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I was sitting with my friends at lunch. Then all the teachers just started to make us go to class. Lunch had just started. Then I'm in an english classroom.

"What the hell?" Nic asked looking around noticing we were the only ones in the room.

"The school's on lock down." Mr. Carlson said.

"What for?" Frank groaned.
"Shooting. Degrassi." Mr. Carlson told us.

"So some spoiled kids get shot and we have to miss a killer party?" Nic whined.

"Afraid so. Grab a chair boys we'll be here awhile." Mr. Carlson told us.

"Who has the gun? Is anybody hurt? Do you know anything?" I asked really fast.

"Easy there Dimarco!" Mr. Carlson said. "No one knows anything right now."

Nic glanced at me but didn't say anything. I just started tapping a desk.

"Damn it! Stop that tapping Dimarco!" Mr. Carlson yelled after a few seconds.

"He just wants to know if his Emma is okay." Frank teased.

"You can't get Emma, Dimarco. None of you can get a Degrassi girl. None of you can get a girl with a brain." Mr. Carlson informed us.

"I'm dating Mia." Nic protested.

"Like I said none of you can get a girl with a brain." Mr. Carlson told us.

"I kissed her." I blurted out.

"Recently?" Mr. Carlson asked. I shook my head.

"There's a reason for that Dimarco." Mr. Carlson said.

"Her reason sucks." I said. Everyone just laughed at me.

A few hours later that's right hours we left. Nic made sure to tell everyone this was Degrassi's fault. I hung out at the ravine where I turned down all alcohol and drugs. Being Johnathon Dimarco that's big. It was night outside and I just started walking. Emma...Emma ...Emma...please Em...be okay. I thought over and over. Then I was walking on a bridge.
I looked over at the water.

"Emma, please be okay I love you!" I shouted.

"Dad!" I yelled. "I hope you hear me you son of a bitch. I hate you! I fucking hate you and everything that has to do with you! I hope you fucking die! You hear me die! Die just die bitch die! How could you leave me I'm your son! Your damn son! You just left me and I hope you can't sleep. I hope you have nightmares like me! I want you to be six feet fucking under! You hear me I hope you die! How could you?!!!! I'm never gonna be like you! Never! Why did you leave? I love you Dad! Why?"

I had starting crying at 'I hate you'. Now I couldn't see. I did love my dad and he just left me. How could he? How can anyone? Everyone talks shit about Eminem but he stayed with his kid. I wiped my tears and I knew I needed to see if Emma was okay.

When I was walking to her house I saw her walking. She was crying a little bit.

"Emma?" I asked.

"I don't know you!" she said but she was crying harder and then she hugged me.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"No! I'll never be okay. He...he pointed the gun right at me..." She said.

"Oh Emma." I said holding her. I swear it was a hallmark movie. Then she just pushed me away.

"I can't...not you. I'm sorry." she started to walk around me.

"Why?" I asked.

"You hurt me..."

"That little lie? It was about what school I went to! That shouldn't matter! All that should matter is if you like me! It's not that fucking hard Emma!" I told her.

"John," she said slowly. "I don't like you. I hate you. You shouldn't have brought all this up now-"

"Emma-" I cut her off but she cut me off in a second.

"No I almost died today! Rick did die and my ex Sean Cameron saved my life! He stepped in front of a gun for me. YOu would never do that." she told me.

"Emma I would." I said.

"No John. You're lying to me again. At the worst time. Like I said before I don't know you. Goodbye John."

I watched her leave and at the school she was hugging...Toby. Was she hugging him to make me bad or to comfort him. I watched the people look at the steps of Degrassi. I knew that I was crying a little bit but I know she was crying too. I never ever thought that all this would lead to her in the ravine.