So I know how last chapter was left in emotions
and this one is kind of the same.
Holiday Hiatus for me for a little while my readers
I also decided posting up chapts for both my stories was kind of like
a holiday gift to my loyal awesome readers.

Enjoy!

Usual Disclaimer
Twilight = Stephenie Meyer
Vampire Academy = Richelle Mead

Chapter 11
A Little More About You

EPOV

Lying on Bella's bed, watching her e-mal Renee was so normal, so graceful, beautiful.

I could watch her all eternity.

But then I couldn't think like that. Bella didn't have an eternity, no matter what Alice had seen.

Bella could never lose her soul just because of my selfishness.

"What are you thinking about" She came to sit beside me and ran her hand through my hair, her warmth.

"Nothing. Just how beautiful you are"

She blushed and I ran my finger through her cheek causing the red on her creamy skin to deepen, making her look more beautiful than anything else.

"I love you" she said.

I softly kissed her lips and whispered against them. "I love you"

We just laid there in her bed, her warm body pressed against mine. I desperately wanted to know what she was thinking, I always wanted to know that.

So I had to voice the same question over and over again. "What are you thinking?"

She shook her head that was in the crook of my neck and her warm breath did so many things to me, her body spooned against me did things to me that I can never act on, I would kill her, I would lose my reason for existing.

"Nothing much really. I was actually thinking about Jacob"

That mutt. Wolves are the one thing I can't stand, and they're the one thing she wants to be close too. I sometimes never really understand the workings of her mind. I'm always steps behind. And him. He's always right, he knows her more than I ever will, he can see right through her in ways I never will. Like I said before. Stupid mutt.

"What about Jacob" I said.

"I don't know, I kind of miss hanging out with him, and I hate that every time he feels like it, he decides to give me a chance and see me. He still doesn't trust being so close to me, or maybe it's the pack that can't stand it. I 'roll' with vampires"

I snickered. Of course they would think like that, but I couldn't blame them. I can't stand them either, they reek.

"So then why bother trying to get to see him? I don't want you to hurt because of him. I see what it does to you, I see how much you love him. But I can't stand how I sometimes see you when I know you're thinking of him. Why not just let it go?"

She sat up on the bed and places her small hand on the part where my heart should be beating.

"Because, he's my best friend. Because to him, I'm the only one who can help him. He needs me, how can I not be there for him. He'd do the same for me. but because of his hatred for you and your family…he doesn't want to be to close to me"

"Nothing's going to change about that Bella. It's been eighty years and the hatred towards what and who we are is too strong"

She sighed and looked away. I made her sad. I sighed. When will the day come that I don't make her feel any kind of sadness.

"I just wish that there was some way for you to work it out," She turned to look at me and I was glad that she hadn't cried. "you're not like normal vampires, you treasure human life. Just like they do"

I sat up on the bed and faced her. "To them it doesn't matter. We go against nature. Who we are disgusts them. We shouldn't exist"

"Don't start that again. You and I both know that's not true. I'm glad you exist, I will always be thankful because you exist"

We've had this conversation a million times. Bella believes I do not go against nature, she believes I have a soul. She believes I'm not a monster. But I know that isn't true.

I shouldn't exist, I go against everything normal that possibly exists in the world, I don't have a soul, and I know the truth. I am a monster.

"It may be what you believe Bella, but you can't change the way they think. It's what they believe. And for now, that's enough. I don't need them to like me, I don't need Jacob to approve of me. I need only for you to accept me. Your opinion is the only thing that matters to me"

She hugged me and I squeezed her as lightly as I could. "I do approve of you. I love you. It's as simple as that Edward. I'll always love you, no matter what anyone says or believes"

I still cannot understand the workings of her mind. How can she love me, how can she want me? I'm no good for her, yet she tells me otherwise. She believe I'm good. She believes the opposite of what I truly am.

So I kissed her. With all the passion I have. She latched onto my neck and pulled me closer to her, as I gently laid her on the bed and hovered over her…never breaking the kiss.

I know I never kissed her like this, I wouldn't be able to control myself. Like right now. I deepened the kiss and heard her softly moan. It was like music to my ears. So I put my hand on her hip and slowly lifted her shirt to draw a small circle; I felt her body heat rise and it felt like fire to my icy cold skin.

Then the most wonderful feeling coursed through me. Bella's hands unwound themselves from my neck and she put them under my shirt. Slowly she moved her hands up and down my chest, filling my body with heat I haven't felt in one hundred years.

I needed this to stop. If I went further things would happen and I can't do that to her.

"Bella" I whispered as I pulled her hands from under my shirt and stood up from the bed, looking outside the window.

I heard her breathing heavy I heard her heartbeat slow down. I can't believe I let that happen.

"I'm sorry" I said as I turned to look at her, she shook her head.

"You have nothing to be sorry for. It's not like I didn't want you to do that"

"Bella-"

"No Edward. You know how I feel, what I want. You don't ever have to apologize"

"You know why we can't Bella. Don't ever doubt that I don't want you in any way, because I do. But I wouldn't be able to control myself. I would hurt you…or maybe something more"

"Edward" She stood up and came to stand in front of me. Her eyes so set, so sure. She trusted me in ways I couldn't be trusted. "I know you can't ever hurt me"

I sighed and ran my hand through my hair. "You don't know what I could do Bella. You can't predict anything. I don't even know how unpredictable I am when I'm in that kind of state" I kissed the top of her head and inhaled her scent. "I'm sorry"

She hugged me tightly and I felt somehow better.

After spending an hour or two some more in Bella's room, now I was sitting in Bella's kitchen watching her make that repulsive smelling human dinner, waiting for Charlie to arrive when I received a phone call.

I looked to the caller i.d. and saw the house number.

"Hello"

"Edward"

"Esme?"

"Come home quick"

"Why? What's wrong?"

"It's Rose. She's hurt"

I stood up so quickly from my chair that I flung over to the nearest wall and that made Bella react and race towards me.

"What's going on Edward?"

"Esme. Give me five minutes and I'll be there"

"Hurry Edward"

I hung up and was already heading for the door.

"Edward. Please tell me what's going on?"

I turned to look at her. "It's Rose. Something happened and she's hurt"

"Oh my god is she okay?"

"I don't know. Esme didn't tell me much. She just told me to come home"

"Do you want me to come with you?"

I put my hand on her shoulder. "No, it's okay. I'll call you when I know something"

I quickly kissed her and left her house at blinding speed.

I arrived at the house five minutes later and raced through the door and up to my room.

I saw Rose's unconscious body lying on my bed. She looked so much like the day I found her. She had on her all black clothes, her face was bruised, and she still looked beautiful.

"Edward" I saw Esme right in front of me, but I couldn't focus. Something happened to Rose and I wasn't there to protect her.

"What happened Esme"

She shook her head and then looked back at Rose.

"I really don't know Edward but I do know this. I think I know who she is"

I looked at her. "What do you mean when you say you think you know who she is?"

She nodded. "She is human," She paused. "but she's also half vampire. I heard a long time ago, during the time Carlisle and I were away. I've heard legends of vampires with magic, and half vampires who protect them against immortal ones. I thought it was also a fairytale. Something that happened a long time ago that couldn't be proven. But I was wrong; the monster called her a Dhampir"

"A what?"

"A Dhampir. I've heard the word, they're half human half vampires who were procreated when humans had relations with vampires"

"Are you telling me Rose is a Dhampir? A half vampire, who protects vampires with magic powers? Tell me how am I supposed to believe that Esme?"

"Edward I'm only telling you what I know. Whether you believe me or not Edward is up to you"

That's when she started thinking back to when she was leaving the clothing store with Rose.

"Esme, I don't know how to thank you for all these clothes. I mean I bet it was a lot of money. I wish you didn't have to spend so much on me. You barely know me"

Esme just shook her head and waved her hand in dismissal.

"Rose, everything I bought was basically made for you. I couldn't deny them to you even if I tried"

Rose just smiled and she looked beautiful. The way her body moved with those clothes. Showing off her gracefulness in every way.

They were walking when Esme noticed Rose's look on her face.

"Rose. Honey what's wrong"

She shook her head. "I don't know. I feel nauseous and it's getting a little bit more stronger"

Esme then held onto Rose and started leading her towards the car when Esme heard someone come out of the forest.

"Well, well. And here I thought you were dead"

Esme turned to where the voice was coming from and saw three creatures advance on her and Rose. They were built, extremely pale, red ringed eyes.

"Who are you?" said Rose.

"Doesn't matter dhampir. You won't live long enough to know anything"

Dhampir?

Esme didn't have long enough to contemplate what that word meant because at blinding speed, similar to ours, the creatures stood right in front of Rose and Esme and before Esme could even run with Rose, Rose pushed her away, her bags landing on the floor and quickly landing a kick straight in the creatures chest sending him a few feet back.

The other two attacked her but quickly kicked one kneecap, causing it to break while the other got it's neck snapped long enough for her to stab it in the chest with that silver thing I found in her hand the day I found her.

The other was about to get up but in speed I've never before seen in a human, Rose stabbed it and both were -I guess- dead.

"Now I know why he wants to have you. You're as graceful as they say you are. More better if you were one of us." said the creature, advancing on Rose.

Esme had to do something and she was about to but Rose just shook her head, looking straight at Esme.

Rose looked determined, she looked fierce, graceful. She wasn't afraid, like she saw this everyday and knew what she had to do.

And she did.

Rose held on tightly to that stake in her hand advanced on the creature.

Blocking moves, kicking, breaking bones and the creature still advanced.

It wasn't human.

It didn't look like Rose was either.

When she scratched the creature with her stake it let out a scream that sounded agonizing, painful.

It made the creature mad that he sent Rose through half of the parking lot.

Esme was shocked, she had to do something now.

So she did. She advanced on the creature at blinding speed and snapped it's neck. She went to grab Rose but the creature pushed Esme to the side and she couldn't see anything when she was knocked down, but when she regained balance the creature was lying on the ground and Rose was standing above it.

"Rose, honey are you alright" said Esme as she made her way over to Rose.

She nodded her head. "Yeah, I'm fine Esme. Just really tired"

Rose was swaying but thankfully didn't lose consciousness.

Esme held tightly onto her and took her to the back seat of the car and laid her down while she went back to retrieve the shopping bags and placing them in the trunk.

Esme went to take one more look at Rose and saw that she was still awake, deep in thought but still looked tired, like at any minute she will lose consciousness.

Esme started the car and drove at a fast speed back to the house.

When she arrived, she opened the back seat door and supported Rose's weight all the way up to my room. I can't believe she was still conscious.

She laid Rose down on the bed and when she was about to go and get her something to treat her for any sign of injury, Rose grabbed her wrist.

"Please stay with me Esme"

She nodded and made herself more comfortable and soothed Rose's hair while she laid her head on Esme's chest.

"Are you alright honey?"

She felt the small tug on the hem of her dress, while Rose shook her head in answer.

"What am I?" she whispered.

After that Rose said nothing and Esme thought she was asleep so she was about to get up when Rose spoke.

"Esme"

"Yes honey?"

"I-I. Um…"

"What is it honey" she asked as she moved some of Rose's hair from her face.

"Can you call Edward? I feel like I need him to be here with me right now"

Edward? Why would she want Edward.

"Of course honey"

She nodded and laid down on a pillow, looking up to the ceiling. "Thank you Esme"

She left the room to call me and when she hung up she went back to check on Rose who was asleep.

That's when she started thinking about what she saw, what she heard and where's she heard it from.

She left the room and I went to sit by Rose on the other side of the bed. She looked beautiful, a goddess in human form. I just hated the pained look she had on her face, the bruise that adorned on her cheek. She didn't seem damaged but I did smell a hint of blood, dried blood coming from her knuckles. It seems that her body is already recovering

Maybe what Esme said was true. Maybe Rose really is what Esme says she is.

Because everything I saw in Esme's mind proved it.

What a twist of fait it would be if there really were other vampires in the world and with magic powers.

"Edward. Please come into my office"

"I'll be right back Rose" I soothed her hair and placed a kiss on her forehead.

Before I knocked on Carlisle's door- "Come on in Edward"

"Did you want to see me Carlisle?"

"I heard what was said between you and Esme. Do you not believe she may be a Dhampir?"

"I don't know what to believe Carlisle. Is the world as abnormal as I may think it is? And what kind of person is out there to make me cross paths with someone from another world?"

"Edward" Carlisle got up from his chair and came to put his hand on my shoulder. "I cannot tell you what I believe but with the way Esme has described things to me, it seems that some of it fits. I'm not saying Rose is a Dhampir but maybe she is something else"

"To me, Carlisle it doesn't matter what Rose is. I just want to help her get her memory back and get her back home"

"To me it would be fascinating to find out all I can about this new breed of vampire"

Carlisle had that look on his face. The look that elated him when he thought he had new information in his grasp.

I wanted to know all about Rose. I just can't. because then any piece of mind I had left on the world would be all mixed up together and I might possibly never get a straight answer.

"I'm going to leave you to your thoughts Carlisle. I'm going to go back to my room"

"Yea, alright. We'll talk later Edward"

I closed his door after I made my way out and flitted back to my room.

I laid right next to Rose on the bed, watching her sleep. Her face looked peaceful now, so I'm guessing she'll sleep the whole night.

To me it's perfect because I get to watch over her.

She moved though, I guess to find her spot again and when she hugged me and sighed in content I wrapped my arm around her and it created a smile on her face.

Which made me have one of my own.

So tell me what you thought.
Nxt chapter after my hiatus I'll be posting up
Rose's POV so you guys get a better insight at whats up
in Rose's mind.

So review, review, review

Peace In Readers

-Kristy