Thanks a billion times for all the reviews and favorites! To those who asked not to kill Levi, rest assured, he won't die...yet. We are getting down to the serious business now (like we weren't already?)

So I read that Levi is like 34 and Erwin is around that same age, which is cool and all, but every one else is like 15-17 years old. I am not against people of certain age gaps hooking up and everything, but there is a limit that I am not comfortable with, so please, if you read this and you have a relationship with a large age gap, I am not judging you or calling you anything. I think I am going to get into more detail about Ingrid. I think it would be a good idea, because I want to do more writing with her and even if it isn't the same story line, the character will remain the same.

Name: Ingrid Yvette Ragard-Smith

Age: 18

Occupation: Survey Corps/Wife

Bio: Born into a wealthy family inside of Wall Sina, but very humble. She has long, wavy red hair and fair skin, with green eyes. She is small, but has slight curves. Her twin brother, Agnes, was killed when his legs were eaten by a titan and Ingrid falling onto him after being saved by Levi Ackerman. She had a long time crush on Erwin Smith, but was always planned to be married off for money and political reasons, so did not relay her feelings to him, though they were obvious. She became aware of Levi's affections for her earlier on, but did not reciprocate the feelings because of Erwin and that she would have an arranged marriage. After Agnes's death, she was sent home and to her surprise married to Erwin himself. He stated it was a 'favor' for her brother, when he actually didn't want her to be married to a rapist. She is one of the smaller in her squad and was good friends with Petra, Reiner, and Berthold. She believes that there is still some good in them, even after being revealed as the Armored and Colossal Titans. She feels distant from her squad, not very close to any one them, though since they are kind to her, she is kind to them as well.

She usually goes by Ingie or Vettie, the later used by her older brothers. Her mother and father are both deceased and her grandparents are estranged, though the ones who set up the arranged marriages.

"You're beautiful." She felt fingers run through her hair. Hot breath running over the skin of her neck. "You are my everything."

She knew that voice...and that touch. She opened her eyes and smiled gently. "Levi."

His eyes were soft as he caressed her cheek. "You brat, you slept for a while. You need to leave soon, every one will be getting up and I don't want to hear shitty glasses asking questions."

She looked around. They were in that house, right before she left. It was a memory...the last night they had together before she was sent away. "I almost want them to find us." She stretched, her back arching, making their bodies press together intimately. She heard his breath hitch and his grip on her hips tighten.

"You are asking for something you are not ready for." He whispered into her ear and a hot blush spread over her face.

She turned her head and looked at him. "I wish..." She stopped and sighed. "I offered."

He grunted and rolled off of her, sitting up and scratching the back of his neck. She watched him and slowly sat up herself. "Levi..."

"I love you."

She blinked and felt her heart flutter. "Wha-"

"I'm not repeating it, but that is why I will only kiss you. That doesn't make sense..." He covered his face with his hand.

She scooted closer to him, pressing her side to his. "If you try and tell me...maybe I will understand."

He sighed and let his hand slide down. "I don't want another man to ever have you. I want to, but..." He closed his eyes, as if searching for words. "I would be a bastard if I was to take something that was not mine. When you get married, if he finds out, I don't want to be responsible for what he might do to you. It's bad enough you're infertile, which I don't care about, but who's to say they won't beat you just because? I don't want to add fuel to the fire."

She stared at him sadly. It made sense and she was grateful, but sad, very sad. "They can have my body, they can hurt me, call me names, but they will never have my heart like you do."

His body relaxed slightly and his shoulders sagged. Was he sad? "And Erwin?" He looked at her, his face neutral.

She buried her head in her arms. "I will always love him, but love can change. I don't want him like I did before, but he still means a lot to me."

"So you promise, then."

She looked up at him in confusion, frowning slightly. "Promise?"

He turned and pulled her to him, pressing her back into his front, her face burned when she felt something hard. Her heart beat quickened. "I may not be able to have your body, but your heart will always be mine."

She reached up and entangled her fingers into his hair. "I swear."

She woke up gasping, her head pounding and her thoughts in a daze. Where was she? She was warm and on something soft. And there was a familiar scent.

Erwin.

Her eyes shot open and she looked to see a bloody Hange on her left and Erwin on her right, his hand gripping hers in a death grip. She looked around frantically. No...she was at home. In the basement, where it was dark and cool, but she recognized it. No one but her and Erwin knew it was there.

"Where is Levi?" She asked, trying to sit up. "Hange-"

"Stay down." Hange pushed her gently down and kept her hands on her shoulders. "He's alive, but barely. I got you two over the wall by the skin of my teeth. Erwin met me and carried you back here."

"Where is he?" She gasped, panic filling her features and chest. She had completely ignored Erwin and his grip on her hand.

Hange looked up and nodded to a bed on the other side of the room. "It missed his heart, but he lost so much blood. It also shattered a bone. We were in surgery for hours. He's lucky he's unconscious."

She looked over and saw Levi's body resting on a bed, torch light illuminating his features. He was so pale and sick looking, but his chest was moving up and down. She held back a sob. "My gear...my trigger, it didn't work. I-I fell and he-"

"Shh, Ingie, it's alright, it's not your fault." Erwin kneeled next to the bed. "You did very well."

She shook her head and laid an arm over her eyes to hide her tears. They would think her kind heart was to blame for her sadness, but truly she was scared for Levi. She didn't want to lose him.

"And you are very, very lucky. You only pulled a muscle in your stomach, twisted your ankle, and had a slight concussion. You passed out from the pain, but your body is making an impressive recovery." Hange said, sitting down in a chair next to the bed. "We brought you down here first. We are going to take you up to your room when you get a little better. Everyone was told you fell off a horse while visiting a family member with your brother out in those parts. No witnesses to say other wise." Hange's voice got dark at the end. They killed them all? It was morbid, but she was relieved.

"Hange will be leaving soon. It's too dangerous for her to stay here." Erwin explained. "The rest of them are in hiding outside of the wall. So far, there has been no chatter, other than a group of men haven't returned from the forest. We need to keep it that way."

"What about Le-"

"That is where you come in." Hange smiled wearily. "Sorry to have to do this, but you and the commander, mainly you, will have to take care of him until he can go back outside the wall. We are on stand down until then. We might even have to go into titan territory at this point. We have no choice..." She looked so tired and scared. It made Ingrid's tears flow more.

"Vettie..." Erwin cooed her childhood nickname. She hadn't heard it in so long she didn't know who he was referring to for a moment. "Shhh, this is not your fault." His fingers brushed her hair out of her face. His face hardened slightly. "He should have followed protocol and moved earlier."

He blamed Levi? She stared up at him with wide eyes and shock. "Wha-"

"You were not to fight and they were to move the day before. Hange said that they couldn't find a suitable place, so they didn't move right away, but the squad should have evacuated regardless." His voice was stern and Hange's head hung slightly.

"Commander, if I may." Hange stood up and nervously wrung her hands. "Most of the squad is suffering from exhaustion and injuries that haven't had time to heal. Captain Levi was just trying to keep us down as long as he could so we could be at our best. It's my fault, I sent him back to rest and lead the patrol myself with Mikasa and Jean, but I made a poor evaluation of the situation and perimeters. We could have avoided the whole situation if I thought through my actions as a squad leader." Hange was shaking slightly.

"Please, Erwin." Ingrid reached up and grabbed his hand. "They're exhausted and not in their right mind. No one is to blame. If Levi hadn't had come back, I wouldn't be here with minor injuries."

He stared down at her, his face softening slightly. "I see. I will discuss this with Hange before she leaves and when Levi wakes up, I will also have a discussion with him." His face turned serious again. "Though I am thankful for him saving your life, I need to make some things clear to him and I am surprised he disobeyed orders."

Hange shifted uncomfortably and looked away. Ingrid sighed and looked away. What did the commander expect? Her to be a walking target? Even if it was defective, her 3dmg saved her life.

"I will clean up and leave instructions for the captain's care. Ingrid, please rest a couple of days. You can move to your room, but do not do anything, please. We don't want that muscle getting worse." She smiled wearily and walked out of the room, silently closing the door.

Erwin let out a deep breath and looked back at her. "I am glad you're alright. When Hange scaled the wall with you and Levi, I thought the worst." He took a seat in the chair that Hange had previously occupied.

"Please don't be hard on them. They are barely making it out there as it is. They maybe soldiers, but they're humans too." She pleaded with him. "Levi has an eye injury and a shoulder issue. Plus, I think his leg never really got better. He was limping when he came back from patrols."

Erwin sat there with his calculating expression as usual. He was listening, she knew, but he was very, very angry. Her head pounded and she groaned slightly. She couldn't sleep again. Now that she was awake, she had to stay that way until her concussion was gone. She sighed and pulled the blanket tightly around her. Was the rest of the squad okay? Where were they now? What would happen if they went into titan territory? They could stay in the trees for a while, but their supplies would never last and the gas tanks would empty out in no time. They would be sitting bait. Unless there was an underground safe haven that Erwin had told her off. If not, she knew that they would be killed. The thought pained her heart.

"Did you ever receive my letter?"

She peeked from her cocoon and looked at Erwin, who was leaned forward, his one arm resting on his knee. She didn't like seeing him like this. "Yes, I did. Thank you. I wanted to write you back, but I thought minimal communication would be best."

He looked up at her and his face looked...old. No, tired. Tired and worn. He hadn't shaved and his usually perfectly parted and groomed hair was slightly messy. She liked the look. It made him seem more human to her. "I am so glad you are home."

She stared at him and felt that feeling of anger, sadness, and excitement come over her again. She always felt this way around him, ever since they got married. "Why? So I can mope around the house all day and stay here while my team mates die?" She was bitter, she knew.

His face twisted in emotions, though she wasn't sure which ones. "Mope? Do I really make you that miserable?" He asked earnestly.

She looked away from him and sagged into the bed. She would prefer her own, but she didn't want to leave Levi's side until he woke up. "It's hard to be some one's wife when they don't love you and when some one else holds your affections. I really wanted this, a long time ago, but you weren't the man I thought you were and my loved changed. You are dear to me, commander, but you turned me away for so long I moved on and now I can't have either of you."

"I wish I knew who held your heart. I would steal it back." He chuckled at his slight try at joking and stood up.

She blushed and gripped the blanket. "Why now?" She asked with urgency. "Explain, commander."

He frowned and clenched his right shoulder. He was thinking of what to say, she knew, but the pause infuriated her. He finally looked at her. "I guess I was to much of a moron to see what was being offered to me. When I finally had it, I turned you away. But when you left," He paused again. "I realized that you meant more to me than that little girl who followed me around all those years, trying so hard to grab my attention. You have no idea what kind of impact you have on other's lives."

She felt a sob well in her throat. That wasn't fair. She would still choose Levi, but Erwin, damn it all, was her husband. Marriage had never been a joke or some whim to her like the other girls. It was a commitment. She thought about kissing Levi in the castle basement and felt betrayal pour from her heart. She wanted that kiss, she wanted Levi, but she had Erwin and now, he wanted her?

"Please don't cry. I don't want to make you cry any more." He had sat on the bed and leaned over her and was stroking her face. "I will do everything in my power to make you happy from this day forward."

She didn't say anything. It was cruel. But whose fault was it? Levi's for falling in love with her? Erwin for realizing his feelings to late? Or her for moving on and finding that Levi had always been there for her and his love felt like heaven to her? No, it was all just a big mistake and no one was to blame. They were all just damned souls meant for misery. If she chose Levi, Erwin would lose her and if she chose Erwin, Levi's heart would break and she would live out her days pretending Erwin was him, just to get by. What kind of life was this? Why didn't Levi just let that titan eat her when she hovered over its mouth?

She felt lips on her cheek bones and the smell of aftershave wafted over her. He was kissing her? Her eyes flew open and looked at him in shock as his lips moved to her other cheek and finally her forehead. "Don't go to sleep, Vettie, but get some rest." He cupped her cheek and looked her over one more time before turning away from her and leaving the room. The silence fell heavy on her and her heart began to ache.

She was never going to find happiness in this life, she was sure of it now.

She didn't want to eat, no matter what Erwin threatened on her. She was upset.

He had moved her from the basement to their bed, despite her protests. She felt like she had left Levi to fend for himself, even though her staying down there didn't make any difference to his recovery, as of now.

Her brother Sergei and one of the younger ones, Maven, were standing there, looking at her with confused stares. Erwin sighed and looked at the two, who shrugged and continued to examine their sister.

"Vettie-" Maven sighed.

"I said that I wanted to stay down there. What if he wakes up and needs help? Who will be down there to help him?" She snapped at the 3 men. Her concussion had made her terribly irritable and she was unpleasant to be around, though Erwin was constantly trying to converse and keep her company. He needed to be giving orders to her squad, in her opinion and she told him so with not such kind words. They barely fazed him.

"We are checking up on him every half hour. He is fine. He woke up just enough today to drink water and broth. He will be fine. That is why we are here." Sergei tried to console his sister.

"What if Avery finds out?" She scowled at them.

Maven sneered at the name. "That piece of pig shit can rot in a gutter, for all I care. You leave it to us, Vettie, just please try to understand. You were in an accident, you fell off a horse, according to everyone else. If some one was to come see you, they very well couldn't go to the basement to visit with out finding the most wanted man by humanity."

He was right, she knew, but that didn't make her feel any better. She had been home for 2 days and she was sick of being in bed. She tried to get up earlier that day, but fell and the sound alerted Erwin. Now he had paper work on the small table in their room and he wouldn't leave her for more than a minute at a time. She sulked and felt the pain in her body over come her. They were right. She needed to calm down.

"I understand." She said quietly.

The 3 men exchanged looks and relief filled the room. At least for now she would be reasonable, but not with out some attitude. She was still terrified that she was going to lose Levi. His injuries were grave and it was a miracle he was still alive.

"Now, Erwin, Ingrid." Sergei took a deep breath and crossed his arms. "We need to speak." Erwin's face darkened and his lips thinned. It was never good when Sergei said those words. Sergei was kind, but honest.

Maven shifted beside him nervously. Maven was only 24 and he was learning the dark secrets of their family and their ties with politics and money. Sergei never wanted his hands in it, but he did it to keep him and his wife and children off the streets. He never had to worry about his children going hungry and that was important to him. Maven was expecting his first child soon and he had learned that you either got your hands dirty or starved. Ingrid felt for her brothers who only did things just so their families could live.

"Avery, Henry, and Williem have been making deals with the military police. I don't know if this includes information on the Survey Corps or if they know about Levi Ackerman, but they cannot be trusted. You have no idea how much money Avery made off this marriage and to ask you to act like you meant to marry each other is ludicrous to me." He looked at Ingrid. "Our grandparents have asked that the Smith name be passed on quickly, since he is the last and his genetics and attributes are, what they say, favorable. Even with him being the head of the Survey Corps, which is under ridicule right now, Erwin Smith is favored among many politicians and merchants. The Garrison Regiment also side with him. If anything were to happen, it would not be to this family. Regardless, they want to see the Smith name among our family tree."

The blood from her face drained and she knew exactly what he meant. It was violating to even hear it and Erwin's face displayed the same feelings. "And if we cannot provide a branch onto this 'tree'?"

Maven looked away from his sister and Sergei shook his head. "Avery has threatened to expose the Survey Corps missions outside of Wall Sina."

Ingrid felt like she was going to faint. When everything was so terrible already...it was her body! Her life! Why the hell did they have a say in what she did with it? Because the man you love counts on it. You blow it, he dies.

"I'm sorry Vettie, I really am. And to you too Erwin, this is not easy on either of you I suppose." Sergei hung his head. Ingrid could tell he was worn and emotionally detaching himself. He didn't want to feel the anger and disgust.

"So, they want me to pin their granddaughter to the bed, rape her until she becomes pregnant, and then make her carry a child 9 months and then raise it in this world we live in and under the circumstances I am under? She already has a death warrant on her head for just being my wife! Imagine if she became a mother of my children and they found out she was part of the missions out side of Wall Sina?" Erwin's voice hardly raised unless he was in battle, but his was sharp and angry.

"We don't want this either." Maven turned back around. "I wish...I wish Agnes was the one who had survived so Ingrid didn't have to live like this! This life is worth than death!" He covered his face, trembling at his confession. "How am I to look at my sister and promise I will do my brotherly duties while they demand her pain that I have to enforce?" He shook slightly.

Ingrid spaced out and pretended she could not hear them. She didn't want to hear them. She didn't want to hear Erwin's anger and Maven's torment or the way Sergei tried to remain her brother, but had become the monster that he had feared being. It suddenly became quiet and she knew that they were staring at her. She didn't let any emotions show. She didn't want them to try and comfort her or lie so she would feel better.

She couldn't stand the stares anymore. She looked at Erwin with hard eyes. "Erwin, the fact is, is that I am your wife. I am willing. You are the one who doesn't want me. Just do it when the doctor clears me and we will go from there."

Erwin's anger turned to her. "Absolut-"

"Coward." She spat the word at him, her mouth in a thin, hard line. Her brothers looked at one another and in silent agreement, decided to make their exit. They whispered their goodbyes and quickly left. Erwin stood like a statue, no hurt, anger, or digest on his face. Not even sadness. She didn't break the eye contact kept her face stern.

"Coward." He said softly. "Strange that finally I now hear it. I've always been one." He sat in the chair by her bedside and closed his eyes.

No, you weren't. This is the first time. "You know I'm right. Fuck morals at this point." She sighed. "You have better things to work on and when you get to it, you are a man. Men like sex and it relieves stress. It might help you."

He was looking at her with a strange glint in his eyes. Was he still conflicted or did he finally get that he was being to stubborn. "How do you know I like sex or that it will relieve my stress?"

She scoffed and rubbed her face. "I have, had 8 older brothers! They have children! My sister in law's are not afraid to talk about it because they like to embarrass me! What more do you want?" She felt another migraine come on.

"What about the man you love?"

She stopped and clenched her eyes shut. "I told you..." Her heart deflated, thinking about Levi's face when he found out or how he would react. They had both come to the realization that her body would not go to Levi, but that didn't make the sting to their relationship any less painful. "We couldn't, even if you hadn't had married me."

"Fine." His voice was sharp. "But we will do this my way. I have your consent, so perhaps I am being unreasonable. It would be dishonorable if you were a prostitute or another soldier, but, you are right. You are my wife."

"It's not like you are a virgin." She put a pillow over her head and sighed. She wanted to be with Levi. She felt the bed move and she moved the pillow from her face to see what Erwin was up to. He just laid there on his back, looking up at the ceiling above their bed. His face was neutral, but he also looked tired and worn.

"No, I must admit." He raised his brows. "I wonder how you know that."

She rolled on her side and hugged the pillow to her body. "Avery told me about when you graduated from training, he treated you to the brothel in Wall Maria before it fell."

"Why would he tell you that?" He looked confused and disgusted by the fact her brother would tell her those things.

"I told you, every one likes to embarrass me. I am basically immune to those things." She watched his chest rise and fall under his shirt. She wondered how his skin was going to feel against hers.

He turned his head towards her and just looked at her for a moment. She laid there, getting comfortable. She couldn't sleep, so she was assuming he was going to keep her awake with conversation, but she could close her eyes.

"Are you one?"

She opened her eyes. "Hm?"

He blinked slowly and just kept watching her. "Are you a virgin?"

She did blush this time. No one had ever asked. Levi assumed, but that is because he hadn't seen anyone favor her or her acting like she had done otherwise. He was her first kiss after all. She held the pillow tighter and looked away from him. "Yes, I am."

He almost looked disappointed, but she knew he was sad for her. "It is going to hurt." He said softly.

"I know."

He looked back up at the ceiling and closed his eyes, feeling the breeze from the window flow over them. It felt good and the air was sweet. She still loved the way he soaked up his surroundings and she was one of the few to see him like this. She still loved him. "Do you love me, Erwin?"

He smiled, as if waiting for the question. "How long have you been waiting to ask that?"

"Since you told me I was marrying you. I don't believe you did it as a 'favor'."

"No. You are right. I did it because I finally had a chance to have more. Afterwards, I realized it was a selfish and still unobtainable because you will go down with me too when they finally realize they have to kill me." He opened his eyes. "But even in this grotesque world we live in, I still dreamed about having a family of my own."

She felt a knot form in her throat. He needed to know, no, he had to know. She felt her heart pick up pace. No one else but Levi knew her secret. "Erwin..." Her voice trembled and betrayed her.

He frowned and looked at her, recognizing the sadness in her voice. "Ingrid, I promise, I won't let any one hurt you or our children."

She felt the tears well up in her eyes. He rolled on his side and placed a hand on her cheek. "I said I didn't want to see those tears anymore, I meant it. Please."

"There won't be any children." She croaked and looked at him with teary eyes. "I'm sorry."

He stared at her, the look of confusion and concern written all over. She tossed the pillow and pulled herself to his chest, pressing her face into it. Nothing about Erwin was soft, but the smell of him comforted her slightly. "I can't have children."

She listened to him breath and his heart beat. She wanted Levi to wake up, to take her away from here, to destroy all the titans so they could run away. She would do it, but she also wanted Erwin to wrap his arm around her and soothe her agony. She wanted them both.

"Vettie." His voice rumbled in his chest and she felt his arm go around her and pull her closer. She looked up and realized that they were mere inches from each other's faces. His breath rolled over her face like a warm breeze and she felt goose-flesh rise on her arms. Her breasts, covered by a night-gown that was slightly to sheer, betrayed her when her nipples erected against his chest. He had noticed, she knew when he pressed her harder against him. "I can't either."

She blinked, surprised at the confession, but relieved. He knew it would never happen, even though he acted like there was a chance. "My head feels better." Her mouth felt dry. "I can't go to sleep."

She was betraying Levi and it made her heart hurt, but if she didn't, it would ruin everything they had worked so hard for and Erwin's death would be sealed. She saw his eyes darken and his body tensed. He still didn't want to do it. She bit her lip and moved to go back to her side of the bed. A firm arm stopped her and she had little time to response when his lips where on hers. She squeaked in surprise, but quickly wrapped her arms around him. Even with one arm, he was strong.

He pulled away for a moment. "Please tell me I am not raping you. I would throw myself over the wall." His voice was husky and she felt her belly warm slightly.

"I want this." She didn't know if she was lying anymore.

Okay! So sorry that took so long and this really is such a weird story. Thank you all for the reviews and follows and favorites! It means so much to me! I am sorry for any mistakes. I had to do this on my phone and damn auto correct. On a side note, I just read chapter 60 of the manga and now I don't know how my story will go with it. I am upset about the whole Erwin thing.

Tell me how you feel about this triangle. Who should she pick?

-Jane