A/N: While trying to work on Kaosu no Fukkatsu I encountered writers block due to this damn idea that got stuck in my head. It is Yaoi and a threesome at that so just a heads up to those that don't like either. There will be lemons in the next chapter too. I'm not going to say who the three people are but if you can guess from what little I've said I'll let you know if your right.

Disclaimer: Do Not Own.

Dad,

We have been over this for months. No matter what anyone thinks you know me better than that. I am neither blind nor too stupid to put it all together and I don't fucking care. It's been 15 years and you know She would beat the shit out of you for thinking that way if She could. The only problem I have is I want and love him just as much as you do. I don't know what to do I won't take him away from you because you need someone in your life that I know will make you happy but I don't know what to do. Even if I wanted to take him away from you I have no chance. I've seen the way he looks at you, you're his everything and I think the only reason he's stayed quiet is because of Her and he doesn't think you'd reciprocate. I want to cry, scream and tear my hair out. I don't want to tell you any of this because I don't want you to feel guilty, you have done nothing wrong I just have no one else I can go to with this. You know what just think about it seriously I want to see your eyes smile again. I will be okay it'll take some time but I'll move on as long as your happy. I love you.

Your Son.

He Sealed the scroll and called a summon to take it to its final destination. He wasn't worried about it being intercepted for one it would go pretty much straight to who he intended it for and even if it was there were no name and no important information, well nothing important to anyone else. He gazed down at his hands resting in his lap and decided he needed to be alone for just a little while. His three teammates were carrying on an inane conversation to which he wanted no part of right now. He loved them but he really didn't want to listen to the chatter and he didn't think he could stand another minute in His presence today. The three month long mission they were on was slowly driving him insane and he was having a hard time separating his emotions from his job. So he stood up to go meditate and try to push Him, and the emotion that go along with those thoughts, into a box he could lock tight in the back of his head and never take out again. The chatter stopped as he walked towards the woods.

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine just need to be alone for a bit. If you need me just whistle I won't be far."

He could feel the three worried gazes burning into his back and didn't have it in him to pretend that everything was just fine. He walk far enough away that he could hear a raised voice but not close enough to feel their presence. He sat down with crossed legs and closed his eyes. He then proceeded to push all the emotional shit in his head and heart and lock it away. It was for the best he would do anything for his Dad and this was worth it. He could feel a few tears leek out from his closed eye lids but that's all he would allow. When he was ready he walked back to camp and headed to his tent to try and get a little sleep, if that was possible, before his watch.

The three other seated around the fire watch the teenager come out of the woods and head to bed. They could see his red rimmed downcast eyes and could see that he had been crying but didn't know what to do about it. They didn't want to push and decided he would come to them when he was ready.