What Might Have Been:

Chapter Two

Eiri POV

Damn it! Why did Yuki have to read what I wrote? Now they know about the cuts on my legs. I had to show them before they let me do anything else. Damn it! I really hate them now, where am I supposed to cut without them knowing now?

Okay, enough venting—today, besides them finding out about my legs, was uneventful, except when Yoshiki told Yuki she/he was getting a full sex change. I would've laughed at Yuki's expression if I hadn't been angry at them finding out about my legs. Now I can't help chuckling at the memory.

Even if I have to see the therapist tomorrow, I can still laugh at that memory.

"Eiri, can you take a break from typing?" Seguchi walks in the room and looks at me. "There's something I want to talk to you about."

"What is it, Seguchi? Just tell me now, I'm listening."

"…." Seguchi stares at me typing as I talk and smiles. "I see you are good at typing now—now if you just start going to college…."

"I don't want to go, I think I'll be a good author instead."

"But going to school wouldn't hurt—in fact it'd help…." Seguchi sighs when I don't respond and then walks up to me, placing his hand on my shoulder. "Eiri, if you don't go to school out here I'm taking you back to Japan."

"I don't want to go back to Japan! You can't make me, either." I turn to glare at him, light brown eyes narrowed.

"You know you promised not to cut if I let you stay here. You didn't keep your end of the deal, so I won't let you stay. Even if I have to go to court and say you can't take care of yourself and need a guardian, I'll get you back to Japan."

"…why do you want me in Japan so much?"

"Your family wants to see you. Also, Kitazawa-san isn't a very good guardian—I told him to watch you last night but he didn't. He didn't even wait until you were asleep before leaving."

"You read that part too."

"Yes, I read all of it. If you don't want things read you shouldn't leave the computer on. Besides, I already knew from his brother about him not watching you."

"Guess Yuki's going to get in trouble." I chuckle. "And Yoshiki will be his sister now since he's getting the full sex change operation."

"I've heard. Kitazawa-san has been going on about it, ranting all day. He wants me to convince his brother not to." Seguchi moves his hand from my shoulder and smiles again. "I told him no, of course. Since he hasn't been watching you I won't do anything for him."

"You know, Seguchi, sometimes that smile of yours doesn't go with your words."

He continues to smile and ruffles my hair—I cringe away from his touch, only Yuki was allowed to mess with my hair.

"Sorry. I forgot, Eiri." He removes his hand, his smile fading from his lips. "Anyway, have your bags ready by this weekend. I already made plans to leave for Japan—so you're going." With that he turns and leaves the room, not waiting for my reply.

"Fuck you." I whisper, making sure he was out of hearing before the curse left my lips. I hated him then, I didn't want to go back to Japan and leave Yuki behind. I knew Yuki wouldn't leave his son behind, and since Riku lived with his mother, Yuki wouldn't leave.

I wanted to stay with Yuki, didn't Seguchi know I cared for them both deeply—but Yuki couldn't visit easily while he could. Seguchi could visit everyday if he wanted, and he did, but Yuki couldn't—not if I moved back to Japan.

"I hate you, Seguchi. I hate you."

A/N: End chapter