Padmé and Anakin:
I cannot sleep at night. I cannot stop thinking of the… wonderful, if forbidden kiss Anakin and I shared. He kissed me!
And I kissed him back… only to pull away. I cannot allow him to do so again. He swore an oath to the Jedi Order. Anakin's dream since he was a boy was to become a Jedi Knight. I cannot allow him to risk his dream… to instead follow his heart.
I turn over, thinking of the night spent in conversation in the lake house before we left to find Shmi. He proclaimed his love for me in no uncertain terms, yet I rejected his advances. He cannot love me… Jedi are forbidden to form attachments.
And I am a politician. I have a duty to help him stay on the Jedi pathway, even if it breaks my heart. One thing we have in common is our desire to help those who cannot defend themselves.
Only, Ani fights the physical battlefield, whereas I fight in the Senatorial arena. It could not possibly work.
And yet a small sliver of me- or perhaps not so small anymore- considers his proposal. Maybe it could work, if we kept it secret. I touch my lips as they tingle from the memory of Anakin's lips brushing mine.
His touch is gentle at first… caressing like a feather. But then his kiss deepens as I give in to my baser desires. Fire surged through my veins as his obvious love for me washes through me. Of course, it doesn't help that Ani is physically attractive.
That is an understatement. Anakin is gorgeous… and he only gets better looking with age. I place the tips of my fingers to my mouth, only mildly surprised to discover that I can feel a phantom of Anakin's kiss.
To discover that all I would have to do to satiate my… need… for Anakin's love again is to walk to the cockpit and settle into his lap.
And I know… I know that I love Anakin. But as we head for Geonosis, I realize that I must put aside my carnal desires for the greater good once again. Obi Wan needs our help.
Then, once things have settled down, maybe Anakin could kiss me again… only in a more intimate setting.
Yes, that should do quite nicely. Geonosis isn't that populated, what could go wrong? This should be a simple rescue operation.
Nothing could go wrong indeed, and I will proclaim my love for Ani when we're done with this whole mess.
