Chapter 14: An Awkward Morning, But a Sexy Night

Disclaimer: SM owns Twilight.

Coach Masen

I woke up very early on Sunday morning, wishing I could stay in bed with Bella a little while longer, but I had things I needed to do. I didn't want her to wake up with no clothes to wear, and I was pretty sure she'd rather have her own clothes rather than my pajama pants that were threatening to fall off of her small hips, so I rolled out of bed, careful not to wake Bella up as I moved. On my way out of the room, I turned around to look at the beautiful woman lying in my bed, still not believing last night actually happened. She was still here, in my bed, and it wasn't a dream.

The smile on my face had not gone away as I walked into the hallway, grabbing her wadded up clothes off of the floor. I went downstairs to put in a load of laundry. After putting the clothes in the washer, I took Herkie outside and walked around with him for a bit.

Breakfast. I would cook a huge breakfast for her.

So many thoughts ran through my head – what was I going to say to her, how was she going to act around me, how was I going to act around her, etc. I wanted to be in a relationship with Bella so badly and I really hoped she wanted the same.

I had no idea what to cook because, to be quite honest, I was trying to impress her. I knew she liked pancakes, but some days she just wanted bacon and eggs. I ended up cooking an array of food choices, hoping something might sound good to her.

I threw Bella's clothes in the dryer halfway through my cooking excursion. I hoped that I would be finished with everything soon because I wanted to maybe surprise her with breakfast in bed? I didn't know how to approach her. Things would be awkward between us, of course, but I wanted to make that awkwardness disappear quickly. I never brought breakfast in bed to any woman before, except for my mother and she seemed to think it was really sweet, so I hoped that Bella would stay in bed until I was finished.

Just as I put the biscuits in the oven, the dryer timer went off, alerting me that the clothes were finished. I folded the clothes and placed them on the table until I was ready to take them up to her, but I heard the water running in the shower.

Well, fuck. There went my plan.

I didn't want her to wake up to an empty bed, wondering why I wasn't there, and that's exactly what happened. I definitely needed to fix things… very quickly.

I hurried up the stairs with her clothes, wondering what I should say to her.

My bed was empty as I walked into the room and I missed seeing her naked body covered only with my thin sheet, but I had high hopes that we would have a chance to do that again. Pacing back and forth, I decided to knock on the bathroom door to give her the clothes. I kept her shirt she wore the night before and replaced it with one of mine, an old football shirt that said 'Masen' on the back. I wanted to see her in my shirt.

Softly knocking on the door, I cracked in open, noticing the steam filling the room. "Bella?"

"Yeah?" Bella responded, her voice already sounded so shy. So fucking sweet.

I stepped in the bathroom and placed the clothes on the counter. "I washed your pajama pants and stuff last night," including your fucking sexy underwear, but I didn't say that part out loud, "…and there's a clean long sleeve shirt of mine here as well, just in case you're… cold."

"Th-thank you…"

I could see her reflection behind the shower door and already felt my body reacting to her. I had to get out of there soon before I embarrassingly asked if I could join her.

"Okay… well, I've got breakfast cooking down there… so come down when you can."

"I'll be out in a few. Thanks again, Edward."

"Not a problem, beautiful. Oh, and there is an extra toothbrush in the left side drawer if you want it..."

"Kay," Bella replied.

I forced myself to leave the bathroom, closing the door behind me quickly so the cold draft didn't get in. Nervously, I went back to the kitchen to wait for Bella to join me. We had a lot to talk about and I really didn't know what the outcome would be. I just knew one thing… I had to convince her that we're better together than apart.

I cut up some fresh fruit and placed it on the table along with the other foods I prepared for Bella. I was rushing around so much that I didn't even realize that when you grab a hot iron skillet with your bare hand, it really fucking burns.

"Fuck!" I said loudly as Herkie looked up at me while he munched on his dog food. Thanks for the concern, Herkie. I dropped the skillet full of eggs onto the stove, feeling like such a dumbass.

"What happened!?" I heard Bella's concerned voice close behind me.

"I grabbed the handle without a potholder…" I mumbled, pointing to the eggs.

"Ouch… come here," Bella said sweetly, grabbing my arm and pulling me towards the sink. "You need to get the heat out… keep it under the water for a few minutes."

Bella turned on the tap and gently grabbed my wrist, pulling my hand under the cool water. She soothingly rubbed her thumb across the underside of my wrist, careful not to touch my injured hand.

"Thank you, Bella," I said as I caught myself staring at her. She was gorgeous. There was nothing better than seeing her in my shirt. Her hair was still damp and started to develop waves. She always told me that she hated how her hair would end up wavy if she didn't dry it or straighten it – I thought she was beautiful either way.

Bella looked up at me and smiled, nudging her foot against mine as her face turned a slight shade of pink. "Wow… that is a lot of food. Inviting everyone over?"

"No," I chuckled. I leaned over and kissed her on the cheek, not even realizing what I was doing because it was just a natural reaction, but when I did, Bella's eyes widened as her facial expression looked kind of… nervous?

"I… uh… I didn't know what you'd want. Sometimes you just want something simple in the morning, but other times you like pancakes or fruit… you're a very difficult woman, Swan."

Bella giggled as she lifted my hand from the running water. "Well, you're a difficult man, Masen," she winked. "Burning your hand and all… just to get some attention."

"If that's what it takes," I laughed, leaning against the counter while Bella rummaged through my junk drawer.

"Here it is! I knew I saw it in here once before," Bella said proudly as she held up some first aid burn cream that I didn't even know I had. "Now we need some gauze. Got any?"

"It's not that bad, baby… I promise."

Bella looked up at me, the same expression that she had last night – kind of shocked.

"Come here," I whispered. Very slowly, Bella moved towards me, standing directly in front of me. With my free arm, I reached out, wrapping it around her waist to pull her body against mine. "Are you okay?"

"Mmhmm," Bella replied quietly as she rested her head on my chest. "Are you okay?"

I laughed as my arm tightened around her. "Better than ever… except I feel like a dumbass now."

Bella looked up at me and grinned. "Why do you feel like a dumbass?"

"Because I cooked all this crap that you probably don't like… and then I burned my stupid hand…"

"I think it's really sweet that you cooked all of this, Edward… and as much as it sucks that you did burn your hand, I'm glad it wasn't me for once," Bella giggled, sounding so fucking sweet. "I always have kitchen accidents."

Our awkward moment or nervousness regarding our activities throughout the night was forgotten as we laughed with each other. Bella fixed our plates, not allowing me to fix my own because I was "injured".

Throughout breakfast, Bella and I would catch ourselves glancing at the other a little longer than usual. I wanted to kiss her again.

After breakfast and after assuring Bella for the umpteenth time that my hand wasn't even bad enough for burn cream, we settled down in the den. Sitting side by side on the couch with Bella was harder than I thought. I chanted to myself 'keep your fucking hands to yourself, keep your fucking hands to yourself' over and over again, but my restraint would not hold up for too long.

"So… can we talk or are we going to ignore what happened last night?" I asked, mentally beating myself up for blurting it out like that.

Bella let out a small, nervous gasp as I wrapped my arm around her shoulder. "I, um… I don't know what to say…"

"Lay down with me?" I asked. Bella nodded as we situated ourselves. I laid on my side, my back against the back of the couch and Bella on her side, facing me. "That's much better. I needed to see you."

Leaning slightly closer to Bella, I kissed her lips gently. Just a small kiss, but something to show her that I didn't regret anything that happened. I could tell she was very worried or unsure and those worries needed to go away because what happened the night before was phenomenal.

"So, um…" Bella began, letting out a long sigh. "You don't think it was a mistake?"

"No, baby… not at all. Do you?"

"No," Bella replied bashfully.

"Like I said before, I've wanted you for so long. It's not just about the sex, which was fucking amazing by the way, but I wanted you. You're beautiful and sweet and… my best friend."

"Wow," Bella whispered. "I mean… I kind of thought so, but..."

"I was that obvious?" I chuckled as I kissed her forehead.

"Well, let's just say… you sleep talk a lot and when you're drunk, you really tell all…"

"Oh my god," I groaned. "What did I do?"

Bella giggled. Her face heated up as I could feel it on my arm where she rested her head. "Nothing too bad… just um, moaning in your sleep sometimes? And, uh… um… you may have kissed my neck, like this," Bella said lowly, leaning towards my neck.

When her lips made contact with my skin, my hand instinctively cupped her ass, pulling her against my hard on. Excruciatingly, painfully slow, Bella moved her mouth against my collarbone, trailing up the column of my neck. She wasn't sucking hard, just kissing softly while her hand gripped my upper arm. My fingers dug into her ass, not too hard, but enough to show her I wanted her very fucking badly.

"Baby…" I moaned. I didn't know how much more I could take before I ripped her pants off.

Bella smiled widely as she pulled away to look into my eyes. "Yeah… you kissed me like that, on my neck… and may have grinded your," she paused, nodding down on my cock that was fully tenting my pajama pants, which made me laugh so hard because she was being so shy, "into my ass."

"I'm so sorry, Bella… I'm such an asshole…"

"You're not, Edward," Bella assured. Her hand moved from my arm to the side of my face. "It was really hard turning you down."

"So, you really wanted… this," I motioned my finger between us.

"Yes. I just didn't know how to tell you because I didn't want to lose you as a friend."

"I don't want us to be just friends, Bella… and not friends with benefits or whatever the hell that is… I want you."

"But how will it ever work, Edward? You're going to move to Dallas, which is so far away and-"

"Couples make long distance relationships work all the time, baby… and I'll have a couple of days off which will be spent here… with you." Bella opened her mouth as though she was going to protest, but I kissed her quickly before continuing on. "I'll fly you to my games… we'll talk every night. I mean, it's not like I've accepted their offer yet, anyway…"

"You have to accept it, Edward. It's your dream and I won't let you just let that opportunity pass you by."

"I know… but I just don't want you to have any doubts."

"I don't… I mean, of course I'm worried and sad that you're more than likely leaving, mainly because I was so used to spending most of my time with you, but we'll be okay."

We discussed the topic a little further, both of us making the other feel better about our worries. Bella stayed calm and kept me calm throughout the subject. I just needed reassurance that she felt as though we could make it. I wanted to make her happy.

"Alice is going to go fucking ballistic over this," I chuckled while Bella buried her face into my neck.

"Can we please just keep it between you and me for now? I'm not ashamed or anything, but Alice is just so…"

"Loud and obnoxious sometimes?"

Bella laughed into my neck. "I love her to death and she is a great friend, but yes, she will be both of those things when she finds out."

"Yeah… so will Emmett. It must be a Cullen thing…"

"Yep," Bella giggled, nuzzling her face in the crook of my neck.

I don't know how long we laid there, but both of us ended up dozing off. It was one of those perfect mornings that I always wanted to spend with Bella – rainy day, lying on the couch. Herkie ended up waking us a little later as he barked continuously at a bird that was perched on the deck railing. Bella got up from the couch and grabbed a rawhide to keep him busy for a bit.

I must have fallen asleep for a bit after she returned to me because I woke up to Bella's hand rubbing lightly over my cock as she nipped at my neck.

Nothing was said as my hands moved along her side, lingering along the outside of her thigh. Bella breathed deeply as I let out an involuntary moan when she gripped me even harder through my pajama pants.

"A couple of weeks ago… I went for a run," Bella whispered close to my ear as her hand slipped down beneath the waistband of my pants. "And I was going to stop by to visit you… you had the door wide open… remember that?"

There was no way I could think straight as she stroked me. "No," I grunted as her thumb skimmed across the tip of my cock.

"You called me for breakfast that morning…"

Holy shit! Bella saw me whacking off? Fuck me…

I think it was my fucking turn to blush now.

"I wished more than anything that I had the nerve to come in and help you out," Bella said, her voice so low and sexy.

"Mmm," I gasped, moving my hand between her thighs. "I would have liked that."

Bella moaned loudly as I rubbed over her covered pussy. "Edward… are you too tired…?"

"Never… you never have to ask me that question," I said, letting out a deep laugh as I rolled Bella onto her back, settling myself on top of her amazing body.

Best. Morning. Ever.

Ms. Swan

I reluctantly had to leave Edward later that morning. I didn't want to, but I needed to get home to Seth and Harley. When I first woke up that morning, I called Seth and let him know everything was fine. He didn't even tease me or anything, which I was extremely grateful for.

Edward pulled out one of his sweatshirts for me to wear home as it was a really chilly morning. He was driving me home since his road was not fully unusable for my small car. I still had no idea how I got down it the night before, but I guess it was just meant to be or something…

"Are you ready, Bell?" Edward asked, sitting on the bed as I walked out of his bathroom.

"Yeah… so I'll see you later tonight?"

Esme had sent both of us texts the night before, telling us that she was having a big family dinner and wanted us there. I didn't want to cancel on her, and Edward always went over for their family dinners, so it would have looked odd for us both to cancel. I was going to ride over there with Seth and not even mention that my car was still at Edward's house. Everyone knew that I had slept over at Edward's house a few times, but my guilty conscience would be the death of me.

"Of course, baby… can I come over to watch a movie with you after?"

"Please do," I said, unable to rid the huge smile on my face. I couldn't believe we were actually doing this.

Edward led me out of the house, only stopping when I leaned down to pet and say goodbye to Herkie. I laughed the entire time because Edward actually admitted earlier that morning that he was jealous of Herkie sometimes, as he was able to get closer to me when Edward wasn't able to. Sweetest and cutest thing ever.

The ride to my house was spent in silence, not uncomfortable silence, though. Edward insisted that I sit next to him in the truck, which felt like some old fifties movie or something, but very sweet. His hand rested on my thigh as I leaned my head on his shoulder. He was perfect.

But he would be leaving soon. I knew it was going to happen, no matter how many times he said that it wasn't a sure thing. Bella Swan, the pessimist.

Edward helped me out of the truck slowly, both of us looking so gloomy even though we'd see each other in a few hours anyway.

"I may sound like a chick, but I'll miss you," Edward chuckled, causing me to laugh as well.

"Aw, honey… I will try to call you later. Does that sound like the guy thing to say?" I asked. Edward pushed me up against the truck door and kissed me passionately.

"You better call me later," he whispered.

"Like I said… I'll try," I teased, earning a slap on my ass as I walked away. I stood in the doorway and turned towards him, mouthing, "Miss you" as he started to back out. He grinned hugely and that made my day even better.

To an outsider, our affections might seem odd for a couple that had basically just gotten together the night before, but as I had said before, it was pretty much like we were already dating all summer.

Although that dating had no kissing.

So much time had been wasted.

Seth was sitting on the couch as I entered the living room. He grinned like the little ass that he was, knowing that something happened the night before.

"I don't want details, because that is really fucking gross considering you're my sister and all… but I hope you two kids were safe," Seth laughed.

"Haha, very funny… and quit saying 'fucking'. That's bad!"

"Oh, dear sister… and sleeping with my coach isn't bad?"

"Ass."

"Love you, too, Bella."

"Listen," I said, my face completely serious, "do not tell Alice, Emmett, Jasper or Rose… or anyone for that matter, but especially them. We don't want everyone knowing and-"

"Don't worry, I won't say anything."

"Thanks… and by the way, Edward is going to Dallas next weekend and he asked us to go with him. Sound like something you might want to do?"

Seth's eyes widened. "Hell, yes, I do! But why is he going to Dallas?"

I felt bad for Seth because I wasn't the only one losing Edward if he accepted the deal. "Remember those guys that visited him?" Seth nodded. "Well, they were with the Dallas Cowboys and apparently Edward's agent had been trying to get him to play again… to make a long story short, they talked him into going out to Dallas just to hear their offer."

"Wow. Are you okay with that?"

I sat down beside him on the couch, leaning against his side. "It would be hard enough if we were just friends, and now… it's going to be harder, but I've been the one encouraging Edward the entire time, always saying that he should take this opportunity. I wouldn't take it back now anyway because it's his dream, you know?"

"Yeah, but…" Seth sighed, wrapping his arm around my shoulder. "I'm sorry, Bella."

"It's fine, it really is. I mean, he hasn't even accepted it yet, but if he does, we can still try…"

"Yeah," Seth replied sympathetically.

Later that day, I baked a Sunkist cake to take over for dinner. Esme insisted that I didn't need to bring anything, but I hated going somewhere empty handed. Plus, it was Edward's favorite kind of cake.

Seth drove us to Esme's and I sent Edward a text to let him know we were on our way. Seconds later, I received a text from Edward.

Missing you – looking forward to seeing you, baby. –E

I smiled like a love sick fool.

My smile grew wider when we pulled into the driveway as I immediately noticed Edward's truck. I already knew he was going to be there, but just being near him again felt great. I was definitely in over my head.

Esme, Alice, and Rose met us at the door. Seth retreated to the backyard where all the guys were, leaving us to gossip in the kitchen. Edward had mentioned to me that he still hadn't told his family about Dallas, but he was going to come clean tonight. Alice winked at me every time Edward's name was mentioned as we helped get dinner ready… oh, if she only knew how complicated things would be in a week or so.

"Something smells great!" Carlisle said from behind me. I turned around and smiled at him, hoping Edward had walked in with him, but he was alone.

"Hi, Carlisle," I said as I walked over to hug him.

"How are you doing, sweetheart?"

"Pretty good… you?"

Carlisle pulled back from our hug, but kept his hands on my shoulders. "I'm great, but are you sure everything is okay? You seem… upset or something."

Over the years, I learned that Carlisle was the one person you could not lie to. He could just sense when something was wrong. As his blue eyes gazed down at mine, I almost felt like crying. I didn't know why exactly, because I was really happy that Edward and I were secretly together. Deep down it was going to be so hard for me to let him go.

"I'm fine, I promise."

"Carlisle! Quit using your weird mind reading ability on Bella!" Esme chided as Carlisle and I laughed. "Go outside and tell the boys that dinner is ready!"

"I will," I interrupted just as Carlisle was about to walk out of the kitchen.

I practically ran out of the room, ready to see Edward. As I walked into the den, making my way to the sliding door, I got a quick glimpse of Edward which absolutely took my breath away. His arm was pulled back, gripping the football in his hand as he was about to throw to Emmett. His body was amazing, but now that I knew what was underneath all of his clothes, my mouth watered. I loved the way his arms weren't extremely huge, like some steroid-filled football player, but he was a very strong man. My mind went back to the night before, seeing him move above me, his muscles flexing with every movement.

How was I going to be in the same room with him now?

I slowly slid the door open, catching Jasper's eye. "Hey, Bella!"

"Hi," I grinned, my eyes darting over to meet Edward's. "Dinner is ready…"

"About fucking time!" Emmett boomed as he hurried up the porch stairs. "Hi, Bella," he said, giving me a quick hug.

Jasper and Seth followed behind him, along with Edward. His eyes never left mine.

"I've got to go to the bathroom," I announced to Seth and Jasper. "Tell them I'll be down in a few? My stomach isn't feeling so well," I lied.

The guys nodded and walked out of the room. While they weren't looking I winked at Edward, hoping he would catch on. After sitting in the bathroom for approximately one minute, there was a knock on the door.

"Bella?" I heard Edward's caring voice through the door.

I swung the door open with a huge smile on my face. As soon as Edward walked past me, he shut the door behind us and pushed me up against it.

"God, I need to kiss you, Bella," Edward said, his voice husky and low.

I didn't say a thing, but stood on my tip toes, pressing my lips against his. It was a frantic kiss, but felt so wonderful. His hands gripped me tightly, his body pressing into mine. My legs already felt weak, just as they did the night before. All too soon, Edward pulled away, but pressed his forehead against mine, both of us breathing deeply.

"I don't know how I went so long without this," Edward whispered sweetly as he brought one of his hands to the side of my face. "I will never go back to that, Bella… I want you so badly."

"I do, too," I replied breathlessly. "We need to get down there… they'll start wondering what's going on."

"I know, baby…" Edward groaned. "Promise we can do something tonight?"

"Of course," I grinned. I pressed my lips against his once more, wrapping my arms around him.

I went downstairs first and Edward came down a few minutes later, making up an excuse that something at the school dance must have made us sick. If my blushing face didn't give us away, then I didn't know what would…

"So, Edward… you have some news to share?" Esme asked, causing everyone to look towards Edward. I was sitting across from him as his foot kept nudging mine underneath the table.

"Yeah…" Edward said nervously as he fiddled with his napkin. "As you all know, my agent has been trying to get me to play again… so, he somehow set up for a few of the Dallas Cowboy reps to come out and visit with me. They happened to show up as Seth and I were practicing one day, and now they've set up for me to meet with them formally, next weekend in Dallas."

"Oh my god," the girls gasped.

"This is really fucking big!" Emmett said proudly, patting his hand on Edward's back. "So, you're going there to work out all the arrangements or what?"

Edward shook his head and sighed. "I haven't accepted anything yet. I'm still not too sure about it."

"Well, I think it's great, Edward," Jasper said with a warm smile. "We'll miss you at school, though… that's for sure." I looked down at my plate as I felt all eyes on me.

"Do you need us to go with you or are Ed and Liz going?" Carlisle asked.

"No, luckily Bella and Seth are going with me, so I won't be alone. It's a big decision, so I asked Bella to go along."

They all knew we were close, so that shouldn't have been a big surprise to them. If only my face wouldn't give me away. I noticed that Rose looked sort of upset or something, and as soon as she gave me one of her sympathetic smiles, I almost lost it.

"My parents don't even know yet… I haven't called them," Edward explained. "Dad will think it's a mistake no matter what and mom will be worried, of course."

"Well, dear… you need to tell them. Don't keep them in the dark on this," Esme said softly.

Edward agreed and everyone continued talking about how great of an opportunity he was being given. I agreed and was proud of my boyfriend. Was that what he was? Or were we just dating?

Once Esme packed up Tupperware containers of food for all of us, we left to go home. Edward followed Seth and I to my house. He was going to watch a movie with us, though I hoped I could talk him into spending the night. I didn't know how we'd work it out since we both had school the next day, but I wanted to sleep next to him again.

Edward and I didn't sit next to each other as Seth was in the living room with us, and to be completely honest, I didn't trust myself to sit by him. However, as soon as Seth headed up to his room for the night, Edward was on me almost instantly.

"I can't be apart from you," Edward whispered against my neck, causing my body to shiver from excitement. "I spent way too long apart from you… always holding back, when I wanted nothing more than to hold you like this," he continued, pulling me onto his lap, my legs resting on either side of his. "Wanting to kiss you like this," Edward whispered against my mouth, his tongue tracing along my lips.

I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling his face closer to mine as our mouths moved against one another. His very evident arousal was pressed into my thigh and every few seconds Edward would thrust upwards, pushing it hard against me. I wanted him so badly.

"Let's go to my room," I pleaded while one of Edward's hands moved between my thighs, tracing my panty line. I needed him.

Effortlessly, Edward stood, holding me against him, his hands grasping my ass tightly. He grabbed the television remote off of the couch and turned off the random movie we were "watching". I kissed his neck softly, causing him to let out a deep growl, which was the sexiest sound I had ever heard. As he made his way over to the staircase, he turned off the living room light and I took that as a good sign that maybe he was going to stay with me. I didn't want to sound like one of those nag-a-lot, clingy girlfriends, but I just wanted him with me.

Edward closed my bedroom door quietly so that we didn't wake up Seth, and as soon as the door was closed he stumbled to my bed, practically throwing me down with him landing on top of me.

"Sorry," Edward laughed. "I think I tripped on a shoe."

My head fell back against the bed as Edward began assaulting my neck with his mouth. My fingers clawed at his back, needing more from him. As if he could read my mind, Edward sat up and pulled his shirt off. My eyes were glued to his tight stomach muscles and broad shoulders. Who knew shoulders could be so sexy?

"This needs to go," Edward grumbled as he pulled my shirt up and over my head. His hands gently moved down my body, teasing my sensitive areas that desperately needed his attention. "You are so beautiful, Bella."

Minutes later, our clothes were thrown all over the room as we slid under the blankets, our bodies clinging to each other. Breathless moans filled the room while Edward's skilled hands roamed my body. I couldn't take anymore of the touching. I needed more.

"Please, Edward… I need you inside me," I whispered as my hand grasped his hardened cock in my hand.

Edward kissed along my collarbone while positioning himself. "Me too, baby… God, I need you so much, Bella."

We quietly moaned as Edward entered me, filling me up completely. He stayed still once he was fully sheathed inside, allowing me to adjust to his size. I placed my hands on either side of his face and kissed his lips softly.

"You feel so good, Edward."

"You're perfect, baby… completely fucking perfect," Edward groaned. He began moving slowly, pulling out extremely slowly, only to slam back into me very hard. One of his hands massaged my breast, while the other was gripping my headboard for leverage.

"Touch yourself, Bella." His voice was husky and low as his breaths grew erratic.

My hand moved between our bodies, passing below my stomach, finally reaching my clit, which was extra sensitive. My hips bucked as I rubbed slowly, one of my fingers brushing against my entrance, feeling Edward's cock moving in and out of me.

"Oh, fuck, baby…" Edward whispered loudly.

With my free arm, I wrapped it around Edward's neck again and pulled him down so I could whisper in his ear. "Can I ride you?"

"Mmmm… shit, Bella. You can't say stuff like that, baby…"

I grinned as Edward wrapped his arms around me and lay back, pulling me on top of him. Edward's hands massaged my body as I moved above him, his eyes locked with mine. With one of his hands placed on my hip, he guided me up and down, pushing me down hard each time, while his other hand rubbed furiously around my clit, causing my walls to clench all around him. Still being very quiet, I moaned his name as I came, Edward following close behind me.

"I'm… oh, baby… I'm coming," Edward moaned as he sat up in the bed, our chests flush against each other.

I feel his warm liquid spread inside me. Our arms were wrapped tightly around each other as Edward kissed me softly, whispering my name between kisses. Each time I had sex with Edward, it was more of an emotional experience. I had never felt that way about any other man.

I was in love with him.

And I would have blurted it out if we weren't kissing. Thank God for Edward's urgent kisses.

Edward laid us down on my mound of pillows and pulled the blanket over us. "I know I should probably leave, but I can't, Bella. I want to sleep next to you."

"Good," I sighed happily. "I was going to beg you to stay."

"You'd never have to beg me to stay, baby…"

"I didn't want to pressure you or presume that-"

"This is different for me, Bella," Edward interrupted, squeezing me even tighter against him, my back against his chest, his warm breath tickling my ear. "It's never been this way for me… I want everything with you… my sweet girl… you're mine. I refuse to share."

I let out a quiet giggle as Edward chuckled against my back. "Well, you don't have to worry about that because I don't want anyone else. But I don't share either."

"You're all I want, Bella," Edward said, his tone completely serious as he placed a small kiss on the back of my neck.

We didn't say anything else because that was all that needed to be said for the night. I knew he was speaking the truth and I'm pretty sure he knew the same of me. I cared deeply for him, more than I ever did for Eric.

I dreaded the morning. We had school to deal with when all I really wanted to do was lock him in my bedroom and enjoy the time we had together. I didn't know what the next week held since he was meeting with the Dallas guys – either option he chose would be hard for us to handle – if he chose to go, we'd be separated. And if he didn't, I would always wonder if he would regret his decision one day. I didn't want to be the reason for that decision, but if I was being honest, I didn't want him to go.

I was so screwed.

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