So it's gonna be forever
Or it's gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it's over
If the high was worth the pain
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My daughter was my pride and joy. Kaelynn Elise Marie Newman was a petite little girl with light blonde hair that shone in the sunlight. She had the prettiest, biggest blue eyes I have ever seen and even when you looked into them, you could never do her harm.
She was the sunshine in my life and she was the beacon in the darkness that kept me going and kept the haters at bay. She was the reason I tried to shrug off all the dirty looks and the sounds of the gossiping at my back. It was because of her.
It was because of Kaelynn that I tried my hardest to give her as best a life as I could. It was because of Kaelynn that I swore I would never do anything to jeopardize her future. It was because of Kaelynn that I swore I would not and could not fall in love.
Kaelynn would always come first in my life. I would always put her first. I swore to herself and myself that I didn't need a man. I needed Kaelynn and she needed me. That was all.
"Kaelynn Elise! You get down from that chair right now and I will not tell you once more!" It was because of Kaelynn that I was going to finish my last year of high school and then take summer classes through an online college.
"Let her be Chelsey. You need to get to school. Backpack and cellphone, lunch money is in your wallet. You get off to school. Me and Kaelynn will have fun today and we will be fine." I rolled my eyes and grabbed my wallet, my cellphone and my backpack. I was mentally checking off anything else I might need.
I was nervous to be leaving Kaelynn and my mother home alone. It was a new place and I wasn't sure how Kaelynn would adjust. She loved being on the east coast. She loved the beach.
"Chelsey you need to go. You're going to be late." I sighed and bent down and looked at Kaelynn. She turned towards me and smiled. Her cute little dimples popped out and she tilted her head to the side.
"Mommy come back." I smiled and pulled her towards me and gave her a tight hug. Her little arms wrapped around me as best as they could and then she pulled away.
"Mommy's going to school. I'll be back at 3:30." I balanced while holding onto the chair and looked at Kaelynn. Like water off a duck's back, Kaelynn shrugged me leaving off.
"I go play." Kaelynn put her hands on my shoulders and pushed. I stood up and let her get off the chair and watched her as she took off towards her play room.
I stared and watched her for a few moments before I sighed and turned on my heel. I grabbed my keys off of the table and walked towards the front entryway. I put my shoes on and finished getting ready and once that was all done, I stood there dreading leaving the house.
"Chelsey Newman! You leave this house! Now!" I groaned and walked out, slamming the door in the process.
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I was 24. 24 and I was still phasing. I was alone, imprint-less and I was annoyed that I was an older werewolf and still had to do shifts with the young pups. I had to babysit while others my age and older, were with their imprints and their kids.
'Babysitter. What a job.' I scoffed and kept running, my paws thudding on the soft, earthy ground. I was done my shift and I was blowing off steam. I was running over and across the border. I was running to blow off my frustrations and the ones that wouldn't go away, I would take out on my beat up vehicles I was fixing up.
'Embry, you have the same shift tomorrow. Don't be late.' Sam was still Alpha. He phased less and less and he was about to hand down the alpha position to Jacob, but he still had control.
I didn't understand why Sam wouldn't just stop phasing and be with Emily and their kids. I didn't get why he still wanted to be like this when he had so much more. I didn't have what he had. I was still waiting.
'I won't be late, Sam.' The annoyance was clear in my voice and I almost expected Sam to snap back at me, but his voice was quickly gone from my head and I was left alone with me and my thoughts.
"You should go out and get laid. Go out and have a few drinks and take some chick home and get laid." There was the thought and the need to get laid. And then there was the sharp pain. My imprint, when I did find her, would be pissed. I didn't want to hurt my future imprint. Whoever she was.
I huffed and continued to run. The trees and the scenery around me was blurring around me as I ran. I wasn't paying attention to anything around me and yet I knew exactly where I was going. I knew what I was doing. I knew which obstacles to avoid.
I could hear vehicles passing by. There was a road close to the edge of the forest, but I wasn't concerned. I could easily time it just right to avoid the vehicles and all human eyes. I knew how long to wait and when the best time to go was. I had run this same path over and over. It was harder to navigate than the others and it really kept me on my feet. Or rather paws.
I stopped for a brief moment and waited. When the time was right, I dashed across the road. I heard the honking of a vehicle horn and the sound of breaks screeching. I turned my head briefly but the driver was blocked by the hood of the car. All I saw was long, blonde hair and a short stature.
"What the hell?!" I groaned and dashed across the road. I knew Sam would be pissed. We weren't supposed to let anyone see us. And here some chick saw me in my wolf form.
Once I was in the forest and covered by the thick, green trees and bushes, I stopped and turned back. The vehicle was still there but the chick was standing outside, staring at the place where I had come from.
I rolled my eyes and snorted. I wasn't going to worry about it. No one would believe her anyway.
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