It had been 3 days since 'the incident'. Zosia had spent the first night in hospital with me, she laid in bed with me all night while I cried. Marie-Claire had stayed with me that day while Zosia had to go off to work to go and explain to our my school and make Dad understand about the emergency in the middle of the night, and why I had spent 3 days in hospital. She understood that I didn't want the entire world knowing that I had tried to kill myself. Then she stayed with me until I was discharged, popping out to have a shower once or twice. I don't understand why Zosia is so dedicated to me, I know she is my sister and everything, but I don't know what I would have done with out her with me in hospital. We fight all the time, but I know I can rely on her to be there when I need her to be.

I had gone into work with Dad and Zosia today, because they didn't trust me to be at home on my own. To be fair, I don't trust me at home on my own, so I don't blame them. Dad had left me in his office because he had to go a meeting. He's told me to go nowhere but his office and Keller to see Zosia, but I couldn't help myself. Dad had a phase where he was having a 'fling' with Jac Naylor, and since then we'd got on like a house on fire, she'd almost become like a second sister to me, and she even took me out on her bike occasionally.

I walked onto Jac's ward. I needed company. I'm not brilliant and being bored, and Dad should know that. Zosia had told people that I had had an allergic reaction to something I had eaten. The only people that knew what had actually happened where her, daddy, Marie-Claire and Jac. I felt like everyone was looking at me and judging me, but I had to tell myself that they didn't know and that I was just being silly.

As soon as I stepped through the door of the lift, Jac was in front of me and I was in her arms. My arms where against her chest and my head was tucked into her neck. Her soft hair against my cheek, and her sweet scent made me feel safe. I hadn't seen or spoken to her since before 'the incident'. She knew. I couldn't bring myself to say anything. I didn't need too.

"You silly, silly girl." Jac whispered, as she kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes and let her treat me like a little kid for a second.

I didn't reply. I didn't have anything to say for myself. What could I say? She was right. SHe stood with her arms around me for a few seconds, before people started to notice and stare.

"Come and sit with me." Jac said, gently taking my hand and leading me into her office.

When we got close to her office, I could feel something was not right. I just had an off feeling about it.
When Jac opened the door, and when I stepped inside, Zosia and Marie-Claire waiting for me.

I was stood in a triangle of Marie-Claire, Zosia and Jac. Marie-Claire and Zosia were sat either side of me on the sofa's and Jac was stood behind me on the inside of the door.

"I warned you not to do this Zosia." I muttered. I started backing towards the door.

"Hey..." Zosia started. Marie-Claire and Jac stayed silent.

"LEAVE ME ALONE." I said, raising my voice to her.

I turned and stormed out of the door. I almost walked into Jac in the process. I slammed the door on the way out.

Zosia tried to come after me, but Marie-Claire stopped her doing so.

I needed fresh air, but I didn't want to have to face people, or be found by my sister or any of her friends. There was only one place I could go where I knew I could do this. The roof.

I managed to make my way up to the roof without being seen by anyone. There was a raised bit, no where near the edge, that I could sit on and see out for miles. It was a lovely clear, warm day. I could see everything that was going on on the ground, I could even see into Dad's office. He wasn't in there which was no real surprise. It was nice just watching the world go by.

I must have been sat up there for 2 hours or so, clearing my head when I saw Marie- Claire run frantically out of the front of the hospital. Somehow she must have seen me and recognized me from the ground, I ducked down so she couldn't see me, but it was too late. I heard her scream out my name. I stayed ducked to the floor. I knew she would have a radio and someone would be up to me within minutes so I decided to enjoyed my last few minutes of peace. It really doesn't surprised me that Zosia had sent out a search party, this has her written all over it. I bed Dad is none the wiser. He knows not to worry about me when I go wandering. He knows I won't leave the hospital grounds.

I sat on the floor with my back against the wall that lines the edge.

Minutes later a security guard, Arthur and Zosia burst through the fire exit on the roof. I stood up and waited for my sister to loose it and spend the next half an hour yelling at me but in stead she ran over to me and hugged me then burst into tears still clinging onto me. I was still facing Arthur and the security guard.

I made eye contact with Arthur and mouthed 'what do I do?' because I wasn't used to dealing with an emotional Zosia.

He gestured with his arms out in a circle in front of him telling me to put my arms around her. I awkwardly put my arms around my sister.

Aurthur was mouthing at me 'like you mean it' so I hugged her properly. It was normally Zosia doing all the comforting.

After about a minute she calmed down enough to speak. She let me go and put her hands gently on either of my cheeks.

"Don't ever do this to me again." She said as she planted a firm kiss in the middle of my forehead. I let her hug me and I wrapped my arms around her properly this time and nestled into the warmth of her neck with her hair tickling my nose and cheek.

"I love you" She whispered.

"I love you too." I whispered back.

We stood cuddling on the rooftop for a minute or so until Marie-Claire and Jac appeared in the doorway of the fire exit. They all walked Zosia and I back to our dad's office, and Zosia stayed with me until it was time to go home. I don't think she wanted to let me out of her sight again.