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Anyway. here's the next chapter after my such long needed
hiatus from this story. Things are gonna get interesting after a while.
So I dont want to go into a long detail as to why I was gone and why Im
taking a while to UD but I promise Im a writing maniac.
College is getting in the way & midterms are around the corner.
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Chapter 13
A Little Bit Closer

EPOV

"I still can't believe any of this is real" I said.

"I know. But it is. That's why I'm not going back to that life"

I turned to look back at her. "Why?"

"Because I'm tired of it all. I wanna stay here," She looked away from me to the window. "with you" she whispered.

"Are you sure?"

She looked right back into my eyes and with totally conviction said, "Yes"

She wants to stay here…with me? Overall I can't believe she remembered some of her life. I thought it'd take her a while, considering that she'd been out there for three days.

But no. After that stupid attack, she regained some of it back. I thought she'd want to find out more about herself now that she remembered. But she doesn't want to. She wants to be away from the Guardian life.

"To protect and die" were her exact words. I honestly wonder what kind of life being a Guardian entitles.

In a way. I'm glad that she's regaining some of her life back. But she said she didn't want to go back. She said she deserves the right to live her life the way she wants to.

"What are Guardians lives like?"

She sat more back into the bed, crossing her legs, looking down at her hands while she was fiddling with her nails. "Not much. Basically to protect and die. 'They come first'" she said with air quotes.

"What do you mean 'They come first'?"

She sighed and looked up at me, putting some hair behind her ear. "Basically is that you don't have a life of your own. You're not meant to. No matter how much you want it, they are always meant to become your only attention. No love. No life. No anything.

You are meant to be a shadow, that's all. You're not meant to exist. Just a mere shadow in the background. It's been like that for as long as I can recall, and it's not a much, but it's what's been drilled into our heads since the minute we enter the Academy"

"That's awful"

"Yeah, I know. But it's the way it's always been. You have no choice. Sometimes though, we don't become guardians. Once in a while, un-promised guardians run off and kill Strigoi on their own or" she sighed heavily. "become one of them"

"How long have you been training to become a Guardian?"

"Since I was five years old"

"Why so young?"

"It's because training takes time. You can't just grab a stake and know how to use it. It's all hard and the pain you have to go through. Your hands calloused, bruised body parts. You need a chance to recover and also time to fully understand everything. Because the minute you even fumble, make a small mistake?" Her eyes became sad, but at the same time fierce. She believed in her job but at the same time I can understand why she'd want to quit.

Learning to try and protect a life at the age of five without a life of your own to look forward too? I would react the same as Rose.

I grabbed one of her hands and gently squeezed, it caused her to look up at me with those dark brown eyes.

"Are you sure you don't want to return to your old life?"

She nodded. "Yeah, I'm sure. I don't want to return. I want to make a life. I mean I'm nineteen years old and I already have the responsibility of someone's life in my hands? I don't want to constantly have to be watching my back, thinking that maybe the next day I might die. I don't think I can take it anymore. I want to know what normal is," Her eyes changed. a deeper and more meaningful emotion showed in her eyes. "and I think you can give me some of that"

She thinks I can show her what normal is? She thinks I can give her exactly what she needs and wants?

I don't think I can.

I'm not supposed to exist.

I'm against all that was created & the one girl who I thought was human…isn't. She wants a human experience, she wants it all.

She's so different from Bella this way. Rose wants a human experience. She's been through a lot, having her life dictated for her from the time she was a child.

Bella didn't want the human experience, she wanted to fast forward it all and become something like me. A monster.

I sighed. I need to tell her the truth. She can't think I'm something I'm not.

I can't lie to her when she's trusting the beginning of her new life to me.

"Rose, I have to tell you something"

"What is it Edward?"

"I'm not normal Rose"

"What the hell are you doing you idiot?" Rose yelled to me.

"Edward, don't you think we need to talk about this as a family before you let her in on our secret?" said Carlisle.

"Edward let's just talk for a bit. We'll see what happens okay?" said Alice.

"What do you mean you're not normal Edward?"

My family was right. I needed to see if this is really the right choice.

"I'll be right back Rose"

She nodded and went over to the couch and laid on it, staring outside the window. It started raining again.

RPOV

I didn't think Edward was normal anyway. I knew from just looking at him, hearing him speak. He was extraordinary.

Bella.

Bella was lucky to have him as the love of her life.

But how can I tell him that I agree with his point of view of 'normal'?

I have a feeling that Edward is not the kind of guy that likes to be argued with because in the end he wouldn't believe any of your argument. But I already knew that Edward was someone who wasn't normal. I'm not attracted to normal & there is no such thing as anything normal in my life or in my mind.

But my gut, my instincts tell me that Edward meant something else, that there's more to him then being beyond extraordinary as I believe him to be.

Edward was entirely something else & even thought I wanted to know what it was, I needed to wait for him to tell me what he wanted to tell me.

I needed him to believe he can trust me. Just the way that I trust him.

I know I haven't known him for long, but Edward helps me trust. He makes me believe in normal. Makes me feel like I can be normal. Something I'm not used to in my line of work.

But I'll wait for him to come around and trust me. I have a feeling that Edward will give me exactly what I know I need.

For now I'm just sitting here. Content. Watching the rain fall in this small quiet town of Forks, Washington. Knowing very well that this will soon become my home….I hope.

EPOV

As I'm walking downstairs I get a glimpse of something in someone's mind but it's too quickly for me to know what it is & I'm left wondering.

"I'm sorry" I said as soon as I reached the dining room table.

"We understand why you needed to tell her son, but you need to know that this is not only your secret to tell. It's al of ours, we need to talk it out first before you make decisions"

Carlisle's right. It isn't only my secret to share, to burden. But Rose had told me some of hers, shared her fears and her hopes of having a normal life. Something she thinks I can give her.

"Carlisle. You heard what she wants, what she thinks I can give her. She has secrets of her own, secrets she didn't have to share, but also secrets she wants to get away from. She wants something normal" I scoffed. "I don't think any of us qualify for the kind of normality Rose is looking for. How am I supposed to say yes and try to give her something I clearly don't have?"

"It's always about something you want! Just like Bella. Why is it always that you have to bring trouble into our lives because of your actions?" Rosalie was mad, always mad. Vanity was always behind it. Even now. She knows that I know what's really in her mind. Rose is beautiful, warm, a goddess. Something Rosalie sees herself as. Bella can't rival her, but in her mind…Rose is right next to her. Maybe even surpassed her.

"Does anyone beside Rosalie have a problem with me telling Rose about me?" I asked as I looked around the table. In their heads, they understand. Rose is somehow like us, she has secrets she needs to keep no matter what. Just like I do.

"I'm okay with whatever you decide sweetie" Esme said.

"Hey man, if this girl is what she says she is, maybe I just found a new sparring partner. Go for it bro" said Emmett.

"I can't see anything bad related to Rose. But that isn't for a lack of trying. For now I know she's ok here, with us. So I say go for it and we see what happens there" said Alice.

It worried me though, but I kind of understood why she can't see Rose in her visions. A half-breed must be difficult to pinpoint.

"I'm okay with the girl staying. As long as we're all safe, to me it's perfectly fine" I nod my thanks to Jasper.

"Carlisle" I said & turned to look at him.

He sighed. "I guess everyone else has made their decision?" He asked as he looked around the table.

They all nodded.

"If this is what you think is best. If you believe you can trust Rose with our secret…then I guess you can go ahead and resume with however you see fit"

"Are you serious Carlisle?" Rosalie said as she quickly stood up from her seat, flinging it across the room.

"Rosalie please" Carlisle said.

She shook her head. "NO! I'm sick of him all the time bringing new troubles into our lives! If it wasn't enough with Bella, now he has to bring another lowly human into our lives!" she shook her head and glared right at me. "I don't want to stop my life to protect & make another person's wishes come true when mine didn't!"

She stormed out of the room and Emmett followed right behind her. They were already across the river and disappearing into the woods.

I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. In a way she's right.

"She's right" I said. "I know where she's coming from. I know what she's lived through. But if I can help Rose…"

"It's ok Edward" Alice said. "she'll calm down and even though she won't like it" she shrugged. "it's your decision and she'll have to respect it"

"I know that Rose will be able to accept what I am because of the things she's lived, but at the same time I worry that she won't"

"Sweetie" Esme said as she came to stand behind me. "Rose…well there's something different about her, like she's going to change everything" she shook her head. "I don't know, but just believe me when I say that I know that we can trust her"

I nodded & even though in her head, I know what she was trying to say, I still didn't understand it.

"I'm going upstairs now," I sighed and stood up. "there's a lot for us to talk about"

Carlisle nodded and put his hand on my shoulder, squeezing gently. "We'll be right here if you need us Edward. And of course listening to every word" he smiled and I couldn't help but return a small one.

When I returned to my room, Rose was in the same spot before I went downstairs.

Her eyes were closed and she was breathing evenly. I don't know if she could hear me, or if she was asleep. But as I moved closer her body tensed and she flipped above me and grabbed my neck, ready to twist & kill me.

I almost didn't have time to move away, but when I did she landed a kick in my gut and sent my flying outside the window where I hit the cold wet grass.

What the hell?

I climbed back into my room and I didn't approach her and neither did my family - who were standing in my doorway- ready to attack in case anything else happened.

"Rose?"

She looked lost, dazed. Like she really wasn't there. I got another flash in my mind. Someone coming toward me & Rose was already trying to attack me but Jasper stopped her.

Was I getting glimpses from Rose's mind?

I could've sworn I couldn't read her just like I couldn't read Bella.

"Rose" I said as I stood in front of her. "Come on Rose. Look at me. Can you hear me?"

"Edward?" she whispered. Her eyes downcast.

I nodded. "Yeah, it's me Rose. Come on, look at me"

She looked up at me and then noticed that she was being held & was about to start fighting her way through it again but Jasper automatically let go before anything else could happen.

"What happened?" she looked scared, nervous. "Why were you restraining me?"

"Rose" Carlisle said as he slowly entered the room to come and stand in front of her. "Are you okay?" She nodded?

"What happened?" she asked.

"I don't know," I said. "do you remember anything?"

She shook her head.

"What happened to her Edward?"

I shook my head at Alice.

Because honestly I didn't know. It was like one minute she's here, but not really here. Her body's fighting, but her complete focus is on something else that isn't even in front of her to begin with.

Then with the other problem that it was her I was getting images from. that's another things I can't seem to understand. How is it that now, all of a sudden I'm able to get glimpses from Rose's mind?

I thought that she was somehow like Bella. Silent.

The fact that she's also another type of Vampire, led me to believe that I couldn't read her mind at all.

What is going on?

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