I was super lucky this year! Rei-chan and Gou-chan are both in my class, and we managed to find seats together. I'm even in the middle. Class is like a massive game. Well, when there's no tests. But anyway, it's a bundle of fun. Rei-chan gets really serious. It's pretty funny, actually. He stares at the board and takes it all in like some kind of brain sponge. I hope he won't notice when I steal his notebook to study for finals. We've got time yet, but I'll need help. Gou-chan's a little more receptive. Well, she was. But, these days, she seems shier than usual. Only with me. I see her talking with Rei-chan at lunchtimes and whatnot, and they're chatting on like it ain't no thing, and then I walk in, sit down, say hi, and she freezes right up like one of those wacky Greek statues. But not naked. I get the same way sometimes with Rei-chan. I feel like there are some things I shouldn't say to him. Even fairly little things. I feel like I can't ask him what his favourite flavour ice-cream is, or what he had for breakfast this morning or even if he's doing well. It's not that he wouldn't take them well. He's Rei-chan. Taking things well is what he does. It's part of his charm, I think. Well, that and his weird little beauty thing. I get where he comes from. I mean, beautiful is good. It's also undefined and subjective, and easily influenced. But, anyway, it's kinda cute. Particularly for a guy.
Science. My favourite class. We're studying physics right now, and if there is one part of my intellect I pride above others, it's mechanical calculation. The formulae are fairly elementary at this level. It's simplified for bottom-tier physicists who don't understand the mathematical theory that drives their discipline. In reality, we should be integrating the acceleration function in order to find the velocity function, and integrate that to get a displacement function, using boundary conditions in both respects to find constants. But all the acceleration is treated as constant, which is preposterous in a real-world context. Unless you have a perfect sphere, which is also ridiculous. But why on earth would anyone develop a theory that only works for spherical chickens in a vacuum? Chickens are not spherical, nor are they in a vacuum, as they would asphyxiate close to immediately. They may be more beautiful as spheres though. It's an interesting, if impossible, proposition. There is another proposition I have encountered recently, and I need some time to get my head around it. Let me list the evidence. Firstly, I deliberately allowed Nagisa-kun to sit next to me so that she could not. Secondly, I find myself looking over my pen to try and glimpse her face. And thirdly, I am thinking about this now, even though physics is empirically more interesting and more beautiful. This proposition is interesting, and while not impossible, highly improbable. But, if we study physics that only applies to spherical chickens in vacuums, perhaps I am also a sphere in a vacuum and I have used the wrong formulae. But regardless of the reason, I think I may be attracted to Gou-san.
Jesus, not physics again. I'm not really sure that anything on this earth could possibly be more boring. Well, Rei-kun doesn't seem to think so. He's getting right into it. When he's not looking over at Nagisa-kun, that is. He seems to look at him almost as often as I do. Which is weird. I thought Nagisa-kun wouldn't exactly fit his ideal of beauty, so no way is he hot for him. But still, he looks at him a lot. And he gets the better view as well. Nagisa-kun mightn't exactly be well-built for a swimmer, but he still is fairly fun to look at. Particularly on the left. I can't really tell why. I think his nose might be uneven or something, but he definitely looks better from the left. Shame I sit on his right. But even though I'm not getting a good view, I can't stop myself looking at him. There's something about the way he fuzzes over like a can of soft drink you dropped then opened that makes him inherently interesting. And his eyes. There's something about them. The shape, the colour. Mine are red, but pink is way more fun. They're wide, but not too wide, and it feels like he can see what you're thinking. Thank God he can't. I don't what him knowing what I think about him.