All I Know

by BelowAverage

(Done)It's Castiel's first day at his new school and he's nervous as hell. With nothing but bad scenarios running through his head, the last thing he expected was to be run into by some enchanting boy with mesmerizing green eyes that takes him on a roller coaster of emotions. He realizes too late that Dean's mixed signals and his crazy too big family are the least of his worries.

13. Chapter Twelve: At A Loss

{Word Count: 539}

Michael and Cas sat in the car in silence for a moment. Without warning, Michael slammed his hands on the steering and shouted, "god damn it, Cas!" Cas jumped a little, but didn't look at Michael. Michael started up the car and drove away from the school. "What is wrong with you lately?" He questioned. Cas didn't answer. "Getting into fights, sneaking out to go to parties, getting drunk? That's not you, Cas." Cas played with his hands. "You told me we're supposed to fight for the people we love," Cas reminded him of the conversation they had had after Michael's most recent ex had broken up with him and he was insistent on trying to get her back. "I didn't mean literal-wait, love? You think you love Dean?" Michael asked incredulously. Cas suddenly felt stupid for saying anything. "Yes, Michael, I do." Michael scoffed. "Castiel, you don't know what love is. You can't be willing to throw yourself in the way of danger for anyone that shows you slightest bit of kindness. You need to stop being so naive."

By now they were at home and Cas was out of the car. He was hurt by his brother's words. "What makes you think you know love any better than I do?" Cas challenged him as they walked up to the door. He surprised himself by standing up for himself for one and it made him feel pretty good. Michael shook his head as he unlocked it and pushed it open. "I can't talk to you right now, Cas. Honestly, I'm at a loss for words with you. I'm calling Gabriel, you're going to have to stay with him for a few days." He walked away. Cas stood there distraught. His own brother didn't want him living with him anymore and it was all his fault.

Cas peeked his head into Michael's home office. Michael was sitting on his chair with his head buried in his hands and his elbows propping him up on his desk. "Michael," he said softly. There was no answer. "Michael, how will I get to school if I stay with Gabriel?" He asked. Gabriel lived a half-hour away and out of the school district's reach. "I almost lost my job today, Cas," Michael told him as he turned around to look at him, "because I had to leave early because my little brother sucker punched some kid in the face and almost broke his nose." Cas felt his stomach drop to his feet.

"This place is our last chance. If I get fired and we have to move you guys are going to have to live with Raphael and Naomi. I'm almost at the point of just letting it happen because it doesn't seem like you care if you get taken away from me." Cas was on the verge of tears and suddenly he hated himself. He hated himself for putting Michael in this position and causing him nothing but trouble. If anyone was the terrible brother here it wasn't Dean, it was Cas. "Michael-" Cas tried but Michael put up his hand to stop him. "Just leave, Cas. Gabe is on his way to pick you up." Cas nodded and left to pack.