Author Notes- I'm sorry the updates on this are kind of slow, I'm just struggling balancing school and writing. (Also, this chapter is kind of short. Sorry about that.)
-Chapter 9-
Holy Roman Empire watched as Prussia ran outside as Spain screamed while cradling Romano's unmoving body, "Heilige Scheiße! I-I'll call for an ambulance!" Prussia shouted in panic. Holy Roman Empire covered his mouth in horror, he walked over to Italy who still stood by the door way with his eyes tightly shut. He had no idea what to say, if there was anything he could say to make things better. He turned his head to Germany who was rushing out of the living room confused and scared of whatever is happening. Holy Rome took a deep breath, or at least tried to, since his lungs haven't functioning since his death. It always frustrated him whenever these things happen, due to the fact that he can't really do anything about them.
"Italy..." Germany hoarsely croaked, earning a sympathetic glance from Holy Roman Empire. "...You too..." Germany tilted his head at Italy's quiet comment, "I want you out of my house!" Italy shouted at the concerned German. Germany's eyes widened before he took a deep breath and approached Italy, "Italy, please calm down." Holy Roman Empire requested as watched his younger brother draw near the unstable Italian. "I'm-" Germany started before getting interrupted by Italy, "Shut up! Just- Shut up and leave me alone! Leave! Leave me like everyone else!" though it was unclear if he was shouting at Holy Roman Empire or if he was shouting at Germany. Germany hugged Italy tightly, not letting go even as Italy resisted. "Let go of me!" Italy shouted only to be returned with what Germany had been trying to say before getting interrupted, "I'm not going to leave you!" his voice was hoarse and cracked, it was almost painful to hear.
Italy pushed Germany with such force that Germany fell to the ground. Italy once more balled his hands into fists, his head down. "Why?" Italy asked calmly, which in it's own way was eerie and unsettling. Germany furrowed his brow, not understanding what Italy was asking. "Why wouldn't you leave me? You know that every smile you've ever seen on my face was just a reaction from pills. You know that you can't protect from these beings that haunt me. You know that the other nations will most likely want to have nothing to do with me, and you simply being associated with me will make you an outcast. So why? Why would you put yourself through the trouble of staying by my side?" Italy clarified, his words powerful enough to be heard over the sounds of sirens in the distance.
Germany lied on the ground for a moment, whether it was because he didn't know what to say or if he was just in shock from Italy's words and strength would stay a mystery to Holy Roman Empire. Italy quietly sighed before kneeling down, revealing to the two of them he was crying. "Ita-" Germany started before Italy grabbed Germany's collar and yanked him up. Holy Roman Empire froze, seeing the now standing Italy with Germany who was also standing, his collar still tightly gripped by the Italian. Although Holy Roman Empire never got to properly meet Germany he did fear for him, he knew that Italy had harmed Romano before, after having a terrible lot of stress. Of course Italy apologized afterwards but with the state Italy was in Holy Roman Empire feared he might do something that is beyond anything an apology could fix.
"Why?!" Italy shouted in Germany face, confusion and anguish fueling his words. "...Because I love you..." Germany said matter-of-factly. Italy widened his eyes in surprise, "B-but what about-" Italy stuttered in shock before getting cut off by Germany. "I...I love you whether or not you take pills." Germany's sore and quite words caused Italy start loosening his grip, "B-but-" "It wasn't a pill that chose to join the axis." Germany said with a faint smile. Italy bit his lip, trying to hold back anymore tears from falling. Italy tightend his grip and pulled Germany into a kiss. Holy Roman Empire could help but blush and look away, feeling like he was intruding. Italy turned his head away taking a deep breath, "...Sorry about this." he said quietly making Holy Roman Empire look his direction wondering what he was apologizing for.
Italy Threw Germany out the doorway they stood by, making Prussia look at them with confusion. But Spain didn't even glance over at them, he just continued to sob with Romano in his arms. Italy slammed the door before Germany even had the chance to stop him, and he quickly locked it. It wasn't even a few moments before Holy Roman Empire could hear the thumping of Germany slamming himself at the door trying to break it down. "Ita-!" Germany tried to shout but his own voice cut off, Holy Roman Empire could be sure if Germany now just couldn't shout or if he actually couldn't speak. "Why did you do that?!" Holy Roman Empire couldn't help but shout at Italy, who was wiping his tears off with his bloody sleeve. "I said leave me alone!" Italy shouted, making Holy Roman Empire cross his arms in frustration. "Italy, please. Think before you act, Germany obviously is very concerned for you- and I am too."
Italy sighed and deliberately walked through Holy Roman Empire well aware that he hates that, "I just want a moment to myself." he hissed through his teeth. "And why now of all times? Why not just cry in Germany's arms and let life take it's course?" Holy Roman Empire asked in retaliation, as he followed Italy down the hall. Italy entered the bathroom and opened the medicine cabinet, then plucked out the bottle of anti depressants." Italy, please put the pills down." Holy Roman Empire pleaded. Italy grabbed one of the paper cups kept in the bathroom to keep taking medicine as simple as possible. He let out a deep shaky breath as he turned the faucet on and watched the cool water start filling the cup. "I made Germany leave because I didn't want him to see this. I don't want anyone to see this- including you." Each word made Holy Roman Empire feel panic, he didn't have a physical body. He didn't have the power to knock bottle of pills out of Italy's hand, or unlock the door that Germany so desperately pounded on.
"So now you're going to kill yourself?" Holy Roman Empire asked, his childish voice coupled with those words was chilling. "Yes, I am." Italy bluntly answered. "And you think that how to escape your problems? By dying?" Holy Roman Empire asked as he entered the bathroom, vividly remembering his own death. Italy turned his head to Holy Roman Empire, "What do you want me to do? Go outside and continue pretending that I'm fine?" they both stood in silence for another moment.
"Hey, do you know why I'm still here?" Holy Roman Empire asked after what felt like an eternity, "Of course I do, you made a promise that you would come back to me." Italy answered wondering why Holy Roman Empire would ask that. "No- That's part of why I came back to you. But as you can see despite my returning to you and fulfilling my promise to you I'm still here. Do you know why I'm still here?" Italy opened his eye as he realized that Holy Roman Empire was right, if it had only been that he would have already been gone. "No, why?" Italy quietly asked, looking into Holy Roman Empire's eyes for the first time in so many years. "Because I promised myself I would stay with you until you found someone that could love you as much as I do."
Italy choked on his own breath, Holy Roman Empire was already starting to disappear. "Y-y-y-" "I'm fading." Holy Roman Empire stated with a sad smile. "Germany really loves you, I guess it just runs in the family." Italy dropped the open bottle of pills making them spill on the floor, "Y-you can't! You've always been by my side-" Italy stuttered but was interjected by Holy Roman Empire. "Because I've been waiting for someone that's living to take my place." He smiled, most of his body already gone. "If not for me, keep living for Germany...You out of all people would know how painful it is to lose someone you love so soon after having your first kiss." Holy Roman Empire finished with a pitiful look on his face. Italy's knees gave in and he dropped to the ground, making Italy be at eye level with him. Holy Roman Empire smiled and kissed Italy on the cheek.
The entire house shook as loud thump could be heard followed by the thundering noises from the outside world, "Sir- wait- that's breaking and entering!" shouted an unfamiliar voice. Italy looked down at the pills that covered the floor, the pills he was going to use to kill himself now mocked him. He looked out the doorway as he listened to the sets of footsteps, one undoubtedly belonging to Germany and the other most likely being those of a Police officer, most likely the one that had shouted at Germany. He watched as Germany almost ran past him, nearly tripping over himself to stop. Germany stood there just huffing at the doorway with a confused look on his face as he examined the scene. Italy stood up, his eyes still open. He looked at Germany before hugging him, he buried his face in Germany's shoulder tears flooding from his eyes.
"Why is there blood on you?" The police man asked as he reach for what was either a gun or a stun gun, Italy's teary eyes couldn't tell. "Officer, I promise all of this can be explained." He paused as he let go of Germany and turn to the officer before continuing, "But I would like medical attention for both myself and my friend." the officer raised an eyebrow at this. "I can see the blood on you, but your friend looks fine." The police man said as he eyed Germany, "He's strained his vocal cords, if he doesn't get medical help his voice may be permanently effected." Italy made eye contact with the officer, making him look into his intense and fearsome eyes. "...Right." The police man sheepishly replied as he stepped to the side so they could get through the hallway, "There's an ambulance outside." the police man informed.
Italy wrapped his hand around Germany's tightly and took a deep breath before closing his eyes. Together they marched into the outside world. The sirens blared and the lights flashed but for a moment it felt like time slowed down. For a moment everything slowed down as Italy turned his head to Spain who still was clinging to Romano, he wouldn't let go of his body regardless of what the medic or police men said. Italy released Germany's approached him, he could feel his chest tighten. Spain looked up at Italy, bitter tears covering his face. "Chi more s'acquieta." Italy quietly said as he knelt down so that they would be at eye level, he reached for Romano slowly. Spain sniffled but didn't resist as Italy lifted Romano from his arms. He approached the ambulance keeping Romano in his arms, carrying him bridal style. He looked over his shoulder, he could see Prussia, trying his best to explain what he knew, without sounding insane. It certainly was an odd sight seeing him not acting all silly like he normally would but even Prussia knows when to be serious.
A nurse in blue scrubs carefully took Romano from Italy's arms. He with Germany sat in the ambulance, Romano's corpse covered with a white clothe practically next to them. Italy wiped his eyes trying to get any remaining tears from messing with his vision any further, he put one hand over where his stab wound on his chest was and put the other on top of Germany's hand. He closed his eyes and just tried to calm himself down, at least until they could get to the hospital.
Translations
German
Heilige Scheiße!
Means "Holy shit!"
Italian
Chi more s'acquieta.
Means "The one who dies calms down."
Author Notes- Hey guys! Sorry I made you wait for so long! And this chapter turned out a lot different from how it originally was supposed to! Originally it was going to end with Italy swallowing the pills, (But not dying of course) but I decided not to, since Italy's depressed and not a heartless bastard that's fine with breaking Germany's heart and soul. (Also- this turned into a lot more yaoi than I was expecting it too.)
Anyways, I'm going to Chibi Chibi Con this weekend! For those who don't know about it, it's a FREE convention! It takes place in Washington and starts on this Saturday! If you're going even just considering going let me know in the reviews! I'd love to meet you guys!