I really need to get my booty on this. I am writing two stories at a time and I keep getting writer's block on this one. I know how I want it to go, but I have to get point A to point B and for some reason, it's just not working for me. So many apologies if the next few chapters seem sloppy.

And if you have been wondering what Ingrid looks like, here you go: art/SnK-OC-Ingrid-Ragard-Smith-491130707

There was no coffee in the morning and there was no Erwin either.

Ingrid sat on the edge of the bed, her hair going in many directions. Levi was going to be leaving soon. He wasn't going to stay down forever.

She stood up, straightening her night-gown. She would put on different clothes, but she really didn't have the wanton too. She then combed her hair to the side and braided it, remembering the compliment Levi gave her. It was also more convenient as it kept her hair out of the way.

She walked to the kitchen, looking for something to cook the captain for breakfast. He was hungry, she was sure. She made coffee and eggs, lightly buttering the toast as she knew he liked it. For some reason, making him breakfast made her very giddy inside. It was like she was making breakfast for her hus-

She sighed. Way to ruin one's thoughts.

Erwin's confession didn't bring her any relief. It made her mind foggy and her heart conflicted. She had always dreamed of being by Erwin's side, but now...some times it was easier to be by Levi's. But there was also the fact that her and Erwin had consummated their marriage. She groaned. Men confused her.

Grabbing the tray, she headed towards the basement door, trying to brighten herself up. If Levi saw her expression, he would ask about it. She didn't want a somber morning with him.

When she got close to the room Levi was being held in, she heard voices.

"This will be the rendezvous site and here will be where everything happens. We need to work fast and keep it clean as possible." It was Hange. Ingrid slipped back into the darkness slightly.

"I need to get back in the field immediately." The voice belonged to Levi.

"No one is disagreeing with you, Levi, but the fact is, is that you are severely injured and will be of no use. It is better to stay here and get better. A couple of days can make a difference." Ingrid peeked around the corner, seeing Hange and Erwin talking to the captain on the bed. His face twisted into a frown. "We're not asking you to like it."

The captain looked up and saw Ingrid's head. His mouth twitched down in disapproval. "You're being reckless Erwin. You are not only putting yourself in danger by harboring a refugee, but you are also putting Ingrid and her family's life in danger."

She couldn't see his face, but Ingrid knew that Erwin's expression was not a cheery one. "Yes. Sacrifices-"

"Are you going to be able to live with yourself when they kill her because it tickles their fancy?" This was the first time that she heard Levi get angry with Erwin.

Ingrid didn't want to hear the answer and turned to walk back up the stairs. "Ingrid! What are you doing there! How are you?"

She froze, her blood turning cold. Hange had noticed her and grabbed her shoulders in a side hug. Ingrid smiled sheepishly. "Hello."

"Ah! That smells good." Hange looked like she was going to grab the food from her. Erwin had stood to face them. He didn't seem to pleased by the interruption.

"Um, I didn't know you guys where here so I brought Le-Captain Levi his breakfast and coffee." She shuffled awkwardly in between Hange and Erwin, making it over to Levi's bed side.

"Tch." He crossed his arms, not looking at her. She knew he wasn't mad at her, but it hurt none the less. She smiled and held out the coffee to him. He took it from her, his fingers brushing her's. She ignored it and left the food by the bed. "Thank you. I'm not your captain any more, so no need for the formality."

She nodded quietly and then looked at Erwin. "I'll make you and Hange breakfast too. I thought you were out." She stated before turning to leave. Erwin caught her wrist.

"Don't tire yourself. I already ate and Hange is about to leave. It is best if she isn't seen here." He said softly, grip loose around her wrist. A hot blush spread over her cheeks when he brushed his lips against the back of her hand.

"Erwin."

Ingrid looked to see Levi's seething face on the bed and she suddenly felt the tension rise. She nodded one more time before she raced out of the room, Hange on her trail. Once up the stairs, Ingrid placed a hand on her chest and leaned against the wall. The look on their faces...did Erwin know Levi's feeling and did Levi feel betrayal at seeing the hand kiss? Or was it jealousy?

Hange closed the door and sighed. "I wouldn't mind a quick cup of coffee, if that is alright with you."

She nodded, offering a small smile and leading Hange to the kitchen. Ingrid took a seat at the table after making sure some bread and butter, along with fruit, was in Hange's reach. She wasn't going to let her guest leave hungry. Hange helped herself to the pot of coffee, filling a mug to the brim. She emptied part of it just to move with out spilling.

"Are they fighting?" Ingrid asked in a small voice, feeling guilt and dread.

Hange shrugged, sitting down across from her. "They don't always get a long. Levi is quite jealous of Erwin some times."

Ingrid's head snapped up, looking at the older woman with wide, terrified eyes. "Jealous?"

Hange smiled, but it was a sad one. "Yes. Some of us have privately vowed against romantic relationships because of the turmoil they could cause upon our partners. Now Erwin has a lovely home, with a little wife, and a chance at having a family. I mean, I am jealous of you, but I am not taking it out on you like Levi is on Erwin."

She couldn't make eye contact with the woman, her guilt growing more heavy. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be! We made this choice and I for one, do not regret it. I think not being in a romantic scenario cuts out a lot of stress in my life. I mean, I can't worry about the love of my life being eaten while I am trying to capture a beautiful titan." The look on Hange's face when she said 'beautiful titan' was one she saw on children with their faces plastered to the windows at bakeries. She didn't like that Hange referred to the titans are 'beautiful', but it didn't surprise her.

"I didn't know Levi was that jealous." Ingrid looked out the window, holding back her tears. She had to figure out what she wanted, who she wanted, for both their sakes.

"Let's just hope Erwin doesn't catch on."

Ingrid looked up at Hange with wide eyes, her heart jumping into her throat. She knew. How long did she know?

"I better go, like Erwin said, it's not a good idea for me to be hanging about." Hange downed her coffee and stood. Before she walked out the door, she looked back at Ingrid. "Take care of them. They're good men."

Sleep didn't come easily. Her mind never stopped. Could she really make a decision like that? She mulled over both men, taking in both of their feelings. Despite how things appeared, she did care about how her decision would hurt either men.

Erwin had been her life long dream. He was tall, handsome, extremely intelligent, and devoted to his cause. He was also understanding. According to him, he loved her for a long time. And he was her husband. A man she was bound to through a contract, one he held dear.

Levi was talented, stong, couragous. And he loved her and he wasn't afraid to say it.

We are never going to let you go. Levi's words repeated in her head.

I am a horrible woman. She sat up, looking at Erwin before slipping out of their bed and room.

If she couldn't have one or the other, she was sure, she didn't deserve either of them. She couldn't avoid Erwin, but she could end her relationships.

Is this the right thing to do, Agnes? For some stupid reason, she actually expected an answer. Disappointment set in when she didn't hear one.

Opening Levi's door, she was surprised to see him standing, clothed, and moving around. He turned when she shut the door behind her. He barely acknowledged her.

She looked down at the stone floor, not sure if she could really face him. He wasn't happy to see her, she knew. But she had to...

"I'm leaving." She looked up to see Levi pull a coat on, but not without clenching his teeth. She hurried over and stopped him, afraid he would reopen his wound. He stepped back from her, brushing her off. "I'm fine. Go back to bed."

"You're lying." She grabbed his good arm. He frowned at her. "Levi, I know you're mad at me, but please don't be risking your life, this isn't like you!"

He yanked his arm away from her. "You don't know anything about me."

She stepped back as if he hit her. She felt her frustration hit its breaking point. "Yeah, I know. So get mad at me and storm out because I didn't smack my husband's hand. Be jealous, act like a pompous ass!"

He stared at her with his trade mark expressionless face. He turned away from her again. "You have no idea what it is doing to me, the way you touch him. You made your choice I take it?"

She shook her head, tears rolling down her face. He was sure making it easy though. "I am not having any relations until I do."

"Fine by me." He stood next to her, facing the door. "Have a nice life, Ingrid."

She bit back a sob and turned back towards the door. Maybe the pain in his shoulder was making him feel really irratable. This was so unlike him to be so...childish. "Levi...why are you...what is-"

"I don't agree with it." A voice said behind her.

She turned on her heels, her heart skipping a beat when she say a disheveled Erwin in the door way. Her mouth went dry. "Erwin..."

He smiled tiredly at her, his eyes relaying a sadness. "I figured you would come down here." Her lip quivered as she looked to Levi. He was staring at her, his eyes hard, mouth in a thin line. "I've known for a long time. I wanted you to figure it out for your own sake, so you could have a choice, for once." Erwin stood beside her also looking at Levi. "Though I wish you weren't so sour with her, Levi."

Levi kept looking at Ingrid, his eyes boring holes into her heart. "Levi..."

"Apologies. I will take my leave." He grumbled as he passed them, his jaw set and his movements quick. Ingrid went to reach for him, but he avoided her, quickly leaving the room.

She couldn't put down her hand and the hurt expression she had didn't fade. He was gone. He left her. But wasn't she going to do the same? Shouldn't she be relieved that she didn't have to choose any more? She turned on Erwin. "What did you do?"

He seemed shocked by her accusation. "I didn't do anything."

"Bullshit! Tell me Erwin, what did you do to him? Were you so impatient that you made up my mind for me?" She gripped the front of her dress, trying to suppress her shaking hands. "Now he's gone."

Erwin stood there quietly, allowing her sobs to fill the room. This was not what she wanted. It wasn't supposed to happen like this. "Vettie. He is one of humanity's greatest hopes. He can't be worrying about a woman waiting for him. I'm sorry, but truly, it is for the best."

She raised her head and sent him a glare. "So that is why he was trying to hurt me? Was that why he was acting like that? Because you put that into his head? You didn't want me to figure it out for myself, you just wanted to make the decision easier for me. No one deserves to be alone Erwin, no one! So stop saying it was for humanity's sake when really you were just jealous!" She turned and ran out the door.

Running was hard. Her feet fumbled over each other as she tried to chase down the raven haired man. "Levi!" Bursting out of the basement, she made her way to the back door. "Levi! Wait!" She shouldered the door and stumbled into the night air. No one was there. "Levi!" She turned around in circles, but she knew he wasn't there. He was gone. She fell to her knees, tears blinding her. "Don't leave me..." She groaned. It was really was she deserved, she thought, but the pain didn't go away. Only more tears fell down her face as she gasped for air. She fell to her knees, her hands covering her face.

He was gone.

Arg, kind of disappointed in myself. This isn't very long. I am writing another SnK fanfic and I keep switching back and forth. It is becoming the challenge. I also found I use pronouns a lot...so go me?

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-Jane