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Finally without looking, he reluctantly said "Lily, we thought you were dead. They asked me to come back to...to explain."
"Come back from what? What are you talking about? Lily asked
"You've been missing for two years" he said
Chapter 2- FaithJust like the hearse you died to get in again
We are so far from you
Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you knew
Helena -My Chemical Romance
Lily was speechless, James wasn't looking . And this were some shocking news, but something popped in her mind again. James' ring, why did he had one "Why do you have a wedding band?" James seemed to freeze. It obviously wasn't the question he was expecting from her. He had to gain some strength again . He turned to look at her once again and all he saw was confusion and pain.
"As I told you, since that night, you've been missing for two years." He quickly said. Lily fixed her gaze on his and felt a pang in her stomach. "Voldemort was there and Dumbledore arrived just in time to watch him kill you. He saw your lifeless body been taken by him. You were dead. You were dead" he continued.
"And you… got married" she whispered.
"I did. They asked me to come to New York...the order, well Dumbledore. He thought it would be best if you were reintroduced by someone from your life before" he explained without looking at her this time.
"Why didn't they sent Danielle? She's an order member and from my life before"
"I can't answer that. I chose not to stay with the order after your death" he said coming closer and sitting across from her
"So you aren't a member anymore?" she asked just to make sure.
"No…I'm a full time auror for the ministry" he told her. Lily stood up and walked to the window once again. "This is uh, gonna take me a while" she said more to herself than him.
"Dumbledore wants me to bring you back. I mean, you can imagine the kind of investigation that will be called" he said and stoop up in front of her.
"How much time do I have before I have to go?" she asked and James looked down at his watch while saying "He said that that we should be back…" Lily grabbed the lamp from the desk and whacked James on the side of the head with the base. As he bent over, she wrapped the cord of the lamp around his neck and started to strangle him.
"I don't know who the hell you are, but you are not James, you son of a bitch! Tell me who the hell you're working for... is it Voldemort!" she exclaimed. Then she threw him against the wall, still strangling him.
"Tell me you're working for Voldemort!" she yelled again. Then someone tried to open the door, so she elbowed the fake James in the temple and dropped him to the floor. The door room opened and Lily kicked a chair at the attacker, and punched a second attacker.
She turned around to see James getting up, so she kicked him in the stomach, sending him flying across the room. She ran down the hallway to get to the elevator, and found herself surrounded by a wizard on either side, both with wands. She kneeled, as if submitting, but when the man behind her went to grab her wrists ,she grabbed him and threw him at the other man.
She grabbed both wands and petrified both men. Just as she was ready to leave, Lily heard James shouting a tranquilliser spell to her, she turned in time to see the jet of blue light hit her in the chest. She gave James a look of utter betrayal, as the spell started to work. As she sank to her knees, James lowered his wand and walked closer
"Don't…" Lily said as she saw the impostor approach. "Don't do…" and she started to collapse.
James rushed over, dropping his wand,to catch Lily before she could fall, sinking himself to the ground, holding her.
"How is she?" asked James
"Apparently she's ok James. The healer said she's a bit worn out. He gave her a dreamless sleeping potion. She'll wake up until tomorrow" said Dumbledore. "You should go home"
"Has the ministry been notified?" he asked.
"Not yet, I want her to rest. If we tell the ministry, they'll be all over her. Besides, she hasn't processed everything, this is going to be really hard for her.Remus is already doing some research on memory erasing spells, and ways to get her memory back. They must have used a really strong one, to erase such a long time span." Dumbledore explained.
"You're probably right" said James "Those jerks at the ministry don't care about people, all they care about is bringing down death eaters, not mattering the costs."
"So how's work?" asked Dumbledore.
"Fine. I guess it's getting harder everyday to know who's on our side and who's not" James sighed.
"You know before all this, I had already told you if you wanted to get back. You said you were going to think about it. We need you James, you're a great auror" Dumbledore said softly looking at the young man.
"You're starting to sound like my father, have you two talked lately?" he chuckled.
"Then we are probably right. We need to bring Voldemort down." Dumbledore said
"And I'm doing everything I can!" James exclaimed.
"Well I'm sorry to have upset you. But you know you could try better." Dumbledore said.
"I have to go now. Goodnight Professor" said James and left feeling guilty. He had just snapped at Dumbledore, without reason.
Lily opened her eyes, and started scanning the room. It looked so familiar, but she just couldn't remember. She had had the strangest dream, where James was married and attacked her, and she had missed two years of her life. Crazy things, now she remembered better, last night Bellatrix had attacked her and knocked her down. The door of the room opened and Dumbledore came in. Lily gave him a small smile and Dumbledore smiled back at her.
"You're safe. You're at the Order Headquarters. You're home again." said Dumbledore. Lily looked bewildered and shocked.
"There are no words to make this easy. It was James who came for you in New York. And what he told you was the truth" he said. Lily sat up in bed "Professor, what happened to me?"
"We don't know" he said sadly
"Where's my baby? What happened? Is he or she still alive? Where are my parents? Why do I have a scar on my stomach? Why was I in New York?" she cried
"Lily…" he answered
"And is Bellatrix still alive?Did she..."she asked.
"I know you have a million questions, but…" said Dumbledore trying to calm her down.
"I have a lot more than a million questions! I wish I only had a million questions" she yelled.
"You're going to have to be patient. I'll talk to the ministry and.." said Dumbledore.
" I can't be patient! I woke up like it was one night! I don't know what happened to my baby! I have a scar on my stomach I have never seen before, there's a... You're telling me two years have passed, and I have to be patient?"
"Listen to me, Lily... You have to relax."
"I think I deserve to know what happened to the people in my life! I want some answers!"
"I'm sorry to say this but I can't give them to you. I wish I had them but I don't" he said sadly. And the door opened to reveal Remus Lupin.
"How ya feelin'?" he asked looking at Lily
"I'm okay for now. You look great…" she said
"Oh, thanks, yeah. Well I still have two weeks till the full moon. I'll be miserable by then but right now I'm feeling ok." he said laughing, then turned to Dumbledore and said "We've got something"
"I need just a minute. Excuse me." Dumbledore said getting up to leave the room.
"I'm sorry to be all cryptic..." said Remus excusing himself.
"It's okay... I get it." she said and both men left the room. A minute after Dumbledore came back in, this time without Remus.
"I have to go to the ministry" he said.
"Professor I want to see my parents" she said.
"Ok I've had already called them. They've been notified and they are on their way. I spoke to your father last night." he said.
"Why can't I go to them? I would like to be home."
"Right now you can't leave the headquarters, it's not safe Lily. We are almost sure you've been kept by Voldemort all this time. The ministry needs to know you're alive"
"Could I be reinstalled as an auror and as an active order member?" she asked
"I'm sure you can and will. But for now rest" he said and stood giving her a sympathetic look. When the door shut, the overwhelming sensation crept up again and the tears came back. Once again she found herself crying until she felt asleep.
Lily gasped and opened her eyes and saw her mom sitting in a chair next to her sleeping. Lily gasped again and woke up her mom.
"Lily!" exclaimed her mom. Both of them hugged and while after that her dad came in. After sharing many tears and hugs. They talked, first she told them about the night when she had disappeared and how it had been the same day she had found out she was pregnant. This had made her mom sobbed harder. Then her parents had made the best they could in explaining and telling her what had happened in the last two years in their life. After four hours Lily felt more comfortable and at more ease with herself. At least she had both of her parents, she knew that now more than ever they were going to be her pillars, the people who would help her stood up from this hole she was. They had to leave, because they knew she needed to rest. Lily's mom said goodbye, kissed her daughter on the cheek and gave her some alone time with her dad, as she had had earlier with her mom.
"Lily, honey I love you so much. I'm so glad you're ok." he said
"How long have you and mom been separated?" she asked
"What? How did you knew?" he asked surprised.
"I just could tell" she said sadly "How long?"
"Six months, we're just giving ourselves some space" he said. "We'll work things up, and having you here Lily will help your mom and me. Now I shall leave you, you have to rest and sleep and eat so you can have back your life" he said.
"Daddy, please don't leave. I don't want to be alone. I have never felt so alone in my life. I will never get my life back. I lost my baby, I have no job, I have no home, and James is married, and you and mom aren't together anymore…I don't want this life" she said
"James what?"
"He got married" she said.
"James Potter is just a boy who was never good enough for you. Anyway, Lily, listen to me, you need to gain strength so you can live again. There's a world out there full of people who care for you, you have your mom and me and your friends. And you have to find out what happened to you and your baby."
"Yes..." she said.
"The only way to do that is by getting your clearance restored, having access to all that information in the ministry. I'm guessing the ministry of magic isn't really different in that aspect to our ministry"
"Dad, I don't think I can do this on my own" she said
"We both know that's not true, and you have no choice anyway. The ministry, I am certain, will be dubious about your return, somehow you must get them to trust you again" she said.
"But I'll be alone…"
"Dumbledore, will help you. He cares about you almost as much as I do. He knew you were alive. " he said.
"What!" Lily asked surprised "He hasn't mentioned anything, about it. How do you know!" she asked.
"Lily he knew you were alive, that's all I can tell. You have to talk to him. Be strong cupcake. I know you must already know this, but I love you"
"I love you too" she said and stood up to hug him.
"Promise me you'll visit" he asked.
"I promise daddy"
"There's so many new people... I don't know anyone here." Lily said as they arrived to the Ministry of Magic.
"Ah, just give it time." Remus assured her. Then a tall guy, with long black hair, and a handsome cocky appearance appeared, and stood in front of Lily.
"Excuse me. hello? Hi,...Lily?" he said raising his voice slightly "I'm Sirius Black. I work here, auror you know. We met back in Hogwarts" he said smiling now
"Oh my god Sirius dolt, ... of course I know who you are" she said hitting him playfully in the arm
"I was just testing you" he said smugly. "It's so amazing to see you, I can't even really relate. Actually, I,even wrote you a poem."
"Really padfoot, I didn't know you were a poet" Remus said raising his eyebrows.
"Moony, moony, of course I am, and ladies love my poetry" he said
"Lily" a female voice called and Lily turned to face Danielle Stevens.
"Danielle!" she said and hugged her.
"Ooooh, welcome back" she said back. Lily looked down and felt a pang in her stomach. She quickly recovered and exclaimed "Hey you're pregnant!"
"Ooh, yeah, yeah...I am." she said
"I, wonder who the father is?" said Sirius leaning forward conspiratorially. Lily turned to face him shocked and looked back at Danielle.
"Are you guys married too?" she asked
"No" Danielle answered shortly.
"Not yet" Sirius added.
"No. We're not married." said Danielle once again.
"We just haven't set the date yet" Sirius explained
"We're not even engaged, we're just having a kid" said Danielle getting tired of Sirius' remarks
"Well, we're talking about getting engaged..." Sirius said
"Not really" said Danielle
"Well, uh, she just has an issue with wedlock." said Sirius smiling and giving her a light kiss on the lips. Danielle smiled and pulled Sirius again into a deeper kiss. They didn't care they were just at work and Lily saw that they were obviously in love. She felt a pang in her stomach again, but was saved by Remus' coughing.
"Lily...Dumbledore and the minister are expecting us" said Remus
"If you need anything, just ask, okay?" said Danielle
"Thanks. We can have dinner today" Lily suggested
"Perfect, I'll see you guys later" she said
"Bye Lily, see you later and good luck" said Sirius.
Lily and Remus where lead to a private room by the minister's secretary. She opened the door and there was Dumbledore and the minister waiting for them. Remus pushed her in and waited outside.
"Minister, Professor" Lily addressed as she entered the room. Both gentleman stood up and shook hands.
"Take a sit Miss Evans" the minister said pointing a chair politely.
"Thank you" said Lily sitting next Dumbledore and in front the Minister.
"Professor Dumbledore has explained me, the events in the past two days." he started "I know how hard this must be for you, but I need to hear what's the last thing you remember." Then Lily explained the events that had occurred that night at her place, and how suddenly she had been knocked off and woke up in the hotel. When she finished the minister spoke again "You're not the first auror who has his or her memory erased, some of them have been able to retrieve it, but others couldn't. There's a group of help for wizards and witches who have lost their memory, they could help you"
"Than you sir" said Lily
"I know you want your job, back and you've got it. You've already been reinstalled as an auror. And you can start working now." he said
"Thank you sir" said Lily again feeling pleased to have her job again.
"One more thing Lily, anything you remember about your disappearance must be notified for the investigation. You could be an important piece for bringing Voldemort down" he said.
"I will sir" said Lily
"You may go now, Professor Dumbledore and I have some things to discuss" said the minister standing up and leading Lily to the door.
"Thank you sir" said Lily and left the room.
Lily walked down the white corridor searching for Remus. And he spotted him at the end of the hallway, he was standing there talking to Sirius and James. Lily couldn't deal with this not yet, she walked by, trying to go unnoticed, but for her bad luck Sirius noticed and stopped talking. The three turned to look at her. After a moment James gave Remus and Sirius a last look and took a few steps toward Lily. Remus and Sirius just smiled sympathetically to Lily and started to walk away.
James sighed nervously and attempted a friendly smile while saying "I came by to see how you were"
His tone and expression angered Lily. Well at this point, probably just his existence made her angry. Her face was expressionless, but her eyes had daggers in them.
"Are you kidding me?" she snapped. James had some trouble maintaining eye contact, but looked back up, again trying to put up a front of friendly concern "No, I...just wanted to make sure that you..."
"You didn't come here to see how I am...you came here to see how you are, because you know in your heart what you did...you want to make sure you're okay. " Lily said. James paused for moment, he was taken aback by what she just said.
"Dumbledore saw him kill you " he said and paused "Consider that for what that's…" but Lily didn't let him finish, cutting him off "Don't use rational thought as a defence with me, not after all you and I have seen. James, you and I live and breathe madness every day on the job...there is no...rational thought! I can't even pretend to have a conversation about anything else with you. What it comes down to, is faith! "
James face didn't show any obvious emotion, but his lips were pursed, his eyebrows were furrowed, pain, shock and a bit of anger was reflected in his eyes.
"What I was hoping you would say is, Lily I gave up; I gave up on us. I lost faith." continued Lily looking more hurt, angry and upset.
"But what you came here for...was closure...and there is not a chance you are getting that from me! I'm sorry to come back and crumble your world. " she exclaimed. James' face was still strained, hurt and tense. Lily was having a hard time keeping her emotions out of her voice this time her voice was strained and hoarse "I'm not gonna say I understand…I'm not gonna sympathise with you and tell you how hard it must be for you…But… You want know how I am?" she gave a small gasp "I am horrible! James" and she gasped again. "I am ripped apart!" she said in a strained whisper "And not because I lost you…but because…if it had been me" and tears started to cloud her eyes "I would have waited"
James blinked several times, he swallowed painfully. Pain, regret, and loss echoed in his eyes. He appeared very strained, he was trying to hold back tears himself.
Lily barely holding back the sobs in her voice now "I would have found the truth…I wouldn't have given up on you!" she said as betrayal lighted her face. She was bolstering herself with her anger. A hardness gleamed in her eyes.
"And now I realise……what an absolute waste that would have been" she said in a harsh whisper punctuated by shaky breaths.
James looked wounded by her last remark. Lily turned to leave, trying to reign in her emotions, refusing to cry in front of him. As he watched her leave and empty sadness filled his eyes, as he looked down, as if remembering. Then a tear escaped one of his eyes. His brow was furrowed and his lips were in a thin line.
As Lily sobbed silently a couple of feet away, she promised to herself that she would never tell him about their baby.
A/N: I really liked how this chapter turned out. But pleaaassee let me know what YOU THINK. REEEEVIIIEEEW!
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