AN: Hey, guys, sorry for the the delay but here it is chapter 6. It's a shorter one and you' get to see a little more of Arizona's friend Clara. I hope you ike it.
Arizona's POV:
"I am so going to kill you!" I tell Clara as I storm into her apartment.
"Excuse me?" She asks not understanding why I am yelling at her.
About half hour ago I was at the dance club drooling over Callie. The way she was dancing, the way she looked hot as her body followed the beat made funny things happen to my body. It was so mesmerizing that I didn't see Mark approaching me and was caught looking at her. When his words met my years, all the heat that was dominating my body dissipated as if someone had thrown a pail of cold water on me. My heart froze. Damnit! He wasn't supposed to see me staring at her, nobody was supposed to see that.
But I guess I wasn't as smooth as I thought...
The first thing that came to my mind was to find another bar and drown myself in alcohol because I was ashamed of the awkward situation, but also the nervousness in my body told me to find someone to yell at. And who is better than the person who convinced me to go to that place at first place? So before I knew it, I was heading towards Clara's place.
"I am going to kill you!" I tell her again in exasperation.
"May I know why I'm going to get killed?" She asked with a playful tone. I am not in the mood for playful tone.
"You made me go out tonight." I say as if it was the most obvious thing. "I didn't want to go out but you were all like 'You need to go out', 'you need to have some fun', 'you have so many things on your head', 'find someone to spend the night with just for fun' and I listened to you!"
"Okay, you are freaking out so you're picking up a fight."
"Of course I am freaking out!" I yell thorwing my hands in the air. "Why shouldn't I be freaking out?"
"I can't help you if you don't tell me what happened?" She says taking a seat on her couch.
"She was there. Callie. She was there." I start, pacing back and forth in the room. "And she asked me to join her and Mark and I did. We drank, we talked, we were having a really good time until..."
"Until what?"
"Jackson appeared out of nowhere and when I realized she was dragging him to the dance floor and they started dancing and-"
"Wait?!" She stopped me. "Are they together? Really? She lied to you?"
"Yes... I mean, no. No, they're not a thing, it's just a gossip... b-but that's not the point!"
"What's the point them?"
"Callie. She is the point." I get lost in my memories for a second before I continue. "Watching her dance, move her hips along with the song... it gave me some weird feelings. Good weird feelings." I say with emphasis. "I wanted to but I couldn't take my eyes out of her. I tried but I couldn't." I say with a calmer tone now, images of Callie dancing in my head.
"How can that be a bad thing? I already know you had some sort of a big crush on her. You told me that."
"Mark. He saw me staring at her. He even offered me a napkin!"
"So?" She asked as if it wasn't a big deal.
"So?" I repeat not really believing she couldn't see the problem here. "He wasn't supposed to see me staring at her! No one was supposed to."
"Ah," She said finally getting the point. About time! "maybe he was just playing with you, Z. Maybe he just wanted to mess with you."
"Well, he did." I say. "And no, he wasn't playing, I saw this smirk on his face. He wasn't joking at all."
"Well if he wasn't joking, it's none of his business."
"It's not, but he is going to tell her. I'm sure he will tell her and it will freak her out. It will make me lose any kind of friendship we have right now."
"That's bull, she won't be freaked out, she is a grown woman, if she is as hot as you claim she is, she's been stared by other women before."
"But I am her assistent, I am not supposed to stare. Though it's really difficult when she is wearing those skirts she wears for work... God, those should be illegal!"
The only thing I hear is Clara's laugh.
"Stop laughing, this is not funny." I say giving her a punch in the arm.
"Ow!" She yelps. "That hurt."
"You deserved that." I look into my friend's eyes for a moment and ask her, "what am I going to do? I'm lost."
"Well, if you're so sure he is going to tell her, why don't you tell her about your feelings once for all?"
"What? I can't do that. She is straight, Clara. It would for certain freak her out. I might even lose my job."
"Of course not, she doesn't seem to be that kind of person by the things you tell me about her."
"I know, but I can't do that. I just can't."
"Then, what are you going to do? Quit your job to stay away from temptation?"
"That wouldn't be a bad idea." I say letting out a sad laugh.
"Or maybe instead of quitting, you could stay away."
"I work in the same office as her. It would be hard to stay away."
"Okay, but you say you have lunch together sometimes, you talk on the phone and that kind of stuff... stop doing it, no more lunch or coffee or phone calls... unless it's work related."
"That won't be easy."
"Life has its sacrifices. If you're so afraid of freaking her out and making her, I don't know... walk away from you? Maybe it's the best thing to do before it becomes more serious."
"You might be right." I say letting out a deep breath.
"I know it will be hard but it will be better for both of you."
The idea of stepping away from Callie doesn't please me at all. I can even imagine her disappointed eyes when I turn her down when she asks me if I wanna go get lunch and I say no. I can see her looking at me with questioning eyes while I'm reading some papers. But Clara is right, it's the best I can do for now. It will hurt me and maybe hurt her too, but better now than later.
It's the day after my talk with Clara. My first day of trying to stay away from the woman I found myself falling more in love with everyday.
"You can do this. You can do this." I repeat to myself as I take calming breaths while walking towards her slash my office.
I almost decide to throw my plan away when I open the door and that bright smile meets me. "Hey!" She says. "Didn't seen you leaving last night."
"Yeah," I say as I drop my purse on my table. "I-I wasn't feeling really well, I guess that margarita wasn't the best idea." I say with a weak smile. Stay strong, Robbins.
"Yeah, I know what you're talking about. I feel like my head is going to explode." She says massaging her temple."I was actually going to grab a coffee... coffee will have to do while I don't find a better cure for headache. You wanna come?" She asks me as she heads to the door.
"Actually, I just arrived and have some paperwork to do and-"
"You can do it when we come back, it's just a coffee... I bet these papers can wait."
"No, really... I have to do it now. Thanks for asking though." Keep the straight face Robbins.
"Oh," Dammit, don't give me the sad eyes. "okay then, I can bring you one if you want?"
"No, I'm fine. Really." I say with my best fake smile.
"Okay." She says with a low voice before leaving the room.
As soon as the doors close I let out the breath I've been holding since she asked me the question. Not so bad for the first time, right?
The day went by more slowly than I expected. Callie and I barely exchanged a word, it was pretty awkward. I guess neither of us knew exactly what to talk about, so we preferred to stay quiet and not make it more awkward.
"Well, I'm done for today." I say after checking my last papers.
"Good, I'm almost done. If you want to wait more five minutes we could get a drink at this bar down the street. I've never been there but people say it's good. I mean, you turned me down earlier so I guess you own me one." She says, giving me that smile again.
"Uhh... maybe another day?" I say not meaning it at all. Of course I want to go get a drink, but I can't, it will be better for us. "I... I already have plans." There was this voice in my head screaming "LIAR!"
"Oh, okay... maybe another day." And the sad eyes were there again.
I just kept with my façade and gave her another fake smile. I don't even know how many of those I have given her today.
"See you tomorrow." I say before leaving the room.
"See you." I hear her answer before closing the door.
It will be so much harder than I thought.
AN2: So, what do you guys think? Was Clara really right? For how long do you think Arizona is going to keep her façade?
(Be nice and maybe I won't let you hanging for so long, no primises for today, but who knows about tomorrow? *hint hint*)
