a goddess.

Her eyes met mine, and the entire house seemed to have fallen silent. All of the Cullen`s and Seth were crowded into Carlisle office.

Slowly, out of the corner of my eye, I saw Edward and Emmett back away from us, their positions relaxing.

Bella appeared from one end of the room to the next and by Edward`s side in less than a second, and they were all watching us.

Waiting for one of us to talk, move, or breathe again.

But I was frozen. I felt the gigantic hole that had been stabbed in my chest that first day when she had gone missing slowly dissapair- as I starred at her.

She had changed…. A lot. But I had expected that. She was almost 8 years old now. She was physically 18- and she would be for the rest of her existence. She was beautiful.

She had filled out a lot. Her body had new curves that I was dying to get my hands on, (there was a slight growl from Edward as I sought out myself) But there would be a time for that- right now, I just needed to make sure that this wasn't a dream. That it was real and not some sick, twisted joke my mind was playing on me.

She spoke first.

"Ja-Jacob?" She whispered.

I couldn't find my voice, so I just nodded.

She gasped and broke out in tears, and then, so quick I couldn't see her, she was in my arms, hers flung around my neck. I wrapped my arm around her and hugged her tightly, pulling her body to mine.

I don't know how long we stayed like that for- just standing in the middle of the room with our arms wrapped around each other.

"I love you." She whispered in my ear, "I missed you so much and I`m sorry, I love you, Jacob- please, please forgive me for leaving you."

I pulled away from her then, looking into her eyes. I knew I was going to tell her she had nothing to be sorry for- but I said something else instead.

"Are your eyes… black?"

She bit her bottom lip and looked at me, nodding, "Yeah." She whispered softly. She looked over to Edward.

"Why don't we go back to the cottage?" Edward asked, "I think we all need to talk."

I didn't let go of Nessie, I kept my arm wrapped around her waist tightly as we walked to the cottage, following Edward and Bella. The walk was silent, but we didn't need a conversation right now. Not yet at least.

Bella opened the door and we all walked inside, walking over to the living room. Me and Ness sat on the one of the chairs.

"The volturi took her." Edward said, answering the question I had been asking in my mind since we left the big house.

I starred at him, "But- we checked there, she wasn't."

"They didn't carry her there right away, they-"

"Daddy. It`s my story. Shouldn't I be the one to tell it?" Renesmee asked.

Edward nodded, "Go ahead, sweetheart."

"They took me the night after me and Jake went to the bonfire in La Push- I was asleep, and I didn't wake up until I heard them talking. I was blindfolded, so I couldn't see anything. I kept quiet- I was scared and I didn't want them to know I had woken up.

They were talking about me, saying something about my gift, and mom and dad. Aro came in and talked to me- he said that I was going to be happy with them, that I would like it in Italy. He told me I could be a part of the Volturi- that I could be royalty, have everyone respect me and look up to me.

He never told me why exactly he took me, not even after the 4 years I stayed with them. He just told me that he wanted me.

We stayed somewhere for a few weeks, I guess Aro knew the first place you guys would check was in Volterra. I don't know where we stayed, they never let me outside. Then he told me we were leaving.

When we got to Volttera, me, Aro, Cauis and Marcus were the ones who took me, everyone else was waiting on us.

I tried to escape, the first few months I was there, they were torture. I refused to 'feed' as they called it- they only gave me the option of human blood, and I didn't want to, I grew weak, I couldn't move.

Then- Alec brought me food, actual food. It was the first time anyone had been nice to me since I got there- or atleast the first time I allowed anyone to be nice to me.

He kept on sneaking food past the gaurds, bringing it up to me until I regained my strength.

He told me that Aro wasn't planning on getting rid of me anytime soon- and that I was under to much security to manage any escape from them. He said I might as well enjoy my time there.

He convinced me, made me see that they werent really that bad. I could tell why Grandpa Carlisle and Aro were friends once- He really is amazing. He was one of the few that warmed up to me earliest.

They tried to get me to drink Human Blood- and I kept refusing. Until…

I hated myself for It- I never forgave myself, but it was too good, to amazing- I couldn't stop. Everytime they brought in- I was always the first one there. I was a monster. All of the people I killed."

"You didn't do anything wrong, Ness." I whispered, seeing the tears prodding at her eyes. She nodded through them.

"How did you escape, then?" Bella asked, softly.

Ness sniffed, "I gained their trust." She whispered, "They started leaving me alone- I started having privacy, and the second I realized it, I locked myself in my room and got to my computer, I bought my ticket online using momma`s credit card number- it was the only one I remembered, and I got my flight scheduled for as soon as possible.

I was on my best behavior after that- as soon as I realized I was getting a chance to leave. I knew I wasn't going to be able to stand it If I messed it up. Then- after Alec told me goodnight, I jumped out my bedroom window and ran."

"And what about in the woods? Seth said he saw you?" Bella asked.

"He did. They had delayed our flight, so I decided to run to Washington- I couldn't wait that long to see you guys again. Then when I was in the woods I smelt a deer. I knew I was thirsty- I had been 'fasting' ever since I bought my ticket- and I was not going to kill someone. So I attacked it. then when I was finished I looked up and I saw some-one, some-thing, looking at me through the trees.

I thought it was one of them. Thought that they had found me again, so I ran. Only after did I realize that it might have been one of you guys'. But by the time I went back- Seth was gone. I followed his scent, straight back to Washington. And I heard something while I was there- And then I caught Jake`s scent. I followed it- and…. And I saw him- I screamed after him, but I guess he didn't hear me. So I jumped in after him. I could hold my breath longer than he can, and I had gotten back some of my strength since I hunted."

"Oh my god- my poor baby!" Bella cooed, rushing over to her an pulling Ness in for a hug, "We missed you so much."

"I missed you, too, momma." Ness whispered.

Then she turned to me, "And you! Don't think I forgot! Why would you try to kill yourself! Even if I was gone- I was terrified! How did you expect me to live with myself when I came back and found out you had commit suicide because you thought I was dead! Do not ever do that to me again, Jacob Black!"

And she sounded so much like the Ness I loved, that I started laughing.

It wasn't a mocking sound, and I wasn't forcing it- I was actually laughing. It had been so long since I had last smiled.

I had my Renesmee back- and no-one, was going to take her away from me again.

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