This is just a quick little insight on what is going on in both Jake and Nessie`s mind right now, not really much of a chapter, but the next one will be longer and better- I promise. anyway- hope you guys enjoy.
CHAPTER FIVE: Different
*JACOB*
I was angry.
I didn't know who I was angry at.
But I knew I was angry.
I was angry at those disgusting bloodsuckers…. The Volturi- for taking Ness away from me for 4 years.
I was angry at Carlisle for saying we shouldn't go after them.
I was angry with myself for actually listening to him.
They deserved to be dead.
It was four fucking years.
Did they really expect to get away with it?
Did Carlisle and the rest of the Cullen`s really not want to tear them limb from limb and the burn the pieces. Then dance over the ashes?
Two days after Ness had come back home- the Cullen`s house was nowhere near settled. Everyone seemed to be still thinking it was all a dream, and everyone was still bustling around making sure nothing had changed and that Ness felt as at home as ever.
Esme had been cooking for me and Ness non stop. She had horrified at how much weight the both of us had lost over the few years, and ever since then had made it her duty to ensure we both had something to eat in front of us, no matter what or when we wanted.
As for mine and Nessie`s relationship…. We were still working on it.
There were still a lot of un-answered quistions, those of which none of us wanted to know the answer to. And I had been dreading whenever that conversation would pop up- and had been doing my best to avoid it.
Things had grown unbeilavbly awkward between the both of us- and until one of us figured out exactly where our relationship stood- it was going to remain that way.
For the most part- the way I saw it- she was unbelievably beautiful, older, more mature in her looks, thinking and talking. She was smart, funny, charismatic and kind to everyone.
I couldn't tell how many times I wanted to kiss her, how many times I wanted to press her up against the wall and ravage her body till she passed out- and she had only been home for two days.
That was probably the only reason I held back.
I would have time for that. She would be here for the rest of forever, and soon enough all this bullshit about her and the Volturi wouldn't even be remembered- and then I would do all those things I think about in my daydreams, then I would tell her how much I love her and how much I want her to be mine.
But she just got back home… I wanted to give her a while to get used to that first. Right now, everything was fine.
*RENESMEE*
Everything was not fine.
Me and Jake seemed to be growing apart more and more each and every day. I know I had not even been here for not even 72 hours yet- but I had been expecting more than this.
I had been expecting to us have at least kissed by now.
But I guess he didn't feel the same about me that I did about him.
Maybe it was all in my head- maybe I had imagined that day when Aro told me about the imprinting, and it was probally my crazy dream-filled mind that had made me want him so much. I was so stupid to think that some-one like Jacob could care about me in that way. He`s so… him. Handsome, funny, sweet- and I`m just me…. Plain old me.
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