Hermione walked into the Gryffindor common room after getting ready for her hogsmead date with Fred. Today it would be exactly one month since their first official date when he asked her to be his girlfriend. She was giddy beyond belief. She felt as though they got back up and picked off where they used to be.

She no longer cried. She felt sad. She did miss her old Fred the one who already loved her the sappy, prat who proposed to her, but this Fred is him. Just before. It took him years to turn into the Fred she was used to. She couldn't expect him to turn back within a month that would be illogical.

She was happy to call him hers again, but there was just a small problem. No one else knew that they were together. With the exception of George and Ginny, but to Hermione this situation felt all too familiar. She wouldn't let it be like last time she promised herself that. They talked and said everyone would know at Christmas. then they would be dating for about 3 months... which she agreed to. it seemed reasonable, but she had to keep reminding herself that this was all new for him, even if it felt normal for her. It was a struggle at times for her, but every moment she remembers how it was with out him at all she clings to the relationship they have now.

Suddenly her thoughts were interrupted as long lengthy hands snaked around her waist and pulled her into a hug from behind.

She melted into his touch and smiled, "I thought we agreed to meet in hogsmead?"

"Sorry ,Love, couldn't help myself."

"When can you?" She challenged him giggling as she said it.

In turn her replied by nuzzling her neck and placed a chaste kiss to her cheek he whispered in her ear ,"Never, around you."

Hermione's heart sank a little as she remembered him, how he used to be. He'd say things like that to her all the time. He'd beg her to let him shout it off of the astronomy tower. All he wanted was to let everyone know. She tried pulling herself together and stiffened, "Some one might see us."

Fred let go and looked at her with concern, "Are you alright, love?" He glanced around and seen they were the only two in the room, he wasn't surprised they agreed to meet at a ridiculously early hour of 5am. No one would be up for at least two hours on a Saturday.

"I'm Fine Fred. Lets just go." She said crossing her arms and staring at the floor. She knew she wasn't being fair, but she wasn't controlling herself it was almost as if she were being controlled by a 5 year old version on the verge of a temper tantrum.

"Hermione I don't get it... Am I doing something wrong?" He was serious and his face etched with worry.

"No, Fred its just hard for me okay."

He knew then what this was about. It clicked. It was the part he cant remember the secret no one is telling him. His hand automatically jumped to his locket from ginny and he fisted it through his shirt, "Im trying My-Own... I really am. I just. I cant remember it and no ones helping me. I know its something to do with you. I know its about you. I figured that much out everything is about you Hermione. I know things about you that I don't remember you ever saying, but I know them. Please just don't leave me because I don't remember. I'm going to try and fight as hard as I can to make things normal again, but until then..." At this point Fred paused as He saw Hermione beginning to sob.

He walked to her and wrapped his arms around her he pressed his lips to her forehead and said softly, "Im sorry I did this Hermione, whatever I did. I'm going to fix it."

He felt as her chest sucked in a staggered breath and she said in feint calmness,"That's the thing Fred, You never did anything..."

"Let not focus on it now. What matters now is us. What we are now. Not what we used to be not what we will be. Here this moment right now this is happening we shouldn't waste it" Fred told her trying to b strong for her and calm her down.

She pried her face away from his chest and looked up at him her chocolate brown eyes were rimmed red and tears streamed down her cheeks her hair was plastered to her forehead and cheeks, but still she managed to take his breath away.

His hand grazed her skin and wiped away her tears, "You're eyes cant sparkle behind those clouds." was all he said it caused her to give him a slight genuine smile.

He locked her gaze and saw that spark in them he told her without thinking with out planning it he said it ,"Im never letting you go again. I promise you I wont ever leave you I wont let this happen again. I know its only been a month and you might run away screaming but I feel as though its been longer. I feel happy like I used to and I know its all because of you Hermione. I cant promise we'll never fight. I can't promise to never make you cry. I cant promise to give you a mansion house or a perfect life. I cant promise to stop pranking and joking around, but I can promise something. I can promise to try my best to make you laugh and smile no matter what. I can promise to always apologies after every fight, I can promise to try and be the kind of person you deserve. I can promise you that unless you tell me you hate me that im never going to let you go. You're stuck with me Hermione."

a gasp caught in her throat and she stared at him searching desperately. She wanted him to remember she realized it now she needed him to remember. Why was everything so confusing? Why cant she just be happy with this Fred? Why wasn't it good enough? He's the same man she fell in love with so why cant she love him like she loved her fred they were the same. They had the same voice. The same hair. The same freckles the same nervous tendencies. They were identical so why cant she love him...

Then it hit her. He wasn't the same because as their relationship grew and changed, so did they. right now he was the boy who fell in love with the girl years ago. now she was in love with the man who proposed to her, not the boy his eyes held so much emotion so much maturity he doesn't even know is there, but could she stand being away from him? Surely being with him like this is better then not at all?

She didn't realize how badly she was crying and her chest heaving as she let out gasps to try and steady her breathing. She was a mess and now sitting on the floor freds arms consoling her and comforting her as they draped across her form.

"I can't do this." She choked out.

silence.

"Im sorry Fred. So much has happened. So so much for you to ever understand. So much I cannot explain. So much that you have to figure out. I know im just repeating yourself..."

She dared to glance at him only to meet his dark captivating eyes searching her intently. For what? she didn't know.

"I don't understand Hermione, Don't you like me?"

"I love you Fred, but I loved my Fred, I know hes in there, but I cant love this fred. and you cant love me. This fred fell in love with the little heartbroken girl crying on a stair case. My Fred loved a me as I am now... Your the same but your so different. I cant... I'm sorry... I have to go." That was it. she was running away down the hall.

Frozen in his spot on the ground. He replayed her words. 'This Fred fell in love with the little heartbroken girl on a staircase.'

He closed his eyes tightly focusing on his memory focusing with all his might on that very night.

His head began pounding and he opened his eyes abruptly. he attempted to stand but only fell onto the ground he clawed at the stone floor and tried holing in a painful muffled scream. He pulled at his hair in an attempt to make the pain in his head stop. Then his body fell limp. The pain stopped. The world went black.

A/N : Im sooooo sorry I have no excuse other then fricking school. but to make it up I shall post the next chappy in an hour and a half I LOVVE YOU MY LOVELIES! PLEASE REVIEW!