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Usual Disclaimer = RM + SM = Twilight & Vampire Academy

Chapter 14
A Look Into Me
A Look Into All of You

RPOV

Sitting here quietly, hearing the rain hit the ground, hitting the roof. It's soft, soothing. Unlike anything I've ever experienced before. I know that I can listen to the conversations downstairs if I wanted to. But it really wasn't any of my business. It wasn't my concern, even though I really wanted to know what Edward meant by saying that he wasn't normal.

I'm not normal, but I never once denied that. I'm anything but. I mean look at where I grew up! Look at how I grew up. There's absolutely nothing normal about me,

doesn't mean that I don't want to experience the 'normal' lifestyle.

I know that Edward can give me something to just graze the surface of normality.

I know I'm awake, I can feel everything around me. But I'm shifting again. Behind my closed eyes, I see another Strigoi trying to attack me, trying to get past my defenders and make their way to me…just like they did to my best friend.

I feel a presence coming closer to me, but I can't see them, even though I know my eyes are open, coming closer. Please! Someone save me before I end up like Rose did!

I get up and over whoever's approaching me and grab the neck, about to twist, knowing I have enough time to reach for my stake and plunge it deep in the heart. But it got away.

I knew where it was going anyway. These things were always predictable when they were newbies. Always thinking that because they were gifted with immortality, speed, and strength, that they could do as they please.

Not with me. Not anymore.

I kick the Strigoi right in the gut and I send it flying out the window and saw it land on the wet grass. But again I was too slow, it was already making its way back to try and continue this fight. But only, it didn't.

It stood there, looking at me. Waiting for something…or someone to help him out and finish me.

"Rose?"

Of course the thing knew my name, they all knew who I was. I made a name for myself in the Moroi world. They were always wanting two things. To turn me, or to kill me.

I couldn't allow either one. Not when I'm so close to getting what I want.

But before I could get a chance to attack, I hear someone calling out my name.

"Rose. Come on Rose. Look at me. Can you hear me?"

I blink a couple of times and I don't know what's real anymore.

I see Strigoi.

Then I see Edward.

Edward.

"Edward" I whispered. I look down at the floor, I'm barefoot.

"Yeah, it's me Rose. Come on look at me"

I looked up at him and I was actually happy to see him. I don't know what the hell happened, but he's here now, and I'm sure he'll be able to help me figure out what the hell is wrong with me. I was just about to reach out to him when I felt someone holding me from behind, and it's a pretty strong grip.

Why was I being restrained? I don't like being touched in any violent way, I get mad and with what just happened, I know I'll go back into that state where I don't know what I'm doing and I could end up hurting someone.

"What happened?" I asked. I was nervous, I was scared. Scared for the people in the room, scared for almost hurting Edward. "Why were you restraining me?"

And I ask in past tense because whoever it was automatically let go when they noticed I was already aware of their restraint on me.

"Rose" I turn to see Carlisle there in the doorway, making his way to stand in front of me. I see standing in the doorway, the other members of his family. Except the blonde, beautiful, pale girl who I saw earlier.

Rosalie. Yeah, that's what she said her name was. And the other guy, the one who looked like a big bear. Emmett.

Yeah. Where were they?

"Are you okay?" Carlisle asked.

I nodded. "What happened?"

"I don't know" said Edward. "Do you remember anything?"

I shook my head.

It was a total lie. I remember some things, but what can I tell them? I was completely awake, but I felt like I was in someone else's head. And no matter how scared I was, I was willing to not them take me. Even though, it really wasn't the real me?

It makes sense to me.

But will it make sense to other people?

To complete strangers, who even though I trust, I don't know the extent of?

No. I can trust them, but not enough. Not enough for them to not think I'm insane and throw me out.

"Are you sure?" Carlisle asked.

"Yes, I'm sure. I'm sorry if I harmed anyone in any way. I didn't know what I was doing"

Carlisle patted my shoulder and said, "It's okay Rose. But are you sure you're okay?"

I nodded. "Yes Carlisle. I'm fine, thank you"

He nodded his head and walked back to where the others were standing.

"We'll leave you two alone. Anything you need, don't hesitate to ask Rose"

"Thank you" I said.

I turned back to look at Edward. "Did I do anything? Did I hurt anyone?"

He looked sheepish, thoughtful. Like he didn't want to tell me something.

"You sort of did hurt someone but not in the way you think"

"What do you mean 'not in the way you think?'"

"Well, you did kick me out the window and I did land in the tree right outside my window"

I stared at him wide eyed. "I did what? How is it that you're still alive?"

"Well…see…there's something I want to tell you. Kind of a secret about me and my family"

"A secret?" I asked. He nodded. "About you and your family?" He nodded again.

"Is it good or bad?" I asked him.

"I think it depends on how you look at it?"

"How do you mean?"

"Well Bella, my girlfriend, she knows my secret, and for some unknown reason, it doesn't bother her"

"Well, you know some of my secrets, and it hasn't bothered you either. So maybe, this secret of yours won't bother me as much as you think"

"I hope not" he muttered. Mostly to himself.

"You can tell me anything Edward"

"I'm a vampire" he said quickly. Like ripping of the band-aid super fast so it didn't hurt as much.

I didn't know whether to laugh, or cry, or pass out. But then I realized I really couldn't do anything, because my body didn't want to move.

The words that came out of his mouth were "I'm a Vampire"

Now I don't know whether I was just imagining this, or if it's real…but, right now, all I want to do is act on instinct.

Very bad instinct.

My hand reacted on its own accord. I punched Edward in the face and he went flying about three feet away, crashing in the back of his sofa.

"What the hell Rose?"

I kept going. I kicked, I punched. He dodged. Really fast. I was in my own little world with him. Concentrating on him and only him. After the first punch, he hasn't let me land one single blow. He was as fast as I was. Or how fast he thought I was. I could always kick it up a notch. It was what they trained us for. Faster than something or someone that was faster than us.

And it surprised him. He was trying to keep up. I changed technique and he was blocking on a single whim.

"Don't come closer. Anybody!"

But he didn't say that to me. He was talking to the people standing at the door, watching me, watching us. Wanting to help Edward and he wouldn't let them. I know how I operate, I was trained to take on more than just one.

Faster.

Taller.

Stronger.

Just like the men who were standing by their women. Itching to help their 'brother'.

I think it's time I put a stop to this. Now.

I flipped over Edward. He thought he saw what was coming. But it really wasn't it.

I grabbed his neck in a chokehold, set on twisting it. I kneed the base of his spine and I know he was resisting.

"I know you don't feel any kind of pain, because of your hard body. But I know it hurts and that makes you wonder doesn't it?"

My voice was exactly hollow. Fearful to the ones who should fear it. Felt like Edward sort of did.

"If I keep pressing on the base of your spine, do you think you'll be able to heal? Or break?"

"Let me explain" he said.

"Explain what?" I growled. "That no matter where I go, there isn't going to be a 'normal life'? That I'll always be surrounded by creatures like you and live as some rogue warrior?" I yelled that last part, I couldn't take anymore of this shit.

This isn't the way I wanted to live my life, I thought I got away from everything that had to do with creatures of the night like Sydney called us. I thought I was free to finally have some kind of normality. Why is it that I always have to walk past unknown situations that kick me right back in?

"Just please let me explain" he said.

"Some of it makes sense now" I said. "The way I didn't hear Esme's heartbeat when I laid my head on her chest, your cold skin, your stealthy speed. I know I caught onto something. I was so blinded by my own issues, memory loss, to really see that in the end I never really got out of anything"

Some of what I said didn't make any sense. I know. But somehow it still surprises me. It always does.

I saw Emmett try and catch me off guard and I pressed a little bit more and I heard Edward hiss.

"No way big guy, back off or I will kill him"

"Rose," Carlisle said. "please. Just calm down. We won't hurt you or anything of the sort. Let's talk about this calmly and rationally"

"Rose, please help me"

What the hell was that?

"Rose, I need you. Please come. Please save me"

I know I'm not crazy. But someone's calling for me. Someone needs me.

That voice is familiar. An angel's voice. An angel I've dedicated my entire life too.

"I need you to try and come back to me. I need you so much"

My head's starting to hurt. I know if I don't act fast enough, ill lose consciousness. I had to block out that voice, I had to do it.

"Rose" the voice said in a whisper. Then it was gone.

"Did you know who I really was when you found me?" I asked him. Putting just a little more pressure around his neck.

"No," he said. "I didn't"

"Then why the hell didn't you just leave me out there? It would've been better for you, for your family, if I never showed up in your life"

"I couldn't leave you out there. I had to save you, I felt like I needed to save you"

"Your kind doesn't have any kind of feelings. You're almost like Strigoi. The immortality, the speed, the strength. You might as well just let me die then bring me here"

"Rose," Carlisle said in a soft voice. "please. You have to let us explain. We are nothing like those creatures you claim to hunt and kill"

"I don't believe you. I know all there is to know about monsters. I know what it's like to kill them, I know what it's like to be fed from them"

It's true. I did know what it was like to be fed from them. Strigoi & Moroi release endorphins into your bloodstream so you don't feel the pain of their bite. It's something you can get addicted to. You can ask the feeders that they have. Humans who volunteer to be the sustenance for the secret Moroi world. They go crazy when it's time for them to retire. They've become addicted beyond help by the endorphins. It's something I wouldn't wish on anyone.

The look of pity in Carlisle's eyes as well as Esme's hit me hard but I know I couldn't let it affect me. I know the Guardian in me wouldn't let the emotion burst through. We've been taught emotions don't matter. I know that for a while I can tug mine away.

"Rose" Esme said as she walked towards me. "you know I would never hurt you. I can't ever hurt you." she looked at me in a such a way. Like she knew who I was. Like she knew everything about me. Like she's known me forever.

"Esme" I said. "you don't know anything about me. You don't know who I am, or what I'm capable of. Just please step back. I don't want to hurt you"

"I know you won't hurt me Rosemarie"

Rosemarie?

"Why would you call me that name?"

"Because I know who you are Rosemarie"

I shook my head quickly. "No, I don't think you do Esme. Please" I said in a more pleading voice. "I really don't want to hurt you"

She nodded. "I know you don't honey. Just let go of Edward and I promise we'll talk. I'll tell you what you want to know and what I think you know"

I shook my head faster, putting more pressure on Edward. Hearing him hiss in pain, showing them how serious I really was.

But Esme didn't seem to be faltered by that. Like she really knew I wouldn't make the last step and snap Edward's head right off.

"Rose" Esme said in a small, melodious voice. "let go of Edward honey. It's all going to be alright"

I dropped Edward and Carlisle came to his side, and basically flitted to the couch. He was checking his body. Checking to see if there was any kind of damage. But I doubted it. Vampires have quick recovery.

"Don't touch me please" I said to Esme as she tried to put her hand on my shoulder. "I understand you mean well…" I sighed. "but don't touch me"

I looked at her briefly. My voice emotionless and hollow. I didn't have it in me to fight anymore, but I also didn't have it in me to stay here anymore.

"Edward" he looked up at me and I just looked over him one more time before I flipped out the window and started running deep into the woods.

"Rose!" Edward shouted, running right behind me.

I couldn't stay here anymore. No matter how right it felt.

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