Why me?

Previously:

"Stay here and don't move." I went out and down the stairs. I had closed the door behind me. I went down to the main door and opened it. There standing with a black rose was not who I had expected.

In a way I had expected it but not like this. It was Taven. He knew I loved black roses and well it was like the key to the heart I once had. But what bothered me in my gut about this was how did Taven know where I was?

"Hello Taven" I said calmly.

"My my Kiki. You answering the door like this excites me but please it is not lady-like" He smiled.

"Well yeah. I was kinda caught off guard" I smiled. He handed me the rose. It smelled like Georgio Armani, amazing cologne that I loved on guys.

We went straight to the kitchen and sat down. I laid the rose on the table next to my gun.

"So what brings you here Taven? I don't remember giving you my address" I leaned back in my chair.

"Kiki. I always know where you are." He roared with laughter "But I must tell you that though Ive managed to outrun Deacon I still keep an eye on him"

"And?" I asked.

"He's a liar for one that or he cant count. He said three days and its been two and he is still not ready"

"Ready for what?"

"Oh yes Mr. I am God is trying to do something stupid. He is trying to find a way to become all mighty powerful leader of the vampires and his little test subjects are just the beginning".

"Tests?"

"Yes he is trying to make a new breed of vampire after he is successful he will combine it with his DNA and make himself a hybrid"

"Shit"

"Damn straight Kiki"

"And what are we supposed to do about it?"

"He wants you...in such a way that I do not understand. He needs you I guess you could say"

"I don't know Taven he's confused the hell out of me since I ran off last"

"Kiki I thought you were done letting him use you"

"Hey I was trying to get my revenge"

"And yet you do not have it yet and all you've achieved is more pain and suffering" That pissed me off. I slammed my fist hard on the table. Taven didnt even flinch.

"I WILL ALWAYS SUFFER AND THERE WILL ALWAYS BE PAIN! BUT I'LL DO WHAT IT TAKES TO GET MY REVENGE!"

"And what about Jayme?" He asked. That name again. My chest ached and I felt tears.

"I don't know Taven. I want to see her so bad. I'd give anything to see her again, I want to feel her arms around me again and hear her voice. I just.." I looked towards the window.

"Just what Kiki?" Taven stood up and put his arms around me. I struggled but he didnt let go, I gave up and let him hold me. I just didn't want him to see me cry. You know Kiki who used to be hard as a rock until I lost..her.

"I just can't take it anymore. I just wanna die" I felt it then, felt my body turn cold and my heart sank lower into my pit of a soul.

Taven grabbed my shoulders hard and turned me around towards the stairs. Drew was coming down the stairs. He leaned his head against mine and whispered to me.

"You wanna tell him that" He said seething with what I thought was anger. "You said you would give anything to see Jayme again. Would you give up your war of revenge?" How would I answer that. See my friend or avenge the death of another. Yes I had lost one of my friends.

It was before I'd met Deacon and his goons. Before everything. I used to be happy. I had a rough life but I still was happy. I was in school. Life was decent. One day while I was at school we had a lock down. Apparently someone had shown up with a gun and we had to stay in our rooms. I was totally zoned out and I thought it was just a drill. But when the cold steel end of a gun was pressed to my forehead I became a believer. The cops got there and disarmed him but the mark was left on me already. This guy was one of Deacon's men. Later that night I was supposed to meet Annika at my place. She had my spare key. When I got there the house was dark and almost empty. I went to the living room and found Deacon cradling her in his arms. He smiled at me and she was crying. Between the sobs were cries barely audible asking for him not to kill her. He did kill her, and then he kidnapped me. That was the night my life changed. Everything I had worked so hard for was smashed into bits.

"Kiki?" Drew asked. Drew was standing by me now and Taven was in his chair again. I threw myself on him crying.

"I want to see her again! I miss her so much it hurts!" He held me then and i let myself cry.

I let the anger and sorrow and pain leak away through my tears. He was probably sick of me doing this, I was too. I was sick of myself getting like this. Now was the time to change it all. Revenge or not. This is my life and my game. My rules apply and with the rules come the consequences for breaking them. Deacon had taken a life and twisted another. His penalty was death.