HSWC Bonus Round 2

by spockandawe

All my written fills for the first bonus round of the 2014 HSWC. Some of these go into potentially upsetting topics, but relevant warnings for each of the stories are listed in the notes at the beginning of each chapter. These prompts took the form of non-English words with no direct English parallels.

22. Aradia-Sollux (Flushed)

Aradia/Sollux: Lebensmüde Sein (German), Life-Tired, Having Lost All Joy In Living

Warning for discussion of death and depression in this story

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apocalypseArisen [AA] began trolling twinArmageddons [TA]

AA: hell0 s0llux
TA: iit2 real funny how ii blocked you and ba2iically begged you two leave me alone and yet here you are
TA: ju2t look at how 2urprii2ed ii am
AA: it was necessary t0 talk t0 y0u
TA: 2iince youre pretty much nothiing liike how you u2ed two be ii gue22 ii 2hould clariify that ii meant funny iin the 2en2e of 'the oppo2iite of funny'
TA: kk 2ay2 ii 2hould try two iignore you
TA: ii thiink iim goiing two do that 2tarting now
TA: have fun talkiing two a blank 2creen
AA: i realize that this has n0t been easy f0r y0u
AA: and these struggles were n0t s0mething i ever wished t0 inflict 0n y0u
AA: i did n0t understand myself until after my death had passed
AA: if i had n0t died
AA: we w0uld lack critical insights that are necessary f0r the c0ntinued survival 0f 0ur race
AA: and the meth0d of my death was as it had t0 be
AA: i d0 kn0w that this is n0t c0mf0rting t0 y0u
AA: but c0mf0rting is n0t the same as imp0rtant
AA: s0llux
AA: y0u may blame y0urself f0r my death
AA: i wish that was n0t the case
AA: but there are f0rces at w0rk here that are m0ving inex0rably f0rward
AA: my death was a key p0int that all0ws us the chance t0 succeed
AA: any my life w0uld have d00med us t0 failure and 0bliterati0n
AA: y0u say that i am changed
AA: and that y0u are changed
AA: but i kn0w y0u
AA: as i have always kn0wn y0u
AA: y0u are reading these messages and y0u must understand what i am trying t0 tell y0u
AA: i d0 n0t enj0y making y0u suffer
AA: but y0u must rec0ver and c0ntinue t0 m0ve f0rward
AA: as my death was necessary
AA: it is als0 necessary that y0u f0rgive y0urself and c0ntinue with y0ur life
AA: with0ut y0ur assistance i am unable t0 acc0mplish everything that must be d0ne
AA: y0u and i must w0rk t0gether
AA: i am s0rry
AA: s0 s0rry
AA: but y0u must either blame y0urself f0r my death al0ne
AA: 0r accept resp0nsibility f0r the destructi0n 0f 0ur entire race
AA: it is n0t a ch0ice ever i wished t0 inflict 0n y0u
AA: but it is necessary f0r y0u t0 f0rgive y0urself and take j0y in life again

twinArmageddons [TA] has blocked apocalypseArisen [AA]

AA: i will speak t0 y0u again s00n