Why me?

Author: thanx for readin'

Before:

"It may seem that way but everything I do is for you." Deacon moved to the bathroom door and opened it. She followed him out into her room. Deacon went to the window and was climbing out. He held out a hand to her. In his eyes he, for the first time ever, had love and concern in his eyes. His cold blooded heart wasn't completely empty. "Goodbye my love. I love you."

Kilanath crossed her arms and looked away. When she looked back his hand was at his side and he looked actually hurt, someone, her, had actually emotionally stabbed him in what little bit of heart he had. Deacon hopped out the window and it closed silent as a grave. Kilanath opened it and peered out, no one, nothing. Kilanath closed her window and walked to her door to go downstairs. She opened the door and had to look up to see what or really who was standing there. Blade.

"You want something big boy?" she asked, slightly agitated by his perfect timing. Blade smiled.

"What?"

"You got a problem Blade? I'm not the best with big softies and their problems" She said. Her ribs were hurting again.

"I just wanted to say thank you for fixing that thing"

"What thing?!"

"The communicator thingy." Kilanath looked up in thought.

"Oh yeah. No problem. Anything else?"

"Whatever. I've got work tonight"

"And you are telling me this why?"

"Well. Whatever. Don't mess with my shit while I'm gone"

"Fine!" The anger roared in her mind. What an ass!

"Fine" And then he stomped down the stairs and flung himself over the railing. His long coat flailing like always. Kilanath slammed her door. Her ribs were throbbing now and it felt like something heavy was weighing down her chest. She stumbled to the bed and laid down on her back. It was hard to breath. Kilanath closed her eyes and tried to catch her breath but it wasn't working. The room was starting to go black and she desperately tried to speak.

"Whistler" It came out in a breathless whisper. She punched herself in the side and screamed: "WHISTLER!!!!" She coughed and something metallicy and warm bubbled up her throat. She recognized it. Blood. The world became a soundless, shadowed place. Whistler came into the room. The last thing she saw was something shiny and the image of Deacon with a big smile on his face.

Whispering voices seemed like people screaming inside her head and Kilanath's body felt as though it was weighed down. She looked around and well she wasn't weighed down but she was tied down, tied down to a medical bench thing. Whistler came into view with a smile.

"One minute you're fine and dandy and the next you're coughin' up blood and screamin' like a banshee" He laughed.

"Not funny Whistler. Can i have some water?" She asked. Whistler shuffled off to the kitchen. Blade moved closer.

"So.." Blade said. He undid the straps. Then he leaned up against the bench with his big arms crossed over his chest.

"So what? I'm blaming you" Whistler came back with a bottled water and Kilanath chugged down half of it.

"What!?" Blade said with a smile.

"You got me in a mess when you were yellin' at me. And I'm blaming you" She smiled like the devil himself.

"She's got a point Blade. With the condition shes in stress can make it worse. I think we might need some meds for her."

"Meds" Kilanath almost laughed.

(Kilanath's POV)

Medication equals serious damage. I couldn't face it all. I took a moment to try and comprehend all of it at once but a voice in my mind kept yelling 'run'. I hadn't realized that the whole time I was thinking, Blade and Whistler had been staring at me. That's when I noticed I had my hands clenched tight and hot tears in my demonicly angry looking eyes. I ran upstairs and changed. I grabbed my bag with some shit in it and my wallet full of cash. Then I went right back out and down the stairs. Blade was standing at the bottom and I pushed him out of my way. My bike was in the side garage so thats where I went next. I put on my helmet with shaky hands, I could feel the anger building energy in me. Keys in the ignition and I was off. With my helmet on my world was a reddish hue which I had taken a liking to since I had had it. I could see Blade yelling or something but i couldn't hear him with my helmet on. That made me smile.

Since I was technically running from all of my problems I decided to go to a familiar place. Taven's. Taven's was a great place for people to hang out and stuff. There is a bar and pretty much a club with couches in the corners. It's nice. The place was just outside of the city which meant that it was just down the road from Blade's place. That was the bad part. But either way it was a great place for me to see my friends and stuff. I pulled up in back and parked in my usual spot next to the back door. And as I took off my helmet I noticed two guys standing against the building. One was my height, 5'5 and really hot. His name was Drew. He and I had been friends forever even though he was 5 years older than me. I guess that meant he was 25 now. Damn. But he didnt look any different than the last time I had seen him which was only a few weeks ago. He was a little darker than myself which he joked about, he usually called me albino. Anyways he was columbian and he would have been super hot with his facial hair grown a bit but instead he shaved everyday and his face was as smooth as a baby's bottom. He had dark brown eyes and dark hair which he called "skater long" cause he was a skateboarder, snowboarder, you name it. Then there was his figure. He was perfect and ever since I had seen him naked I had called him my adonis and my kitten cause he reminded me of a kitten. He was adorable, cute, hot, sexy, and lovable and fuckable. He was everything. When I saw his eyes catch the sight of me I smiled and I admit I also blushed. He was good at that. We were close friends.

I walked up to him and I held out my arms to him. We hugged and like always I held on longer then he wanted to but this was a reunion hug so thats okay. I took in his scent and his aura. He always smelled good, it was just a natural thing, that and he liked to wear Georgio Armani. The best of the best if you ask me. Next to him was Taven himself. The bar owner. Back in the good days Taven and Drew and I would sit out back with drinks and the occasional smoke. I didn't smoke ever but Drew and Taven would have one if they were drinking and somene else was smoking. I had had a cigarette once in my life. I hated it and never wanted it again. I used to have a boyfriend who smoked, when I kissed him one night right after he had smoked, I puked in my mouth. That was the end of him. Yeah, Drew and I detached ourselves from each other and smiled at each other. I had missed those caring and beautiful eyes of his. I used to say they were like the night but he shot me down with his words " That romantic stuff was stupid" from then on I kept those things to myself. I hugged Taven too then went straight back to Drew.

"Damn it has been so long" I could feel tears in my eyes. No crying I told myself and poof they were gone.

"Yeah you stopped talking to me"

Taven handed me a cellphone. It was mine. I had lost it once upon a time. Like right after I had gotten seperated from Drew. I smiled.

"Ha thanks Taven. So drinks anyone?" They both nodded. Each one took one of my arms and in we went. We had a private room for us in the back of the club. I loved the room but in there were two glass cases in both of which were two dancers. Both were blondes and both were dancing happily. Taven dismissed them and a few minutes later they were serving us food. Taven always gave us food. We always had burgers and fries. This time it was of course burgers and fries and coke. I chowed down and Drew did too. Taven was my weird friend. He was a special kind of breed and well he never needed to eat. Taven smiled and Drew and I smiled too. We immediately started chattering. We caught up all the way until I had shown up. Nothing had really changed except me moving in with Blade. Drew seemed upset.

"Kiki you are always getting hurt and getting into trouble"

"I know." What else could i say?

"Taven how about those drinks" We both said, Drew and I.

"Yes of course what would you like?"

"The usual" Drew said.

"How about the usual, a vodka coke, five shots of jag, and.." Taven cut me off.

"And a partridge in a pear tree. You will have the first and the third but you are banned from vodka cokes my dear Kiki. You get drunk too easily."

"Thanks for the concern Taven but this is one of those nights" At this his face twisted in anger. He jumped out of his seat lightning fast and snatched my arm. He pushed all the bracelets out of the way and checked my wrists. Nothing. I stopped cutting but he never stopped believing I still did. Drew looked mad. I looked at him and winked. I think he finally caught on. Taven smiled.

"Well thats good." Taven disappeared out the door to get the drinks.

"So Kiki how are you?" Drew asked.

" I've been better" I said.

"Yes thats what you always say but we have an oath and you have a promise to Jayme". That name hurt. My heart felt broken and it was. It had been broken many times but now it hurt. It hurt like hell.

"I.. I know Kitten" I whispered.

"Kiki are you okay?" He asked.

"Yeah I just miss her a lot" Drew hugged me then and I knew he meant it. Usually it was a hug with him groping or something. This time no groping, this time a real hug.

"I miss her too Kiki its okay" He smoothed my hair and we pulled apart.

"How touching. Take your drinks" Taven said. I laughed and took three of the five shots, two were for the guys and I took my bacardi limon with pepsi. I liked mine strong. We all had seconds and thirds. The drinks disappearing as we talked the night away. I was drunk, Drew was drunk and horny as always and Taven was laughing like a lunatic. Drew and I went outside, he was more sober than me.

"Kiki lets go somewhere"

"My place?" I replyed with a smile. I almost stumbled.

"Sure."

"Alright here." I handed him my helmet.

"Nope I'm driving you are in no condition to drive" I laughed and just nodded. We got onto my croch rocket and I told him the directions.

As the moon was descending we arrived. It was maybe 1 or 2 in the morning. I snuck him into my room.

"Nice place" He said.

"Hey don't make fun, its free and fun"

"That makes sense"

"I'm drunk I never make sense."

I took off my jacket and my shirt and my pants. I stripped. I wasnt afraid to in front of him. He had already seen so who cared.

"Damn kiki you are still hot"

"Thanks" I said. "I need a shower. Wanna join me?" We had taken showers together before. He ripped his clothes off and practically ran into the bathroom after me. I guess that was a yes.