Frenzy
Notes: Modern AU!
Title: Hold On
Song: Even My Dad Does Sometimes
Diaval hasn't seen her in 5 weeks.
For the past 5 weeks, all he has of one Mallory Moor are text messages, a few short actual phone calls and a couple of missed ones. She's missed 5 date nights in a row. He tried dropping by the hospital, but she's always on call, either in surgery or a meeting. It's been almost radio silence in 5 weeks, and he misses her terribly.
The worst part is he knows this was the life he chose.
He knew work would always come first for her. He knew what she has isn't a career, but a vocation. He knew her heart irrevocably belonged to the field of medicine. Still, it hasn't stopped him from wanting a piece of her heart, from trying to occupy even just a tiny corner of it. It hasn't stopped him from loving her and wanting to be with her. She's warned him about this, several times over. She told him that sometimes, she won't be able to meet with him for long stretches of time; sometimes, she'll leave calls and texts unanswered for hours or days on end; sometimes, she'll forget about him, her mind focused solely on work; sometimes, she'll forget about herself, how she's a person who needs caring for as well. Sometimes, she'll forget about the world in favor of curing the one patient who just won't get well.
Diaval knew all this.
But he loves her. He loves how when she does find the time for him, he has all of her. He loves how she cares about him. He loves how she thinks he's a much better person than she was, despite her being the one who's dedicated her life in service of others. He loves the way she touches him, as if he's the most important person to her, the only one keeping her sane. He loves the way she talks to him, fondness caressing her voice. He loves how sometimes, she'll forget the world for him.
And most importantly, he loves how when her world is falling apart, she chooses to come to him. When a patient dies, when she can't find a solution, when she's too tired and overworked, when she's fed up of trying to fight the system to protect the welfare of the underserved, she ends up in his apartment, curled up in bed with him. Some days, she'll rant about the injustice. Some days, she'll contemplate in silence, content in simply lying in his arms. Some days, she'll cry- for herself, for the difficulties of her vocation, for the people she sees everyday yet can't help. These days remind him that she's just human, despite her strength and intellect and compassion. These days show him that in the end, the only place she'll ever allow herself to be vulnerable is with him. These days show him that he is her home, and even though she rarely has time and he only gets a tiny portion and not her whole life, she was trying her hardest to hold on to him.
And even though it takes 5 weeks before he finally finds her at his doorstep, an apology on her lips, he resolves to hold on, too.
A/N: Just something I wrote in under 20 minutes, as a break from studying. I want to do a longer Doctors AU fic in the future, but for now you get this.
This is mostly for myself, though, as I am now starting to see glimpses of all the sacrifices my chose vocation entails.
Cheers!