Waaaarning, non-consensual sex is coming in the last part of this chapter.

CHAPTER 9

"Didn't I tell you not to open your eyes yet, brat?"

"You did,"

"Then stop trying to peak through the scarf!" He scolded me, hitting me gently on the back of my head. I cringed, yet still laughing.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" I chuckled, trying to keep my eyes completely closed. It was hard, when I was so intrigued to what surprise was waiting for me ahead.

"I almost can't keep myself contained!" I laughed, jumping up and down like a child.

"I wanna take it off! When can I?"

I could imagine Levi rolling his eyes annoyed at me, but I didn't care.

"Alright alright, take it easy," He stood on his toes, as he reached over to remove the scarf.

I blinked a couple of times, making my eyes known to the new surroundings.

It was Hanji and Levi's livingroom, that much I understood. The rest had changed. He had moved the whole couch, to make room for the huge spot on the floor that was filled with duvets, blankets and pillows. There where hanging small lights all around the wall, making it look like the sky with stars. There was popcorn and red wine on the floor in front of it all, facing the huge television screen.

"This looks … Amazing,"

I wasn't exactly sure how to react properly, so I just kept smiling like an idiot. Levi grabbed my hand, leading the way to where we were supposed to lie. It looked like there was at least half a dozen blankets, but it was still rather comfortable when I lay down on them.

Levi turned the TV on, grabbing the remote so he could control it from my side. He fell gracefully down beside me, and I leaned forward for a few seconds, so he could put an arm around me.

"This is so nice. Is there a special reason to why, or … ?" I looked at him with an inquiring look on my face, but he wasn't paying attention.

"No," He said, distracted by the TV. "I just wanted to do something that you liked doing,"

I put an arm loosely on his stomach, and snuggled into his side, placing my head on his chest.

"Mmmh," I said, clearly showing my enjoyment. "This is just what I wanted,"

"I'm glad," He mumbled, before putting down the remote. The movie began, and we started focusing on it.

The main theme was romance, which surprised me. Levi absolutely hated those movies, so it was impressive that he had chosen to watch that.

Halfway through the movie though, he started to lose interest, and started playing with my hair instead.

I had just taken a shower a few hours before, since I knew how important cleanliness was to him. He pressed his nose into my locks of hair, and took a long sniff.

"You smell good," He whispered and squeezed my shoulder lightly. I chuckled, pleased with his reaction.

"Well, I bought a new shampoo," I laughed, suddenly realizing how silly it sounded.

"Seriously?"

"There's no need to sound so surprised! I have a good hygiene, you know," I said, pushing him as I started to pout. "Your hygiene just overshadows mine sometimes, so it seems like I am more dirty than you!"

I pushed out my bottom lip further to sulk even more, but he just ignored me.

"You are dirtier than me," He said teasingly, kissing my hair. It tickled, forcing me to strangle a giggle in my throat.

"Let it go already," I answered, rolling my eyes, before looking up at him.

I wasn't paying attention to the movie either anymore, though I could lightly hear the music in the background.

"Mmmh, fine … If you promise always to smell like this,"

I laughed again, raising my head again to quickly press my lips against his.

"I don't think I'll mind that at all," I mumbled, smiling.

Levi grabbed my neck, stopping me from resting my head against his chest again.

"Good," He mumbled against my lips, kissing me more intensely this time. I lazily kissed him back, feeling like I was in a dreamy state of mind.

"Thank you for this," I whispered, my cheeks flustering with happiness. "You did all of this for me,"

He shrugged.

"I want to make you happy, Eren,"

He started kissing my cheeks and forehead.

"I want to make up for everything that I did to you in the past,"

His voice sounded sad, but I couldn't see his face anymore, so I wasn't sure which emotion he was feeling.

"You've already done enough, Levi. I don't blame you anymore," I tried to sit up, but his grip on my body tightened, holding me in place.

"I want to know everything about you … What you've been doing since then, what you've experienced, everything … "

I shivered by his touches and kisses, and the rest of my body slowly started to react to him. It distracted my thoughts, yet I was still able to feel like he was fishing after something certain.

"Do you have something in mind?" I mumbled, my breath getting a little heavier.

"Well, there has been something that I've been thinking about … "

The distraction was gone, and I focused entirely on his face.

"What?"

He didn't notice, instead he just moved on top of me, not stopping the kisses.

"I want for you to be mine, and I want to be yours, but – " His words disappeared when he bit my bottom lip gently. "I want to respect your wishes as well. I don't want to force you to do anything that you don't wanna do … "

His words trailed off, and he finally stopped kissing me. I looked at him, finally able to think – I wasn't able to do so, when he started doing those things. I sucked in a lot of air before finally being able to understand what his words meant.

"... What? You're not forcing me to do anything," I stated, a bit confused though. I wasn't quite sure what he was actually saying.

Levi lifted his body up from mine, though still hovering over me. His eyes didn't leave mine.

"I mean that I don't want to pressure you into it, if you're not ready for it. We can take it slow if you want to. I just want to be your first," He let his fingers glide over my chin, smiling.

I, on the other side, was starting to get very confused.

"My first what?"

"You know … "

He started noticing my reaction, and furrowed his eyebrows.

"I don't mind you being a virgin, so if you're afraid that – "

"What?!" I yelled out in surprise. "What the hell are you talking about? I'm not a virgin,"

Levi's eyes flickered with confusement.

"Hey, it's okay. I won't judge you for it," He quickly said, before sitting up. I sat up as well, so he ended up in my lap.

"Levi, I've had sex before!" I cried out, desperate for him to understand. This was so embarassing. Had he really thought that about me all this time?

"Then …. Then why …." Levi was clearly at a loss for words. He just sat there, staring at me. His face revealed to me, that he had then realised something. "Oh well, having sex with a girl is a different experience than with a guy," He said with a shrug, as if it wasn't a big deal.

I facepalmed myself out of pure frustration.

"Just stop talking!" I put a hand over his mouth, making him look at me with confused eyes.

"You seem to forget that I realised that I was into boys long before you did. I've had sex before, with guys, so stop saying that I'm a virgin!"

I sighed, removing my hand from his mouth again.

"I want to have sex with you, Levi … " I continued, but now my voice was lower and more gentle. "I really do, but … "

I had to look away, when the memories rush back into my mind.

"I-I just … I've had some bad experiences as well." I thought that this was the best way to describe it to him. I wasn't ready to tell him everything yet, and I certainly didn't want to ruin the mood completely.

"I just can't seem to get them out of my mind, when you start doing … Stuff,"

I looked down at my hands that were resting on his thigh, afraid to look him in the eyes. He probably needed time to completely understand what I had just revealed to him.

I felt his eyes on me, but he didn't say a word.

We sat in silence for a long moment, before he gently grabbed my hand. He lifted it up to his lips, and kissed the back of my hand slowly.

"It's okay, Eren. I won't hurt you. I could never hurt you,"

The words brought tears to my eyes, making me lift them to meet his.

"I-I know," I mumbled, trying to breath regularly. "I just … Can we …"

"We'll take it slow then. You can just tell me to stop, if it gets too much,"

I nodded, knowing that I wasn't able to get any more words out of my mouth. We both stood up, and he grabbed my hand, leading both of us into the bedroom.

It definitely felt like the first time, since I couldn't shake off the nervousness.

He stopped in front of the bed, and turned around to look at me. I blushed immidiately, feeling rather insecure and vulnerable.

Instead of pushing me down onto the bed, he just pulled me closer, placing his hands on my hips. My own hands started moving on their own, automatically placing themselves around his shoulders.

I started to feel more comfortable, when he pressed his body against mine, as I could almost taste the familiar smell of him. His body was warm, and my head slowly dropped down to get closer to his.

When the tip of my nose touched his, I turned my head sideways to make more space. Once he had done the same thing, his lips finally met mine in a slow kiss. We followed each others movements as if we had done it for years, making it easy and sweet. Levi realised this as well, as I could feel him slowly speeding up the process, putting more emotion into it.

I had never felt him do something like that before, and it gave me an unknown feeling, like a knot in my stomach – only, it didn't hurt.

I moaned lowly into his mouth, coaxing it open to let my tongue in. He welcomed it, letting me take the lead for the first time.

Getting more excited because of this, I pulled him even closer, my arms tightening around him. I felt my heart beat faster, when his hands started gliding up under my shirt. His fingers running over my skin made me shiver, and I broke the kiss to fill my lungs with air again. He stopped his hands, looking at me patiently.

He was so … Caring. I had never realised how sweet he could actually be.

I wanted to tell him that I felt safe with him, that he didn't need to worry. But since the words didn't want to form in my mouth, I showed it the only way I knew I could.

My mouth seeked down, starting to kiss his neck gently. My tongue started licking his soft, delicate skin and I could hear how he tried to stop himself from moaning.

His hands started moving again, but this time they were deliberately grabbing the end of my shirt, and pulling it upwards. I stopped and lifted my arms so he could take it off me, and he quickly threw it on the floor before giving me all his attention again. Our lips met again, but this time it was more sloppy since we both were focusing on other things. I was fighting with the zipper of Levi's pants, while his hands had slided down to squeeze my ass. It had surprised me, and like a reflect, my hips thrusted forward, pressing my lower body against his. At this point, we were both already hard, so the collision made us both let out a cry of pleasure.

"What happened to taking it slow?" Levi said, gasping for air. I chuckled lightly, kissing his collarbone.

"I'll promise to say stop, if it gets out of hand. Right now though, I'm not really worried,"

"Well, you should be," He teased, smirking at me. Levi raised and eyebrow, challenging me.

"Oh yeah? And why is that?"

I finally got his pants unbuttoned and his zipper down, making me able to grab his underpants and pull him towards me.

"You have no idea how good I actually am in bed," He said confident, and before I could do anything else, he pushed me down into the bed.

"Please, please, please," I kept saying, just like a broken record, repeating it over and over again. His hands had grabbed both of my wrists, holding me down on my stomach. I gasped for air, turning my head to the side to make it easier to breathe.

"Be quiet, Eren," He whispered into my ear, before biting the bottom part of it. I whinced by the touch, burying my head into the sheets one more time.

My whole shivered, and I could feel how his hand was sliding all over my ass, squeezing it.

"You like that, don't you?"

His voice was far away from my head again, making it possible for me to turn my head once more to breathe properly. I could see him from the corner of my eye, the clear lust in his face. I felt how his eyes were all over my naked body, like he wanted to eat me.

"N-No," I said, still panting since I wasn't able to control my breathing at all.

"Oh really? That's funny, since you like boys. Or do you only want to screw your teacher? So dirty, you are ... You're almost begging for this,"

"I-I'm not!" I exclaimed, though not really sounding very convincing. I meant it though.

"You are … And you like this. Admit it,"

"N-No," I repeated, closing my eyes. I felt his hand sliding down between my buttocks, caressing the sensitive skin around my entrance.

"You're saying no, but your body is telling a whole different story,"

He pressed his finger in, but since it hadn't been lubricated at all, it was nothing but uncomfortable and painful for me.

"Stop it, you're hurting me," I cried out, feeling the tears appearing in the corner of my eyes.

He didn't asnwer this time, he just kept thrusting it in. When he pushed in another finger, I let out a loud scream.

"Shut up, or you'll wake her,"

"Her?" I said in confusement, before realising what he was talking about. "B-But she isn't home … "

"Oh yeah, that's right," He said, pulling out the fingers and releasing my wrists. "I guess you can scream all you want then,"

Finally free, I quickly pressed my palms against the sheet to pull myself up. He had already gotten on top of me though, his weight holding me down.

"This … " I said, still fighting. "This is wrong!"

"Yet you still want it,"

"I don't," I said, clenching my jaw. I felt my strength coming back though, I just needed to push a little harder …

I wriggled him off me, and then got up to my knees. As I started to crawl away, I felt his hands grabbing my hips and yanking me back to him.

"I don't want this! Stop it!" I started yelling, hardening my grip on the edge of the bed.

"Eren,"

At that point, I felt something hard against me. My whole body froze in horror for only one second, but that was the only second he needed.

He thrusted himself inside me with incredible force, and I let out a cry. The tears ran down my face as I starting screaming.

The pain was everywhere, overwhelming me.

"Please, no! No!"

My mouth had opened, letting out a mix of panting and crying.

It hurt so bad.

"Please stop Dad!"

Poor Eren!

Did you see that one coming? Let's make this very clear: The last part was a memory of Erens - it WAS NOT Levi doing it! It was his dad!

Ow, It was so horrible to write that. Especially because it was so fun and sweet to write the whole scene with Eren and Levi that came before that one. :(

Oh well ... Stay lovely, people! Remember to leave a review to let me know what you think xoxo