I looked over to her in shock. Did you really just say that? Why is HE in your head? All different types of 'whys' were running throughout my thoughts.

"What the hell, man?" she barked and pushing her hands flat on my chest. She keep screaming at me for saying someone else name, none the less a guys.

"Babe! Babe!" I howled at her as she keep screaming. " One, you told me to go talk with the dweeb, and he told me some stuff that was pretty rough. Two, stop fucking yelling at me, before I get even more mad." I added growled towards her, she keep staring at me with her eyes that were filed with to the rim with sorrow.

"I-I'm sorry..."She said looking away from my raging eyes. "I have to leave." She sighed getting up towards the door.

"Come on don't be like that. I didn't mean it." I grabbed her softly by the arm and pulled her closer to me, when she turned to me all I could see was tears falling off of her eyes, my grip lessen from this was the first time ever seeing my best friend let alone girlfriend, cry. Because of me.

"Later, Kevin."

With that, she was gone. Leaving me alone with nothing else then my own mind. Again, you are the master of words. I slide down to the ground, with my hands wrapped in a fist.

"Why the hell! Do I fuck up so much!" I yelled to myself, punching at the ground. Tingles went through my arm and down my spine. I grabbed tight on the hand that I used to punch with, my knuckles were starting to bleed slightly. I throw my red cap that laid on my head at the door she had walked out of. "Damn it!" I growled getting onto my feet.

I walked down to the kitchen and grabbed a soda and chugged half of it, then refilled it with rum. "they won't notice... They have enough of this shit to last them a year.'' I sighed softly placing the cap back on the bottle of rum.

Half an hour later the bottle was half empty again, I was staring at my computer screen trying to forget about the events that I caused just in one fucking day. After a few videos on Youtube of just random stuff Nat -one of his best friends- told him to look up, half of them were some kind of porn, there was a 'bing!' noise coming from one of the tabs that were open. I looked through it and found it came from a chat room.

"'NazzyGirl' : I want to break up." The Namecode belonged to Nazz, I couldn't blame her for wanting to do such. I replied to her say I was really sorry and I know why she is doing it. I could just see her now, her sitting at her desk, crying her eyes out.

I let my head fall on my table, not care about the pain. "Why do I have to be such a dick?" I asked myself staring at the bottle before me. I let out a sighing laugh to myself imaging how the Dweeb would be so mad that I was drink this stuff. ' We are not of age Kevin!' I filled in the words from past memories. ' You are just going to end up killing yourself from liver failure.' He would rant on and on. I closed my eyes letting my mind think of him, how red his face get when he get all fussy, how those lips pucker out as if to tease me to take them with my own. Then a face claimed my thoughts, and only him, My Double D.

"Cool it couch, he ain't ours yet... Yet being the keyword." I cooed to myself starting to think to far ahead of my self.

But it was already to late, without my control my brain had made a clear set of the dork and I, having a sloppy make out, hand gliding over each other as if we lost the touch we would lose each other. A low groan roared in my throat from the unwanted -for the moment- thoughts filling my senses.

I stood up from my desk, with a slam of my laptop shut. "To fucking much for one day" I growled to myself. I looked down to my feet, but to see something was blocking my view. My body had reacted to the thoughts so much, that I didn't even notice how much it had taking effect on myself. "Oh come on!" I huffed out letting my head hang back, letting my cap fall to the ground. " It wasn't even that much!" I added as I entered into my bed face first. Once I hit my pillow I let out a loud and long whimper, as I just had a mental freak out, on how much just one person can do this to me.

"I gotta do something!" I claimed sitting up, determined to do something beside just sit and think. I ponder on my things to do list. Usually I would be hanging out with Nazz, but that highly out of the question. Homework... I could but that would mean getting up and making my brain hurt from to much math or whatever work I have to do.

"Wait, homework" I grinned with a different intention in mind. I pulled out my cell phone from my back pocket, and started dialing a number and putting it up to my ear. It had taking longer then I thought it would be, but at long last.

'Eddward Vincent speaking.' Ringed into my ears.

Hello, my beauties. I know it is rather short, but I had been postponing on this chapter. Due from family events, illness, and just not having anytime. But I swear on my heart the next chapter will be longs.

So tell me what your thoughts are, should I keep writing or just stop. Please be kind and review kindly.

Love all of your faces.