This one is called "To Live with this Insanity" requested by HayateKogami009. The request was for England x Japan. I was actually really happy that this was requested because it's not a pairing I've worked with before, so this was going to be interesting to write and get feedback on.

Now this one was written a little strangely to say the very least, so I'm going to tell you the basic plot to make sure everyone who reads this gets it. Basically the forbidden love in this story is between Doctor Honda Kiku and his patient in a psychiatric ward, Arthur Kirkland. The story is told from reports that Kiku writes while he observes Arthur, so the events are going to be written in that fashion.

I hope you enjoy it, and I would really appreciate it if you tell me how I did!

Sunday, June 1st, 2013, at 4:13 p.m.

I just finished another session with Arthur. Still no progress. This patient is truly a strange one, not like I've ever seen. Arthur claims he has "fairy-tale friends" and he talks to them, often. No one else can see them, although he claims to have friends in Romania and Norway who can. We've tried to find them before to see if it's true, but we've never been able to find them. Even so, he has never been branded as dangerous, so I have been assigned to him.

During the session, I asked him what he usually talks about with his friends, and he replied, "There's no particular thing we usually talk about. They just keep me company, and make sure I stay informed about the world," he sighed, "I don't see the point in telling you this. You don't believe me."

I didn't know how to respond to this, so I merely ended the session early, "Thank you, Arthur-kun. See you tomorrow."

"Fine. Goodbye, Kiku. And it won't insult me if you just call me Arthur."

As I left, I looked back at him and nodded, "If that is what you wish."

Monday, June 2nd, 2013, at 5:37 p.m.

I was assigned to Arthur two months ago, and he's opened up to me in those past two months. Possibly more than I wanted him to. At first he barely spoke to me. Now... I just don't know.

The session today started normally, I asked Arthur questions and he answered them. But then he was just silent for a few minutes.

I was considering leaving when he murmured, "Kiku, I wish we had met under different circumstances."

I didn't expect that, "Why is that?"

Arthur stood up, kissed me on the cheek, and went to sit in the corner of the room. I left without saying a word.

Tuesday, June 3rd, 2013, at 5:20 p.m.

I knew I couldn't avoid another encounter with Arthur, so I decided to get it over with. I was honestly not sure if I actually wanted to avoid him. All I had been able to think about was how soft Arthur's lips were pressed against my cheek, and how they would feel if I-

I should not be putting this on paper. This is not a diary. These are medical reports. Back to the session.

I walked into the door, and Arthur was in the corner he crawled into yesterday, as if he hadn't moved since then.

"I wanted to say I was sorry," he stated.

I sat at the table and asked, "What was your motive to do what you did yesterday?"

Arthur pulled his knees close to him and rested his chin on his knees, "Well," he mumbled, "I had always kind of liked you, even when you first got assigned to me. You were way better than the doctor I had before me, Francis. He thought I was completely insane and treated me as such. You've always treated me as an equal. I admired you for that. I guess eventually admiration turned into infatuation. As I got to know you better, the infatuation turned into..." The last word was lost as Arthur grew quiet.

Now I was intensely curious, "Could you please repeat that last part, Arthur?"

Arthur lifted his head and huffed, "I said that the infatuation turned into," he took a deep breath, "love. There, I said it. I love you, Kiku."

I was surprised, "You do?"

"Yes. And I'm sorry if you don't feel the same-" I closed the distance between us and pressed my lips to his, noting that his were indeed soft against mine. As we broke apart, I looked at him shyly.

"I didn't realize it at first, but I love you too."

Arthur smiled seductively, "Oh really? Then maybe we should..."

There was no more talking after that.

Wednesday, June 4th, 2013, at 4:30 p.m.

I walked into my employer's office, still a little flustered from events the day before, which I will not go into great detail about besides what I wrote yesterday.

Doctor Wang Yao looked up from his desk, "Yes, Kiku? Can I help you, aru?"

I bowed, "Sorry to bother you, but I would like to discuss matters with you on my patient, Arthur Kirkland."

Yao nodded, "Ah, yes, the really weird one, aru. What did you want to discuss?"

"I wish to check him out of here."

Yao's eyes widened in surprise, then he went back to normal, "I see what this is about. One of my doctors told me he saw you and Arthur being very intimate during a session."

I felt myself turn red, "I'm sorry, it won't happen again."

Yao looked down, trying to avert my gaze, "I know it won't. Many of the doctors have been petitioning for your immediate release."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing, "No, Yao-san, please."

Yao shook his head sadly, "I knew you were going to get attached to your patient. I've been tending to one, Ivan Braginski, for years, and Ivan has really started to grow on me since then. But I could never imagine having a relationship with him," he held the door open for me, "I'm sorry, Kiku. I wish you well."

Thursday, June 5th, 2013, at 7:00 p.m.

I don't even see why I write these reports anymore. I have no patient to report.

I just got off of the phone with Yao. Here's how our conversation went:

"Hello?"

"Nǐ hǎo, Kiku. I have to tell you something I thought you would want to know."

"What is it?"

"We assigned a replacement doctor for Arthur, the new doctor, Alfred F. Jones. Well, Arthur had asked him what happened to you, but when Alfred tried to explain that you had been terminated, Arthur... lost control, would be the best choice of words, aru. He attacked Alfred. Alfred threw him off, and Arthur's head hit the corner of the table. He died on impact."

"..."

"Kiku? Are you still there, aru?"

*clack* I hung up.

I now know I am never going to see Arthur again in this lifetime. I rummaged through my medicine cabinet and got out every bottle I could find, taking three out of each one. I also got out a bottle of wine. I wrote a note on the last piece of paper before I got started:

I will see you soon, Arthur.

With love, Kiku.

Author's Note:

This is the first one that didn't end happy. I'm sorry for that, but I still hope you enjoyed reading it, and I would really appreciate it if you tell me what you think of it. Thank you to HayateKogami009 for requesting this pairing, and I hope you liked reading this despite the lack of fluff. This goes for everyone else, too. So anyways, please review, tell me what you thought, request a pairing if you think I'm a good enough writer to do your pairing. Bye, see you next forbidden love!