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"Come on Potter drop your wand" said Snape one more time. The idiot was too arrogant for his own good. "Crucio" yelled Snape pointing to somewhere Jame could not see and a little bit after, he heard Lily scream in pain.
"Put the wand down" said Snape again.
"No, James don't" yelled Lily as she tried to fight the curse.
"Drop the wand!" said Snape calmly "If you love her , you will put the wand down" he was having fun, eh could've stunned James, but where was the fun in that. He was getting to annoy Alexis, he was sure of it. As she immediately turned to look at James.
James seemed to hesitate for a second and he heard Lily yell again "Aaah!! Dooon't" But James had already dropped his wand...
A/N: This chapter's song is Open Your eyes by snow patrol. And it's like songchapter, well a part. I hope you don't find it too disturbing to read with the lyrics between.Enjoy!
Chapter 10 – The long goodbyeAll this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
Lily woke up startled to find herself lying next to James. It was dark, and she reckoned they were in a cell, it was old fashioned, medieval-like and probably charmed. Lily turned to look at James and found herself looking directly into his eyes.
"Are you okay?" asked James scooting closer to her. Lily looked at him, and aside from the fact that he was covered in sweat and dirt, he looked okay. Lily on the contrary looked a little pale and worn out, she has some minor bruises and few cuts on her face.
My bones ache, my skin feels cold
And I'm getting so tired and so old
"I think so.." she whispered, her voice cracking and touching her face..
The sounds of steps getting closer, brought their attention to a door, where they saw the handle turn, and the door open to reveal a hooded and masked figure raising his wand..
"Potter, you're to come with me" Snape said behind his mask.
"Fuck you!!"snapped James.
"Crucio"and James fell to the floor, opened his mouth but never uttered a sound. His face contorted in pain and agony.Lily reached out to touch him, knowing she would ease the pain, taking a part of the curse on herself, but James moved away from her touch. And screamed "Don't!"
The anger swells in my guts
And I won't feel this slices and cuts
Lily let a tear slide and gripped his hand firmly, but Snape approached and kicked James in the stomach, away from Lily.The Death Eater finally lifted his wand and James relaxed, twitching slightly. Finally he lifted and followed the hooded figure.
"And that's just nothing compared to what is waiting for you," Snape hissed softly, pulling James up by the neck of his robes and hauling him out of the cell.
Lily simply looked after them, hardly believing that James was just...gone. He might never come back, she thought. And it scared the hell out of of her, they were switching places. James might die, and although they were not together anymore, she couldn't stand the thought.
So she did the only thing she could. She prayed, she wasn't religious, but she was desperate, this was the man of her life, the only man in her life, the father of her child, her love, this was James.
Ages seemed to pass, and slowly Lily was losing consciousness. It was cold and the only sound that she had heard for the past hours was James screaming at the top of his lungs. She blocked herself trying to make the scream die, fade away...
And finally the screaming did stopped, a detached part of her mind registered. And she let a single tear fall. He was dead...
But Lily didn't cried she just lay there still, letting the tears fall from her eyes. Not a single sob or moan escaped her eyes, he was gone and maybe she would be soon...
"Lily, are you sure?" asked James, Dumbledore has just invited them to join the legendary Order of the Phoenix "James, we are in this together" she said sternly "We'll always have each other"
"Don't think you can get rid of me that easily" said James grinning
Why had life been so hard on them? She honestly didn't know...
"Sirius!!" said Lily running through the hall of Saint Mungo's and embracing Sirius and crying. "Where is he?!!" she demanded.
"Lils, he will be okay, he is awake" said Sirius opening the door, revealing inside a very scarred James Potter, he had a band wrapped around his head, and he had wound sall over his arms. Lily ran and sank her head into his shoulder crying.
"Lily, it's okay" said James caressing her head.
"No" choked out Lily "I thought you were gone..." she said sobbing harder "I...I can't live if you...if you..." and a large sob escaped her lips.
"Lily, sshh. It's okay now."she said cupping her face and kissing her lips lightly.
She snapped back to reality when she heard the door open and a loud thud in the ground. James unconscious body was thrown into the cell. Lily practically ran to his side. "James" she said desperately moving him "Wake up, wake up, wake up" but he didn't move, he was covered in blood,small cuts, and large bruises.
I want you so much to open your eyes
Cuz I need you to look into mine.
"Here you go, sweetheart"Handing her a drink "A beer for my girl"
"Thanks"Taking a long sip.
"Where did you just go by the way?"
"I don't know.It was one of those daydreamy things. I guess watching you walk away and shake your butt made me fantasize"kissing him slowly
"So you like my butt huh?"Kissing her back and pulling her into a hug.
"I fancy it"
"I fancy you" He said and kissed her again "Am I alone in wishing our friends left so we could do it right here, right now?"
"I'm so with you" Lily giggled "I've got an idea. Come with me"Pulling him toward the back of the headquarters
"I knew I liked how your mind worked" Lily pulled James through the crowd and into the bathroom, they rushed quickly inside and locked the door with a spell.
James pulled up Lily's skirt and she unbuttoned his pants. He lifted her onto the counter and pulled off her underwear. He kissed her hard on the mouth and ran his tongue along the edges of her lips. Lily slipped her hand up his shirt and around his back. Soon they were having sex.They had this new thing they did everytime they messed around, they kept their eyes and stared at each other the whole time.The results were incredible intimacy and kicking orgasms.
Even if it was a quickie it was worth it.
"You're so beautiful" whispered James "I love you
"God, James"Lily breathed "I love you too"
"Don't ever leave me Lily"
"I won't without you..."
"Nothing seems right" he said finishing her sentence
"Nothing tastes rights"
"Smells right"
"Sounds right"said Lily, starting to giggle "We are so lame!"
"No shit.Least we both are."
"True" she smiled.
"Will you marry me?"asked James and he started searching in the pockets of his pants and took out a ring "I've been carrying it around for a while now. I was planning on giving you a speech and asking you outside under the moonlight..." and he trailed off and looked at Lily
She was crying and smiling she got off the counter and kissed him.
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
"Please James, wake up, " she said grabbing him by the head and putting it against her chest. "Wake up, wake up" she whispered softly. She caressed his forehead wake up, open your eyes , please you can't be dead, "wake up, wake up" And she started rocking back and forth.
"Wake up, wake up" she said sobbing. "Open your eyes James!!! Now!!" she cried harder, he was dead...No he couldn't be not James, not him.
"James, please!!" Lily pleaded "we are in this together"
"No, Lily. It's not safe out there" said James sternly
"What a load of crap!!!!, it's not safe for me. But it's okay for you!!!!??"
"Lily please, I can't risk it and get you killed!!" he said angrily.
"Then I am supposed to wait for the day you don't return home ?"she said crying this time
And James embraced her "I will always come back to you" he said.
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
"Wake up James" she whispered "Look at me" And she started sobbing, he was too hurt. Probably he wasn't going to make it out of here. Probably no even her. This was it. The end of the road.
"What is it?" said Lily shaking the little box
"Open it" said James happily.Lily ripped of the bow and the paper. She had never been good at opening presents calmly. It was a box, and inside there was a gold chain, with a little stag and a lily dangling from it.
"It's beautiful" said Lily. "Come on let me put it for you" said James taking the chain from her hands and placing around her delicate neck and kissing her shoulder.
"I love you Lils" he said.
"Only because I love you" and she smiled.
Get up, get up, get away from these liars
Cuz they don't get your soul or your fire
"Wake up, wake up, WAKE UP!!!"and she let out loud a cry of sorrow and pain and when she looked back at him. He had opened his eyes and he was looking straightly into Lily's emerald ones.
And she smiled and exclaimed "You're alive" she cried with joy
James opened his mouth to say something and closed it again. A soft hissing noise was becoming louder and louder, heading down the corridor to their cell.
"He's coming" James whispered and he struggled and got up in front of her.
"The famous Potter and Evans" said Voldemort's voice "a pitiful story, what happened to you little mudblood" he said sarcastically. "But don't worry the pain will be over soon for the both of you"
"You!!!Bastard" shrieked Lily "You ruined my life. You!!!" she said trying to hit him, but James' grip didn't let her.Voldemort twirled a wand in his hands, almost as if he was bored with the events. He looked at Lily and smirked in a way that made her feel sick "Legilimens!"
Lily clutched at her head and dropped to her knees, mumbling phrases that James, even thoigh was right next to her, couldn't make out. James stared at his bent head for what seemed like and age before she stiffened and threw her head back, inhaling as if she had never breathed before.James kneeled next to her putting a hand in her back and the other in her shoulder.
Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time
"Impressive" said Voldemort softly "Very impressive" and then his eyes snapped to James."Are you that strong?" he smirked "Legilimens!"
"Will you marry me?"asked James and he started searching in the pockets of his pants and took out a ring "I've been carrying it around for a while. I was planning on giving you a speech and asking you outside under the moonlight..." and he trailed off and looked at Lily
She was crying and smiling she got off the counter and kissed him.
...
"James, I'm sorry" Dumbledore said, he had never seen his Professor so sad.It was true she was dead.
...
"I hate you!!!!!!" roared a drunken James throwing a portrait making it crash against the wall. On the floor was a photograph of himself and his dead Lily, the day of graduation.
...
"Let's get married" said Alexis jokingly. James thought for a moment, and knew this was it.She was gone and she wasn't coming back."Yes we should" he said all serious.
...
"It's Lily James.She's alive" said Remus hugging his friend.
...
"You were dead" said James trying to escape the look of betrayal in Lily's face.
"And you got married..."said Lily
...
"But lastly was that the night I dissappeared I had gone to the hospital, a muggle one, to get some results back..." she paused took a deep breath and closed her eyes to calm herself and get through this. It was just starting " I was pregnant, I found out I was pregnant".
Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere
And James cameback with a roaring "NO!!!!" and opened his eyes, he was sweating like mad, and and reaching out for Lily's robes, clenching them, in his fists.
"Quite Impressive. You are a true Potter." Said Voldemort amused. And Lily shuddered. "So I can't kill you easily. Can I? You'll have to honor your dead. At the end you will be pleading me to end your life" and he laughed.
I want you so much to open your eyes
Cuz I need you to look into mine.
"Incendio robes" said Voldemort and from his robes he drew out a knife. "Dear Lillian is familiar with this special knife."Lily shrieked at the memory.
"Normally, I would have one of my servants use sucha a tool, but this punishment is one I have been waiting a long time to give personally"
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
"Accio," hissed Voldemort, and James slid across the room to rest and Voldemort's feet. Lily caught sight of his face and saw that he looked absolutely blank. There was no expression on his face, none whatsoever.
Voldemort raised the knife and Lily shut her eyes, knowing what was coming.
Tell me that you'll open your eyes"Imperio," she heard. 'Open your eyes,Lillian.
No
Open your eyes, Lily.
No!!
OPEN YOUR EYES!
NO!!!!!
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
She opened her eyes when she heard James scream in pure agony.
"Tell me where is she" Voldemort hissed.
"Leave him alone, leave him alone, leave him alone, leave him alone, leave him alone…" Lily chanted softly. Leave him alone, leave him alone, leave him alone, leave him alone…
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
"No!"James roared. And Voldemort stabbed him once again.
"Tell ME!" he demanded angrily.
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
"NO!"said James louder this time
"Sensitivitus!" Lily opened her mouth in horror. The Sensitivity Charm…
"'Crucio"said Voldemort raising his wand.
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
"LEAVE HIM ALONE!" Lily screamed, running towards Voldemort and trying to harm him in any way possible. She slammed against an invisible wall two feet from him and beat her hands helplessly against it. "LEAVE HIM ALONE!"
Voldemort lifted his wand and James's cries stopped. The evil wizard regarded Lily with infuriating amusement and a cold smile that made her blood boil. Lily saw in horror as James was bleeding profusely. She tore out a long piece of cloth from her robes and tried to wrap it around James' abdomen to stop or at least lessen the bleeding.
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
"How touching," the Dark Lord remarked with a smirk that scared Lily out of her wits. Voldemort sighed. "Although, I had expected no less from the pair of you."
"I see you eager to join Potter's current situation" said Voldemort "And I won't deny you the pleasure. Miss Evans"
"Sensitivitus!"hissed Voldemort "Crucio!".And he watched amusedly as James attempted to move closer to her, but failed terribly..
Tell me that you'll open your eyes
"Pathetic, you've always been" he mused out. He lifted the curse "I'll be back soon to put and end to your misery. Once and for all"
At this point Lily was more conscious that James.She could hear his ragged breathing, and he was clearly in a lot of pain. They weren't going to make it out of here...
"James.." she said
"Lily, come here. Come here, Lily" and they cuddled as much as two bloody and hurt people can
"Look at them...so cute" said Snape as they watched in a monitor Lily and James forms.
"Shut up!" hissed Alexis starting to get pissed by Snape's constant remarks.
"I see someone is upset" said Bellatrix as she got into the room and looked over at the couple.
"Bitch" whispered Alexis.
"He rather die with her than live and be with you" said Bellatrix with and evil smirk on her handsome face.Alexis didn't answer and left the room fuming.
"I am having doubts" commented Bella sitting next to Snape "She is getting attached"
"That shall be no problem. He is a dead man" said Snape gladly. Knowing his worst enemy's life was definetely coming to an end tonight.
"Dumbledore" said Sirius bursting into the old's man office. In his office was Mad Eye Moody, Harold Potter, Gideon Prewett, Adam Thompson and Remus Lupin.
"Sit down Sirius" said Dumbledore calmly.Sirius knew better than to disobey his old Headmaster so he did.
"We got a note" said Remus taking a parchment and handing it to Sirius.
James and Lily are held captive by Voldemort. They are in a facility at the north of England. They don't have much time.
"Who sent this?" asked Sirius confused.
"Obviously we don't know Black." Said Mad eye.
"We know the facility" said Mr. Potter
"And what are we doing here wasting time?" exclaimed Sirius angrilly.
"Calm down Sirius" said Mr. Potter sternly "Dumbledore"
"We were just waiting for you. All of you can part now" said Dumbledore.
"What about Peter?" asked Remus.
"Mr. Black is right we don't have time" explained Dumbledore.
"Has Alexis being informed?" asked Adam.
"I tried, but I couldn't find her" explained Remus
"Let's not waste any more time" said Mad Eye getting up, and all the gentlemen followed. "Gideon inform the ministry, and we'll meet at the apparition point we accorded"Gideon nodded and took some floo powder and dissappeared.
Lily had lost track of time, she didn't know if hours had passed since Voldemort left or maybe just minutes. She was too exhausted to think about it, James was sleeping, or at least that was she liked to think. He had closed his eyes for a while now.
"Lily.." he asked softly, his voice hoarse from his screams.
"Yes" said Lily soothingly "It's me"
"I had the strangest dream that you were dead," he croaked, trying to raise himself into a sitting position.
"Lily we're not going --" James coughed up some blood and Lily stared in horror. "we're not going to make it out of here."
"Ssshh" whispered Lily.
"There's something I need you to know" said James, and he winced in pain as he tried to move closer.
"James.."
"In my life, there is only one person..." and he coughed some more blood.
"Don't do this" said Lily. She knew they were going to die, but hearing him say so and accept made it ten times harder.
"Look at me." demanded James.
"James..."No she didn't want to say goodbye.She wanted to live, she wanted them to live.And she heard a faint sound of steps.
"The only reason I pushed you away..."
"Please.."
"The only reason, I didn't know how to be around you..." and Lily let a soft moan escape her lips
"Lily...I love you, always have, always will"
"I know," Lily nodded and caressed his cheek "I love you too, I am yours heart, body and soul"
"They're coming.."said Lily the sounds of steps were louder.
"We'll find each other, We always do." James whispered and James kissed her as if his life depended on it. Lily kissed him back with the same passion, she didn't hold back this time.
All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
This was it.
It was goodbye...
The door opened.
A/N: Not a very long chapter. I know. I updated within a week!!! Hopefully it will become a habit...
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