I'm alive! I can't believe it, I'm alive! xD
Yes people, I'm not death yet! Thou I'm sick right now, so let's not jinx it and stop talking about it.
I could give you a million and one reason as to why the long waiting time, but why bother? It's not really gonna change the fact that it took me this log to finish the damn chapter, right?
So let's just go on ahead and READ THE WARNINGS FIRST! Then read the chapter!
Chapter's Warnings: Genderswap, Yuri (girlXgirl relationships), old values, violence, harsh words, domestic abuse (I don't know if this one's right, it's more of the situation when someone hits a woman cuz' she's a woman, don't know the exact english term), I went to great measures not to have to call this a non-con/dub-con, it's just really violent sex (I know, I know), it's not a dual-personality situation, more of a 'the person you once were VS the person you want to be' kind of thing, and as expected, my great skills in avoiding completely explicit sex scenes! (no, seriously, I suck)
Disclaimer: Beyblade doesn't belong to me, there! I said it! Happy now?
Enjoy!
Chapter IV: Those things that makes you sick.
Kai opened her office's door and sighed relieved, seeing that her jacket –and surely cellphone too- was on top of her desk.
She took the jacket and rummaged through its pockets, finding that, thankfully, her cellphone was there. She grabbed it and saw that she had three unread messages and one missed call.
The dual-blunette stayed looking at the bright screen of her phone not knowing what to do. Those messages and that call all came from the same number, Hilary's.
"When you have a moment, come by the apartment" that's what the last message read, and she swallowed hard.
Kai put on her jacket and decided that yes, she had a free moment right now.
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Hilary opened the door, finding a sheepishly looking dual-blunette on the other side.
"Hey" Kai said looking to the side; it was still a little awkward being around the brunette.
"Oh my god, what happened to you?" Hilary's question made her blush, because she had forgotten that she, basically, still looked like shit.
She had have some time to rest, but the bags under her eyes had yet to go and her skin was still of that sickly pale tone.
She really should have put on some make-up.
"Nothing, just…" should she tell her the truth? "…a bad day" she didn't want to. In any case, she hadn't even told her the truth about her 'adventures' with alcohol when they were together, so…
"Are you ok?" they may have broken up, but that didn't mean that the brunette didn't care about her well-being, especially when she looked like that.
"Yeah, I'm fine" she said, hoping that settled the matter "You called me?"
Hilary let her in and walked towards the coffee-table, where a medium-sized pile of letter where resting.
"This letters came for you" she picked them up and handed them to the other woman.
"Seriously?" Kai sighed annoyed, rummaging through the letters to see what they were "I called three time to change my address"
They were some bills and miscellaneous stuff, nothing the brunette should have bothered to give to her personally.
"Thank you" she said, after which an awkward silence befell them. Neither of them knew what to do or what to say, there were some things Kai wanted to say and some questions Hilary wanted to ask, but they knew that just a wrong pronounced word could start a fire and they didn't want to get burn.
"I should go" the dual-blunette said after a while, putting the letters inside her jacket, and the brunette nodded in acknowledge.
"It's what you do best" she was almost at the door when she heard that not-so-low whisper, and she stopped on her tracks, turning around to look at the other woman.
"What's that supposed to mean?" Kai asked with a frown in her face.
"You've heard me" Hilary responded to the other's glare with one of her own, crossing her arms over her chest, her chin up, provoking the other into a fight.
The dual-blunette inhaled deeply and exhaled slowly, willing her anger to stay in check. A little voice at the back of her head said that she shouldn't let that disrespectful tone go unpunished. She ignored it.
"I don't wanna fight you, Hilary" this is not why she had come here, and this was taking on a bad turn.
"You never do, you always leave" the brunette's frown deepened, and she stood her ground. She didn't know why so suddenly she wanted to fight with her ex-lover, it was definitely not what she had thought when she called her earlier, but she didn't feel like stopping.
Kai clenched her teeth, her jaw hurting from the force she was putting in keeping her mouth shut, to avoid saying something she'll regret.
She couldn't deny what the other has said. During the six years of their relationship, all their big fights had ended with her slamming the door and storming out, but nor for the reason the brunette thought.
Not entirely.
"Don't. Test me" she said through greeted teeth, hands on tight fist at her side. That incessant little voice on the back of her head telling her to put that woman on her place.
It sounded suspiciously like her grandfather's.
"Oh, I'm sorry, am I upsetting you?" Hilary didn't know what she was asking for and Kai had to bite her tongue to prevent an infuriating insult to go past her lips.
Her first instinct was to leave, go through that door and punch a wall if she had to let her anger out, but she needed to LEAVE!
"Goodbye, Hil" she turned around, fist shaking from repressed anger, with all the intention of walking out of there and slamming the door shut behind her.
"Sure, ran away like you always do, you pussy!" silence befell them once those words left the brunette's lips.
The dual-blunette stood where she was, half way out of the apartment. She took a deep breath and let it out slowly, calmly closing the door, staying inside; no longer thinking about getting out of here without a fight.
"You better take that back" she said as menacingly as she could, a slight glare marring her face. She took one step closer to the other women.
Hilary took one step back and swallowed hard, a chill running down her spine. It was safe to say that she was frightened by the other's sudden change of attitude.
Kai walked towards her with a calm that was unnerving, and although she wasn't that much tall, she was taller than her, and she was using that in her advantage to make the other feel inferior –which, unfortunately, was working-, and her crimson-red eyes were as cold as a piece of ice.
The brunette has seen that look a few times before, but never directed at her.
"M-make me" Hilary cursed that slip of the tongue, but stood her ground and glared back, straightening her posture so the other wouldn't see the slight shaking cursing through her body.
Kai clenched her fists, her frown deepening, and in the blink of an eye she pushed the other woman against the wall, holding her shoulders with force.
She couldn't remember the last time she had frightened someone so much, she thought she didn't had it in her to do it anymore. But by the look in the other's brown eyes and the tremble in her lips, she still did.
She had forgotten how good it felt.
A wicked smirk curled her lips and she leaned a little closer to the brunette's face, her hands leaving her shoulders, sliding up the wall till the other was effectively trapped between the wall and her body.
"You don't really want that" she whispered into her ear, enjoying the chill running down the other's back. The rational part of her mind was telling her to stop, that this wasn't her, not anymore, and she couldn't go back; but she couldn't hear it, the sounds were drowned by that voice that sounded so familiar yet so different to what she remembered.
"Go fuck yourself" was the brunette's response. Hilary pressed her back against the wall, hands curling at her side and sweat starting to run down her neck. She didn't like the calm and frightening attitude her ex-girlfriend has suddenly taken, but to her dismay, she couldn't deny that her closeness and her warm breath on her ear was turning her on.
"Seriously?" Kai said, annoyed. The part of her that didn't like anything related to that word momentarily taking over and making her take a step back, her arms still imprisoning the other.
'That's all they do. That's all they understand' but that voice kept on telling her to punish the other for her insolence, that she shouldn't let a woman treat her like that. And right now she will listen to it, even though she knew very well that she shouldn't.
The dual-blunette leaned closer, trying to look directly into the brunette's eyes, but when she avoided her gaze, her hand grabbed her chin, with more force than she has ever used on her, and forced her to look her in the eyes.
Neither of them said something, but it was clear to Kai that her ex-lover was scared out of her mind. And she liked it.
Oh, she had forgotten how much she liked this feeling. That sense of power and dominance, of control over the other person, was overwhelming, better than anything she had ever felt. She loved it.
Why had she stopped?
Applying more force on the hold she had on her chin so Hilary wouldn't move, she pressed her lips against hers. The kiss was rough, violent and totally in her control, which made the heat of her anger pool at her belly, twisting into pleasure, encouraging her to keep going.
Lost in the sensations, she let her hold loosen, and Hilary took that chance to push her away, slapping her with as much force as she had the second she was free from her hold.
Kai stumbled three steps back before regaining her balance, and the pain from the right side of her face made her laugh amused. She took a hand to her lower lip, where the pain was more intense, and when she drew it back, some blood had smeared her fingers.
She had to give it to the brunette; she hadn't thought she had enough force in her to break her lip.
She turned to face the other, the cold, almost murderous look in her crimson-red eyes making the brunette swallow in fear, and pressing her back against the wall she tried to put some more space between them, but before she could react and defend herself, the dual-blunette returned the slap with force.
Hilary's body swayed to the side, but Kai grabbed her before she could hit the floor and pushed her back against the wall, claiming her lips in another fierce kiss.
The brunette tried to push the other away, she didn't like the painful, almost brutal grip Kai had on her, but even if she didn't want to, she couldn't deny that she was starting to respond to that kiss.
God, she liked it. In a way, at least. She still loved this bastard and it was such a turn on to see her prude and insufferably shy ex-girlfriend taking control like this, even if she was going to be bruised tomorrow.
Kai moved her hands down Hilary's chest, palms pressing hard against the skin, till they reached her hips, where they made a quick job of sneaking under the shirt. She pushed her thumbs hard against the other's flesh, right under the ribs, making Hilary moan in a mixture of pain and pleasure, and she took advantage of that to introduce her tongue into the other's mouth.
The brunette got tired of being completely passive in the act, so she started to kiss just as fiercely, giving as good as she got. Her hands went around her partner's body, one tangling in her hair and pulling, the other digging its nails into her shoulders.
Kai frowned at the woman's actions, not liking that she was responding with the same treatment. She took a hold of the hand on her shoulder and pressed it against the wall over the brunette's head, twisting the wrist to the point that it was unbearable.
Hilary used her other hand, still tangled in the dual-colored hair, to push her away, the grip the dual-blunette had on her wrist making both women stumble back.
Kai took a moment to breath and back-handed the brunette, freeing her wrist and letting her fall to the floor.
She stood there, chest heaving from the previous activities, looking down on her ex-lover. Her mind cleared for a second, just enough to make her feel sick for putting the other in that situation.
'They're just a toy for you to play with, and they need to understand that' but she didn't want to feel sick; she didn't want to feel any remorse right now. She still was angry, seething with rage actually, and she didn't want to stop nor get a hold of herself.
She walked to the fallen women and grabbed her from the back of her shirt, pushing her into her feet. She contemplated about grabbing her by the hair, but decided against it. This way she was in perfect position to turn the other around and press their bodies together, and while one hand took care of ripping the shirt away from the woman's body, the other graded her by the back of her neck and forced their lips together again.
The dual-blunette took one step forward, and then another and another, guiding their bodies towards the bedroom. Hilary, still somewhat disoriented from the previous hit, could only let herself by walked back, half-heartily responding to the searing kiss.
She reacted when the back of her knees hit against the bed, realizing that the top of her body was completely bare, while her pants and underwear was being pulled down right at that minute, and wanting to be in even conditions, she took both hands to her partner's hips, quickly undoing her belt.
Kai pushed Hilary on top of the bed before she could undress her. The brunette needed to understand that she was in control here, that if something happened it was because she allowed it and there was no discussion.
She needed to understand that this was not about giving pleasure; it wasn't even about taking pleasure, this was about dominance, about control over the other party.
And he'll be damned if a woman gets the upper hand.
She crawled on top of the brunette's body, capturing her hands over her head and pushing her against the mattress, reassuming her kissing. This time it was sweet, tender and deep, just a show of what could happen if the one underneath her understood what was her place.
The brunette moaned at the sweet treatment, body accommodating to the one on top. The friction between the other's clothes and her overheated skin and the brutal grip on her wrist were painful, but just made the pleasure cursing through her climb higher.
She couldn't believe she could be as masochist as she was being right now. But she liked it and they were way past the point of no return, so she'll let the dual-blunette do as she pleased.
From then on the room was filled with pain and pleasure. Hands were harsh and bruised, while lips were tender and careful. Clothes were forgotten and both figures molded perfectly around each other.
Exhaustion soon won Hilary over, she'll be sore in the morning and bruises she won't be able to hide will cover her body, but she'll regret everything once she'll wake up.
On the other hand, exhaustion was still fighting over the dual-blunette.
Looking down on the body underneath her, Kai felt sick to the core. Her mind still couldn't believe what she had just done, the thoughts she had during the whole act made her skin crawl, and a deep, burning sense of disgust was growing in her stomach.
She had felt so much hatred towards the brunette and, worst of all, towards herself. It seemed almost humanly impossible to hold so much loathing inside one-self.
Carefully as not to disturb the other, she slides to the side of the bed, the soft sheets itching against her naked body. She covered her mouth with one hand, just in case the screams chocking at her throat were to come out, and looked down on herself.
What she saw made her sickness worse, shivers went down her spine and her muscles gave up under her weight.
Kai fell hard against the mattress and that's when exhaustion ultimately won over the storm inside of her. Her crimson-red eyes closed slowly and she succumbed to a dreamless sleep.
Tomorrow would be a bad day, but right now, she wanted to rest.
To be continued…
hehe, yeah, ok, so this is awful! And not just because it's been months since I last writhed something! xD
So, dear readers, I have some important information for you, after carefully planing it, I decided that THIS FIC IS COMING TO AN END! So, two more chapter and this is done! Yay!
But, as you can imagine from what you just read (and what the next chap's gonna be about) that's not enough to really give this story a closer, so, THERE'S GOING TO BE A THIRD PART! That was originally intended to be part of this fic, but I felt it would be unfair for certain kin of readers, so I decided to split them (you'll know what I mean later).
Now, I would like to say that next chapter's gonna be up soon, as I practically have it all done, but I came to realize that I can't be trusted when I comes to delivering on time (if you just saw the pile of unfinished homework I have...), so I won't make any promises, one thing is for sure thou, I AM NOT ABANDONING THIS FIC! I'll finish it even if it kills me! (shhh! Don't give it any ideas!).
For now, I hope you liked this poor excuse for a long awaited chapter, leave your reviews and ideas (specially for a title for the third part, as I'm out of them) and have a great day!
THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAD READ AND REVIEW THUS FAR! LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
C'ya!